This Puzzled Life is a mental health and recovery blog exploring addiction, trauma healing, LGBTQ experiences, humor, and the strange moments that shape us.
“Leaving isn’t weakness. Staying alive long enough to escape is strength.”
-This Puzzled Life
Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. Call the ancestors the loud ones, the protective ones, in close. The ones who don’t mind flipping a table when truth needs to be told. Let the ancestors pull up their rocking chairs and lean in like, “Alright baby, tell it exactly how it happened.“ Because today, we’re walking straight into a fire that too many people pretend isn’t burning. And the topic is Domestic Violence Awareness Month.
This month isn’t just a purple ribbon or a hashtag. It’s a national reckoning. A month carved out because silence has killed too many. Shame has trapped too many. And judgment has wounded too many who were already bleeding. It exists because domestic violence is not one thing. Not one story. Not one bruise. It’s a whole constellation of harm that is emotional abuse, financial control, spiritual manipulation, psychological warfare, sexual coercion, digital stalking, physical stalking, rape, threats, intimidation, and isolation. All of it real. All of it dangerous.
And Lord knows, the Deep South has a long tradition of saying, “Well, why didn’t she just leave?” With the same tone they use when asking why you didn’t bring potato salad to the church potluck. But today we’re not whispering. We’re not sugarcoating. We’re not letting judgment drown out truth.
Domestic violence is more than bruises. More than shouting. More than slammed doors. It’s the slow erosion of your identity. It’s the constant fear humming under your skin. It’s the way you learn to read someone’s footsteps like weather patterns. It’s the way you shrink. Fold. And contort yourself trying to keep the peace that never stays peaceful.
And let me say this with all the Southern sass I can muster. If you’ve never lived it, you don’t get to judge it. Because “just leaving” is a fantasy sold by people who have never had their life threatened. Their finances controlled. Their spirit manipulated. Or their faith weaponized against them. I know this because I lived it. Fourteen years in a domestic abuse situation that nearly swallowed me whole. The cycle wasn’t simple. It was a trap crafted with precision love bombing, threats, and intimidation. That is continuously repeated until you forget what freedom feels like.
I didn’t stay because I was weak. I stayed because I was scared. I stayed because I was conditioned. I stayed because every exit felt like a death sentence. And let me make something crystal clear. It wasn’t a billionaire. It wasn’t a senator. It wasn’t a monster hiding in the shadows. It wasn’t an immigrant. It wasn’t a drag queen with a story book. It wasn’t a trans person. It wasn’t a black person. It was a white, “Christian” man in the Deep South. One who used the Bible like a weapon. While twisting scripture into shackles. Preaching submission while practicing cruelty. A man who believed control was his God-given right. And fear was his favorite language.
That’s why Domestic Violence Awareness Month matters. Because abuse doesn’t look like one stereotype. Survivors don’t fit one mold. Judgment is easy. But understanding saves lives. It is a promise. A collective vow that we will speak loudly. Love fiercely. And refuse to let anyone’s suffering stay hidden behind closed doors.
And now, let me drop this mic so hard the ancestors stand up and clap. I survived what was meant to break me. I reclaimed what was stolen from me. And I will never apologize again for the fire in my voice. Thanks for reading! What have been your experiences?
Affirmation: I honor my survival, my truth, and my healing. I am worthy of safety, love, and a life without fear.
“When you stop people‑pleasing, you don’t become unkind. You become un-owned.”
-This Puzzled Life
Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. Today we’re not just cleansing the air. We’re cleansing the generational rot that tried to bury us alive. While I also smile sweetly and was asked if I wanted more casserole.
There’s a special kind of exhaustion that comes from being raised in a culture where your worth is measured by how small you can make yourself. Where “good manners” means “don’t make anyone uncomfortable.” Even if you’re bleeding out emotionally. Where “respect” means “don’t you dare speak the truth out loud.” And the South? The South will hand you a monogrammed apron, a church bulletin, and a generational trauma starter pack before you can even walk. But today we’re unpacking all of it.
Let’s talk about people‑pleasing. Not the cute kind where you bring someone banana pudding because you love them. But the dangerous kind. The kind that rewires your nervous system. The kind that teaches you to abandon yourself so thoroughly that you forget you ever had needs in the first place.
People‑pleasing is not a personality trait. It’s a survival skill. A trauma response. A generational inheritance wrapped in a bow of “be sweet” and “don’t cause trouble.” And in the South, it’s practically a rite of passage.
We’re taught early don’t speak up. Don’t contradict. Don’t embarrass the family. Don’t make waves. Don’t question authority. Don’t tell the truth if the truth makes anyone uncomfortable. Don’t you dare put yourself first. That’s selfish. And for the love of all things holy, don’t let the church ladies hear you say “no.”
