I Came To You For Help
I came to you for help
And I left with several whelps
None for eyes to see
But I still feel the wounding of how you treated me.
Pleading for someone to help me sort out my confusion
Not knowing from moment to moment when I would have another delusion.
The voices in my head were so incredibly loud
And I couldn’t eat or sleep and I freaked out in crowds
“I can treat anything” is what you said
But all you did was raise the demons in my head.
We lost our babies and Sarah too.
And after two years you didn’t have a clue.
I opened up to you and you perverted my truth.
It became a game of falsifying and being a sleuth
I got scared and I got hurt
And you twisted our words for only you to make it work.
No matter how many tears I cried
It still didn’t feel as bad as the day that I almost died.
I called and called like you asked me to do
Please tell me what I did to ever disrespect you.
My loyalty once again was
Why oh why does this have to be a source of bleakness
You were Too damn proud to admit defeat
I could see that you resembled someone that was set on repeat.
The very ones that you hurt you couldn’t even see
Would also be the ones that were crying their pleas
I guess I should be counting my blessings now and again
But I was your sloppy seconds that you let out of the pen.
Again I would try to get back on my feet.
I’ll never forget that painful week.
I searched and searched but I feared everyone
Hating the process of trying to find a trusted one.
Getting hurt by a “safe one” as you referred to yourself
You made it much more difficult to find real help.
The years of searching and this is my truth….
She cares about me and “my guys” and doesn’t give a shit about you.
By: Dana Arnold