People‑pleasing becomes the currency of acceptance. The ticket to belonging. The price of being considered “good.” But here’s the sinister part. People‑pleasing trains you to betray yourself before anyone else even gets the chance. You learn to anticipate everyone’s needs but your own. You learn to apologize for existing. You learn to smile through pain so convincingly that even you forget you’re hurting. You learn to make yourself small enough to fit inside other people’s expectations. And the world, especially the Southern world, rewards you for it. Until you stop.
The moment you stop people‑pleasing. The moment you say “no,” or “that’s not okay,” or “I’m not doing that anymore.” The moment you choose yourself? Suddenly you’re the villain in a story you didn’t write. Suddenly you’re “difficult.” Suddenly you’re “ungrateful.” Suddenly you’re “too sensitive,” “too outspoken,” “too much,” “too emotional,” “too opinionated,” “too educated,” “too aware,” and “too alive.” But the truth is simple. You’re not too much. You’re just finally enough for yourself. And that terrifies people who benefited from your silence.
People‑pleasing is dangerous because it teaches you that your safety depends on your compliance. It teaches you that love must be earned through self‑abandonment. It teaches you that your needs are negotiable. But everyone else’s are sacred. When you grow up in a culture that worships politeness more than honesty. Appearances more than integrity. And reputation more than reality. You learn to disappear. Until one day, you don’t.
And here’s where it gets personal. This isn’t theory for me. This isn’t something I read in a book or heard in a podcast. This is lived experience that was carved into my bones. Stitched into my history. And dragged behind me for decades like a cross I never volunteered to carry.
On a personal note, my family marinated me in people‑pleasing my entire life. And when you don’t comply? You get labeled the troublemaker. The problem. The one who “changed.” The one who “thinks she’s better.” The one who “needs to calm down.” The one who “makes everything difficult.” But not teaching me boundaries while simultaneously demanding I people‑please was dangerous. Not inconvenient. Not uncomfortable. Dangerous.
I have almost died multiple times because I gave more of myself than I had to give. I was trained to prioritize everyone else’s happiness over my own survival. I was taught that my needs were optional. But their approval was oxygen. And in the South, it’s a shameful way of life to even question this dynamic.
I had to come to a point, not helped by their expectations, where I finally put myself first. And now that I have strong boundaries, my family and the community think I’m “nasty” because I tell them I don’t need their validation. They want me to “cow tow” to their needs while never expecting the same from them. And that, my friends, is the pinnacle of hypocrisy and controlling behavior. And at this point in my life, I can say with confidence that I’ll never allow myself to be controlled by someone else ever again.
Let me make this plain in a way even the most selectively‑forgetful, Bible‑thumping, reputation‑worshipping, boundary‑hating folks can understand. I am no longer available for my own destruction. I am no longer the family sponge soaking up everyone else’s dysfunction. I am no longer the emotional punching bag for people who refuse to face their own shadows. I am no longer the scapegoat for sins I didn’t commit. I am no longer the child who learned to survive by disappearing. I am no longer the adult who thought love meant self‑sacrifice. I am no longer the woman who begged for crumbs of acceptance from people who never learned how to love without conditions. I am done.
I’m done with the gaslighting. Done with the hypocrisy. Done with the “good Christian” performances. Done with the selective morality. done with the selective compassion. Done with the silence that protects abusers. Done with the shame that was never mine to carry. Done with the generational curses disguised as tradition. And done with the expectation that I should shrink so others can feel tall.
I am not here to make anyone comfortable. I am not here to uphold anyone’s illusion. I am not here to play the role they assigned me. I am not here to be palatable, agreeable, or quiet. I am here to live. Fully. Boldly. Truthfully. Unapologetically. And if my boundaries offend you? If my healing threatens you? If my voice rattles your cage? If my truth exposes your lies? That’s not my burden. That’s your mirror.
So let me end this with the clarity of a woman who has crawled out of the grave they dug for me. I didn’t lose my family. I lost my captors. I didn’t lose my community. I lost my chains. I didn’t lose my identity. I reclaimed it. And I will never, ever, ever hand it back. Lights out. Thanks for reading! To thine own self be true. What are your experiences with this?
Affirmation: My boundaries are sacred. My truth is valid. My life belongs to me now fully and forever.
“Therapy is where my mouth says things my brain did not approve.”
-This Puzzled Life
Light the charcoal. Let it crackle like your last nerve. Because apparently my healing journey requires ambiance, smoke, and at least three ancestors supervising like I’m about to shoplift emotionally from the universe. Summon the ancestors. They love a front‑row seat to your emotional chaos. And today we’re adding a full therapy‑session script to the memoir of oversharing that already has them passing around spiritual popcorn.
The moment the charcoal sparks, I can hear Great‑Grandma Eunice whispering, “Lord, she’s going back to therapy again. Somebody get the popcorn.” And she’s right. Every time I walk into therapy, I transform from a functioning adult into a confused emotional raccoon who has been handed a microphone and zero supervision. I walk in with the intention of being mature. Grounded. And emotionally regulated. Five minutes later I’m saying things like:
strategic avoidance-“I’m not avoiding my problems, I’m just strategically rescheduling them.”
vibes-based coping-“My coping skills are vibes-based.”
attachment enthusiasm– “I don’t have attachment issues. I have attachment enthusiasm.”
fine-while-crying-“I’m fine.” While crying like a Victorian widow who just lost her husband to a horse accident.
My therapist sits there nodding like she’s watching a documentary about a rare woodland creature trying to file taxes.
Healing is wild. But it’s also tender. It’s not just me blurting out unhinged one-liners like a raccoon with a microphone. It’s also the quiet moments where I surprise myself with actual growth. And a lot of times, it’s just not pretty going through the process. So, here’s the more wholesome side of the things I’ve said in therapy. The ones that haunt me, yes, but also hold me.
1. “I’m trying.”
Not perfectly. Not consistently. But honestly. My therapist smiled so softly I almost cried again.
2. “I didn’t know I was allowed to feel that.”
And the ancestors hummed in agreement like a gospel choir warming up.
3. “I’m learning to be kinder to myself.”
My therapist nodded. My inner child peeked out from behind a metaphorical couch. Even my houseplant perked up a little.
4. “I don’t want to shut down anymore.”
That one made the room quiet in a holy way. Even the ancestors stopped chewing their spiritual peppermints.
5. “I’m scared, but I’m here.”
And honestly? That’s the bravest sentence I’ve ever said.
6. “I didn’t run from the hard thing this week.”
The ancestors clapped like I just graduated from emotional kindergarten.
7. “I’m starting to believe I deserve good things.”
My therapist wrote something down very gently. Probably “progress,” but in therapist handwriting it could also say “pot roast.”
8. “I’m learning to rest without guilt.”
This one made Great‑Grandma shout, “FINALLY” from the ancestral balcony.
9. “I’m not who I used to be.”
And that’s not scary anymore. It’s sacred.
10. “I’m proud of myself.”
And for once, I meant it.
The ancestors still show up. But now they’re less “judgmental pigeons.” And more “spiritual aunties who brought snacks and encouragement.”
Mamaw: “Baby, healing is slow-cooked, not microwaved.”
Uncle: “You’re doing better than you think.”
Aunty: “Tell your therapist you drank water today. She’ll be thrilled.”
They’re still loud. They’re still dramatic. But they’re rooting for me like I’m the only contestant on a cosmic game show called Emotional Regulation: The Remix.
THINGS I SHOULD NOT HAVE SAID OUT LOUD
descending with style-“I’m not spiraling, I’m just descending with style.”
houseplant trauma bond– “I trauma-bonded with a houseplant once.”
trust questions-“I don’t have trust issues. I have trust questions.”
inner child rebellion-“My inner child is tired of my shit.”
emotional airplane mode-“I’m not emotionally unavailable. I’m emotionally… on airplane mode.”
ancestor disappointment -“My ancestors did not survive plagues, wars, and the Great Depression for me to be defeated by a group chat.”
financial miracle plan-“I don’t need coping skills. I need a nap and a financial miracle.”
conflict timeout-“I’m not avoiding conflict. I’m giving it space to think about what it’s done.”
haunted brain-“My brain is like a haunted house. I don’t go in there alone.”
The ancestors? They’re not supportive. They’re entertained.
The Therapy Session: The Day I Overshared So Hard The Ancestors Stood Up
Therapist: “So, how have you been since last week?”
Me: “Emotionally? I’m like a Walmart shopping cart. One wheel is fine. The other three are screaming.”
Ancestor Mamaw(materializing): “Tell her about the Wal-Mart parking lot incident.”
Me: “Not now, Mamaw.”
Therapist: “Who are you talking to?”
Me: “My ancestors. They’re very involved.”
Therapist: “Okay, let’s explore that.”
Me: “No. The last time we explored something, I cried so hard I dehydrated myself.”
Therapist: “What’s coming up for you today?”
Me: “Well, I said ‘I’m fine’ earlier and my left eye twitched so hard it tried to leave my body.”
Therapist: “And what do you think that means?”
Me: “That my nervous system is wanting to avoid feelings.”
Ancestor Uncle: “She’s not wrong.”
Therapist: “Let’s talk about your coping skills.”
Me: “They’re vibes-based.”
Therapist: “Meaning?”
Me: “Meaning sometimes I blog. Sometimes I cry. Sometimes I eat a Pop-Tart and stare into the void.”
Therapist: “And how does that work for you?”
Me: “Well, I’m here.”
Ancestor Aunty: “Tell her about the houseplant.”
Me: “No.”
Therapist: “Houseplant?”
Me: “I trauma-bonded with a fern. We don’t need to unpack that.”
Therapist: “Everything is welcome here.”
Me: “Okay, but is everything refundable? I’d like to return some of these emotions.”
Therapist: “Let’s try grounding.”
Me: “I am grounded. That’s the problem. I’d like to be airborne.”
Therapist: “What do you need right now?”
Me: “A nap. A snack. A financial miracle. A dab, joint, and edible. And maybe a hug from someone with stable nervous system energy.”
Ancestor Mamaw: “She needs Jesus.”
Me: “I need a coupon code for life.”
Therapist: “Let’s breathe together.”
Me: “Okay, but if I start crying, it’s your fault.”
So here I stand surrounded by charcoal smoke. Ancestors perched like judgmental pigeons. Therapist scribbling notes like she’s drafting a memoir of her own. And me reflecting on the things I’ve said in therapy that haunt me like student loans.
And for the record? This was a tongue and cheek blog. My therapist has the patience of Job. Biblical-level patience. Generational patience. Patience that could calm a tornado with a peppermint and a soft voice. And I’ll say it plainly. I would not want to be my therapist or have her job. Not in this lifetime. Not in the next. Not even as a ghost with benefits.
Old ideologies and messages are hard to delineate from. Some of the ones about myself are probably be permanent. Others have changed or are changing slowly and stubbornly. And it’s like a mule being asked to do yoga.
But here’s the truth. Therapy can be where my mouth says things my brain did not approve. If you can’t laugh at some of the wild internal justifications your brain invents throughout the therapeutic process, the journey becomes heavier than it needs to be. Laughter doesn’t erase the work. It just makes the work survivable. So, if my therapy sessions sound like a comedy special hosted by a traumatized raccoon with a southern accent, that’s between me, my therapist, and the ancestors who refuse to mind their business. If oversharing burned calories, I’d be a supermodel by now.
Affirmation: I release shame. Embrace honesty. And trust that my chaos is still holy.
“Silence is the oldest accomplice of violence. And Mississippi has been silent for far too long.”
-This Puzzled Life
Light the charcoal, y’all. Because my ancestors are pacing the porch tonight. I can feel them in the humidity, the cicada buzz, and in the way the air gets thick right before a storm. They’re whispering. Tapping their feet. And shaking their heads the way old Southern aunties do when they’ve had enough of the foolishness. And Lord knows Mississippi has given us more than enough foolishness wrapped in Bible verses. Dipped in denial. And served with a side of “the South will rise again” delusion.
Because let’s tell the truth. The “Christian” community down here loves to shout about sin until it’s time to call out violence against Black bodies. Then suddenly everybody’s quiet. Clutching pearls. And humming hymns like silence is salvation. They’ll condemn a teenager’s skirt length before they condemn a system that keeps killing Black people. They’ll preach forgiveness while refusing accountability. They’ll talk about “God’s love” while ignoring the blood on their own soil. And I’m done pretending that’s holy.
Mississippi has always been a place where racism isn’t just a belief. It’s infrastructure. It’s policy. It’s tradition. It’s the foundation poured into the dirt generations ago. And too many folks still treat it like sacred ground.
And now, again, violence has come knocking at the doors of Black families. Again, the state government refuses to investigate. Again, accountability disappears when the killer is white. Again, we are told to “wait for the facts.” While the facts are buried under good ol’ boy politics and backroom handshakes.
A one-year-old Black baby was shot and killed by a white officer over diapers. Let me say that again. A baby died because a grown man with a badge felt threatened by diapers.
A Black teenage boy was found dead under mysterious circumstances. And instead of answers, we get a cover-up thicker than Delta mud. Evidence missing. Stories changing. Officials shrugging like a child’s life is just a paperwork inconvenience.
And now, a Black woman found hanging from a tree in 2026. And the state wants us to believe it’s anything other than what it looks like. Mississippi has a long, violent history with Black bodies and trees. We know what this is. We’ve seen it before. Our ancestors saw it before. And the silence from leadership is louder than any confession.
This isn’t coincidence. This isn’t isolated. This is a pattern, a legacy, and a sickness that Mississippi refuses to treat because too many people benefit from the infection. And let me tell you something. I’m old enough now to stand up and say it plainly. I’m old enough to fight for marginalized groups which include Black folks, brown folks, Indigenous folks, immigrants, and anyone who doesn’t fit the whitewashed mold Mississippi keeps trying to force us into. I’m old enough to say that I’m proud that I didn’t buy into the racist ideology that some of my own family members still cling to like it’s heirloom china.
I broke the cycle. I chose humanity over heritage. I chose truth over tradition. I chose justice over comfort. And if that makes me the black sheep at the family reunion, hand me the potato salad because I’ll graze in the pasture with pride. I’m proud to say I’m not like them. Not molded by their fear. Not shaped by their hate. Not carved into the same brittle statue of “tradition” they keep worshiping like it’s holy. I’m proud to say I crawled out of the same Mississippi clay. And still managed to grow in a different direction. And it was one that didn’t twist my roots around racism and call it heritage.
If rejecting their ideology means I lose my seat at the family table, then pull the chair out from under me. If refusing to swallow their silence means I’m no longer welcome in their church pews, then let the hymns echo without me. If choosing humanity over hypocrisy means I have to walk away from religion entirely, then I’ll walk away barefoot. Head high and unbothered.
Because I refuse to be loyal to a system that kills Black children and calls it “procedure.” I refuse to be loyal to a state that covers up Black death and calls it “ongoing investigation.” I refuse to be loyal to a community that sees a Black woman hanging from a tree and calls it “unfortunate.” I refuse to be loyal to people who hide behind scripture while ignoring suffering. I refuse to be loyal to any ideology that demands my silence while it destroys lives.
Mississippi may be built on racism. But I am not. Mississippi may cling to its racist past. But I do not. Mississippi may worship its own mythology. But I refuse to kneel. I am not like them. I will never be like them. And if breaking away from their beliefs is the cost of protecting my soul, integrity, and humanity, then that’s a price I’ll pay in full with no regrets.
Let them keep their “South will rise again” fantasies. I’m rising in a different direction. One they can’t touch. Can’t claim. And sure as hell can’t control. That’s my mic drop. And I won’t be picking it back up. Thanks for reading! What are your thoughts?
Affirmation: I honor my ancestors by refusing to repeat their pain. I stand in truth. I stand in courage. And I stand in love even when I stand alone.
“I don’t blame the people we lost. I blame the silence that swallowed them.”
-This Puzzled Life
Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. Lord knows, if we’re gonna talk about Suicide Awareness Month in the Deep South, we’re gonna need all the spiritual reinforcements we can get. The air gets thick. The whispers get quieter. And the truth starts pacing the room like it’s looking for a way out.
Let me set the scene. It’s September in the Deep South. Humidity thick enough to baptize you against your will. Church signs flashing Bible verses like spiritual traffic tickets. Every conversation about mental health wrapped in a casserole dish of denial. Then Suicide Awareness Month rolls around. And the way conservative Southern Baptists respond? You’d think someone asked them to admit they’ve been depressed since Reagan.
They hit you with the classic, “Thoughts and prayers.” And that’s the entire statement. Full stop. Period. End of sentence. End of conversation. If you try to talk about suicide beyond that? Oh, honey that happens behind closed doors. Whispered like gossip. Treated like sin. And buried under shame so thick you’d need a backhoe to dig it out. That’s how the shaming works down here. Not by yelling. But by refusing to speak at all. And I’m tired of silence being the loudest killer in the room. Suicide isn’t a “them” problem. It’s an all of us problem. And the numbers don’t lie. Even when the people in power do.
Over 49,000 people died by suicide in 2023. And that’s one death every 11 minutes. Suicide rates have climbed back to their previous peak after years of fluctuation. But some groups are hurting more than others. https://www.cdc.gov/suicide/facts/data.html?, 2026
1.American Indian & Alaska Native Communities
These communities have some of the highest suicide rates in the nation. Youth in these groups are disproportionately impacted due to historical trauma. Lack of access to care. And systemic neglect.
LGBTQIA+ youth face significantly higher suicide risk due to rejection, discrimination, and lack of safe spaces. And let’s be honest. The current political climate isn’t helping. Policies targeting queer and trans youth only increase fear, isolation, and hopelessness.
Black youth suicide rates have been rising with unique stressors tied to racism, community stigma, and lack of culturally competent mental health care.
Veterans continue to face elevated suicide risk due to PTSD, trauma, homelessness, and lack of adequate support. The VA reports long‑term patterns of high suicide rates among veterans. Especially those facing mental health and substance use disorders.
I don’t write this from a distance. I write this from the front row of grief and personal struggle.
My life has been touched by suicide from more angles than I ever wanted. I’ve seen it happen to friends and family. People I loved. People I tried to reach. People I didn’t know were hurting until it was too late. And let me say this clearly. I am not mad at them. I do not hate them. I am not angry at what they did.
I am just deeply, sorry that they weren’t able to be reached. Sorry that the world failed them. Sorry that shame kept them silent. Sorry that help wasn’t accessible, safe, or welcoming. Sorry that they believed the lie that their pain was a burden. They deserved better. And so do the people still here.
I’m not here to sugarcoat this. Our nation’s mental health crisis is rising in part because of the current administration’s policies. And the harm they inflict on marginalized communities. When leaders create fear. Strip rights. Target vulnerable groups. And normalize cruelty. The emotional fallout is real. People feel unsafe. People feel hopeless. People feel hunted. And hopelessness is fertile ground for despair. This isn’t partisan. It’s human. And the statistics reflect the pain people are living through.
And here’s the thing I keep coming back to, over and over, like a hymn that won’t leave my bones. We are losing people because we refuse to talk. We are losing people because shame is easier to hand out than compassion. We are losing people because silence is the South’s favorite weapon. And its most deadly.
I grew up watching folks whisper about suicide like it was a scandal instead of a tragedy. I watched churches pray for “healing” while refusing to name the wound. I watched families bury their children and still pretend nothing was wrong. I watched people I loved slip through cracks that should never have existed in the first place. And I’m done pretending that this is normal. I’m done pretending that this is holy. I’m done pretending that this is anything but deadly.
Because the truth is this. People don’t die from weakness. People die from isolation. People die from shame. People die from being told their pain is an inconvenience. And if that stings, good. Some truths are supposed to.
I have lost people I loved. People I laughed with. People I prayed for. People I would’ve driven across state lines for if I had known they needed me. And I don’t carry anger toward them. I don’t carry resentment. I don’t carry judgment. What I carry is sorrow. A deep, marrow‑level sorrow that they didn’t feel reachable. That they didn’t feel safe. That they didn’t feel like this world had room for their pain. And I will never stop wishing they had stayed. Not because their leaving was wrong. But because they deserved a world that didn’t make leaving feel like the only option.
Let me say this plainly. Because I’m not sugarcoating a damn thing today. Our country is hurting because our leadership is hurting us. Policies that target the vulnerable create despair. Cruelty from the top trickles down like poison in the water supply. And if that makes someone uncomfortable, they can go ahead and sit with that discomfort. Maybe it’ll teach them something. I’m not here to protect feelings. I’m here to protect lives.
This is my altar call, benediction, my Southern‑fried truth served hot and holy. We cannot pray away what we refuse to confront. We cannot heal what we refuse to name. We cannot save people we refuse to see. If we want to stop losing our loved ones, we have to stop hiding behind “thoughts and prayers” like they’re bulletproof. We have to talk. We have to listen. We have to show up. We have to fight for the living with the same passion we mourn the dead. Because every single person lost to suicide deserved a world that didn’t break them. So, if you hear me. If you really hear me. Then stand up. Even in the back. Even if your knees pop like bubble wrap. And say it with your whole chest. Thanks for reading! How can you relate to this?
Affirmation: My voice is a lifeline. My truth is a lantern. I speak so others don’t have to suffer in the dark.
“I am one minor inconvenience away from becoming a cryptid who lives in the woods and only appears to steal Wi-Fi.”
-This Puzzled Life
Light the charcoal. If we Gen Xers are gonna summon our inner Badass Affirmations, we need fire, smoke, and at least one neighbor peeking over the fence wondering if we’re starting a cookout or an exorcism. (Honestly, could be both. Depends on the day and the humidity.)
Listen, Gen Xers. We are the generation that survived lead paint, lawn darts, and riding in the back of pickup trucks at 70 mph. And parents who thought “therapy” was a sign of demonic possession. We are the middle children of America. The duct tape holding this country together. While Boomers argue on Facebook. Ok, I do argue on Facebook too. And Millennials cry into their oat milk. And now? Now we’re supposed to “affirm” ourselves like we’re soft, gentle beings who believe the universe is listening. Well, the universe is listening. But she’s got AirPods in. And she’s halfway through a true crime podcast.
So, today’s affirmations are not soft. They’re not gentle. They’re not written in pastel fonts with butterflies. No ma’am. These are Badass Affirmations for Today’s Gen Xers. They are forged in sarcasm. Raised on MTV. And baptized in the holy waters of “I don’t have time for this mess.” And yes, we’re doing it with Southern sass. Queer sparkle. And a healthy side-eye toward the conservative Christians. Who, ironically, swear Jesus hates everything except casseroles and Hobby Lobby.
Let us begin with the First Commandment of Gen X Badassery.
1. Thou shalt not let anyone born after 1995 tell you how to live.
If a 22-year-old tries to explain “self-care” to you, simply nod. Smile. And remember you once moisturized with St. Ives Apricot Scrub and survived.
2. Thou shalt embrace the chaos.
We are the generation that watched our parents scream about Satanic Panic while we listened to Madonna and played Dungeons & Dragons. Chaos is our birthright. We don’t run from it. We season it. Fry it. And serve it with sweet tea.
3. Thou shalt not be guilt-tripped by hypocrites.
If someone clutching a Bible tries to shame you for existing, remind them Jesus hung out with prostitutes, tax collectors, and fishermen. Not HOA presidents. And if they still don’t get it, bless their heart and move on. (Bless their heart = Southern for “I hope your casserole burns.”)
4. Thou shalt affirm thyself with the confidence of a drag queen at a Baptist potluck.
You are not too old. You are not too tired. You are not too anything. You are a Gen Xer. We were forged in sarcasm. Fueled by caffeine. And held together by ibuprofen and spite.
5. Thou shalt remember that Gen X invented minding your business.
We walked home alone after school. We raised ourselves on microwaved pizza rolls. We learned to fix emotional trauma with sarcasm and a mixtape. We do not need Karen from church telling us how to parent, pray, or process our trauma.
6. Thou shalt embrace your gay sass, even if your mee-maw still calls it “your little personality.”
Honey, shine. Shimmer. Sparkle like a disco ball at a revival tent. If they don’t like it, they can go read Leviticus and leave you alone.
7. Thou shalt affirm your worth even when your back pops like bubble wrap every time you stand up.
You are still hot. You are still powerful. You are still the generation that survived dial-up internet. You can survive anything.
So, light the charcoal. Gen X is not just for ambiance. But as a spiritual act of rebellion. Let that smoke rise like our collective patience leaving our bodies every time someone under 30 says, “OK boomer.” And we have to remind them we are the generation that invented eye‑rolling, sarcasm, and emotional detachment as a coping mechanism.
Stand tall in your Crocs. Your orthopedic inserts. Your “I swear I used to be fun” hoodie. Lift your chin with the confidence of someone who survived dial‑up, Reaganomics, and parents who thought seatbelts were “optional suggestions.” Declare your affirmations with the boldness of a queer Southerner walking into a conservative church potluck carrying a rainbow Jell‑O mold and a smile that says, “Yes, Brenda, I am the agenda.”
Let your voice boom like a Baptist preacher who just found out the choir director is gay (again). Let your spirit shine like Aqua Net on prom night. Let your boundaries be firmer than your lower back when it locks up at 6 a.m. for no reason.
Because you, my darling Gen X legend, are a walking contradiction of grit, glitter, trauma, triumph, sarcasm, and survival. You are the generation that raised yourself. Therapized yourself. Caffeinated yourself. And resurrected yourself more times than Jesus’ PR team could keep up with.
You are the duct tape holding this country together. You are the middle child of America who learned to thrive in chaos. You are the badass who can say “bless your heart” with 47 different meanings. And all of them legally binding.
And if anyone tries to dim your shine or question your worth or tell you you’re “too old” for something, smile sweetly. Take a deep breath. Channel your ancestors. Your inner drag queen. Your inner grunge‑era rage. And your inner Southern auntie who keeps a flask in her purse. Then say, with holy conviction, “I survived the 80s, the 90s, and three decades of other people’s nonsense. I am not the one.”
Now go forth, Gen X. Be bold. Be loud. Be unbothered. Be the badass affirmation the world needs. And may your charcoal always light on the first try. Thanks for reading! Does this blog feel “right on the money” for our generation?
Affirmation: I am a Gen X masterpiece. I’m sarcastically blessed. Spiritually moisturized. And too seasoned to be shaken by amateurs.
Light the charcoal. Pull up a chair. And let’s call the ancestors. Today, we’re about to talk about a woman whose legacy smells like warm biscuits, rhinestones, and generational healing. Dolly Parton wasn’t just a country singer. She was a walking love letter to humanity. A Southern phoenix who rose from the Smoky Mountains with a voice full of honey and a heart full of fire. And Lord, did she use that fire to light the way for all of us.
When we speak Dolly Parton’s name, we’re not just telling a story. We’re summoning a legacy stitched into the bones of the South, the nation, and every child who ever held a book and felt their world crack open with possibility.
Dolly wasn’t just a singer. She was a healer. A mountain-born miracle. A Southern woman who took her own childhood that was poor, barefoot, brilliant, and turned it into a mission to make sure no child, anywhere, ever felt small because of their circumstances.
She carried the Smoky Mountains in her voice. It was the sass of every Southern auntie who ever said, “Bless your heart. But fix your life.” And the tenderness of a mama who knows what it means to struggle and still show up with love. And when it came to children, Dolly didn’t play. She built an empire of hope one book, one song, one act of kindness at a time.
10 Things Dolly Did for All Communities (Especially the Ones Society Overlooked)
She created the Imagination Library, sendingover 200 million free books to children in rural, urban, poor, wealthy, Black, white, immigrant, Indigenous, disabled, LGBTQ+ families, and everyone. Dolly said literacy wasn’t a privilege. It was a birthright.
She made sure those books were culturally inclusive. They featured stories with diverse characters, languages, and experiences so every child could see themselves reflected in the pages.
She funded vaccine research by helping save lives during a global crisis without needing applause or credit.
She uplifted LGBTQ+ communities by loving loudly. Defending boldly. And showing up long before it was “safe” or trendy.
She championed women’s empowerment by proving you can be glamorous, soft, and still run an empire with steel in your spine.
She protected Appalachian culture by honoring the stories, music, and people who shaped her. And making sure the world respected them too.
She donated millions to disaster relief, especially in overlooked Southern and rural communities that often get left behind.
She built Dollywood, creating thousands of jobs and economic stability for families who needed hope and opportunity.
She supported literacy and education beyond books, funding scholarships, schools, and programs for children who grew up like she did full of potential but lacking resources.
She modeled radical kindness, showing the world that compassion is not weakness. It’s world-changing power.
Dolly didn’t just give books. She gave children a future. She gave parents hope. She gave communities pride. She gave generations a chance to dream bigger than their circumstances.
Dolly Parton walked through this world like a rhinestone-wrapped blessing. She didn’t ask permission to shine. She just did. And she made sure everyone around her felt the warmth of that glow. She was the kind of woman who could take her own childhood poverty and turn it into a global literacy movement. Who could take her pain and turn it into poetry. Who could take her sass and turn it into strength.
She taught us that kindness is a revolution. She taught us that generosity is a legacy. She taught us that beauty is not about perfection. It’s about authenticity. She taught us that you can be underestimated your whole life and still outwork, out love, and outshine every last person who doubted you. She didn’t just leave behind songs. She left behind libraries. She left behind hope. She left behind a blueprint for how to live with grace, humor, and unapologetic sparkle.
So, light the charcoal. Let the ancestors hum. Let the mountains echo her name. Because Dolly Parton didn’t just change country music. She didn’t just change philanthropy. She didn’t just change the South. She changed humanity one child, one book, one act of love at a time. Mic dropped. Sequins scattered. Legacy eternal.
Affirmation: I shine boldly. Give generously. And build a legacy of love just like Dolly taught me.
“If the 80s didn’t kill me. Your opinion definitely won’t.”
-This Puzzled life
Light the charcoal. If we’re gonna talk about the 80s, we need smoke, drama, and at least one angelic visitation from a Southern Baptist church lady clutching a casserole. And whisper‑praying for our souls.
I had barely struck the match when Piper strutted in like she was auditioning for RuPaul’s Drag Race: Feline Edition. Coco followed. She was rolling her eyes so hard she saw her own brain. Tinkerbell arrived last. She was carrying the emotional weight of someone who lived through dial‑up internet. And refuses to talk about it.
Piper: “Mama, tell us again how y’all used to chase the mosquito‑spraying truck like it was the ice cream man.”
Me: “Baby, that was our version of aromatherapy.”
Coco: “So you willingly ran toward poison?”
Me: “Yes, and we called it summer.”
Tinkerbell: “Lord have mercy. Y’all were one bad decision away from a Lifetime movie called ‘Bless Her Heart: The Dana Story.’”
Piper: “Was this before or after you realized you were gay?”
Me: “Before. But the signs were there. I had a favorite Golden Girl.”
Coco: “Which one?”
Me: “Dorothy.”
Tinkerbell: “Yeah, that tracks.”
The charcoal popped. The cats stared. And I knew it was time to confess the truth. 80s childhood wasn’t a vibe. It was a survival sport.
Look, kids today have helmets, GPS trackers, and parents who Google things like “Is this safe?” We had none of that. We had vibes and the Lord’s protection. Which was honestly stretched thin. He was also busy dealing with televangelists, Reaganomics, and every Southern mama praying for her gay child without knowing why.
UNSUPERVISED BIKE RIDES
We rode bikes miles away from home with no water, no sunscreen, and no adult supervision. If you got lost, you didn’t call anyone. You just accepted your new life in the woods like a feral pioneer child.
THE MOSQUITO TRUCK
Modern kids run from danger. We ran toward it. That fog rolled down the street like a Stephen King villain and we said, “Oh goodie, free mist!”
THE SNACKS
We ate plastic‑wrapped cheese. Kool‑Aid with enough sugar to stop a grown man’s heart. Bologna that had a rainbow sheen. And popsicles that tasted like lead paint and joy.
THE PARENTING STYLE
Southern parents in the 80s didn’t “supervise.” They announced. “Be home by dark.” That was it. No follow‑up questions. No safety plan. Just vibes and Jesus.
THE GAY PART
Growing up gay in the conservative South was like being a unicorn in a deer stand. You knew you were magical. But you also knew you needed to stay quiet, or someone’s mee-maw would try to pray the glitter out of you.
Meanwhile, my cats listened to all this like they were taking notes for a documentary.
Piper: “So basically, y’all were raised by chaos and pesticides.”
Coco: “And shame. Don’t forget the shame.”
Tinkerbell: “Honestly, it explains everything.”
So yes. Every 80s kid was one bad decision away from a Lifetime movie plot. We survived poison fog. Unsupervised adventures. Snacks that violated FDA guidelines. And Southern Christianity’s “We love you but also don’t ask questions” energy.
Let me tell you something right now. Standing here in my Mississippi kitchen with three judgmental cats and the ghost of every Southern church lady who ever side‑eyed my existence hovering over my left shoulder like a passive‑aggressive guardian angel.
We, the 80s kids, should not be alive. Not metaphorically. Not spiritually. I mean biologically, medically, scientifically, and according to every modern parenting blog written by someone named Brittany who packs organic snacks in BPA‑free containers.
We were raised in an era where seatbelts were “optional suggestions.” Bike helmets were “for the weak.” And the mosquito truck was “community enrichment.” We were one bad decision away from starring in a Lifetime movie titled “Bless Her Heart: The Dana Chronicles” or “Raised By Pesticides” or “Southern Gay Survival Story.” Take your pick.
And while we were out there inhaling poison fog like it was Chanel No. 5, our Southern Christian parents were inside praying hedge‑of‑protection prayers so thick they could’ve been used as insulation. Not that they knew what we were doing. They thought we were “playing outside.” Ma’am, we were reenacting Lord of the Flies with bicycles and no adult supervision.
Meanwhile, I was also quietly navigating the spiritual obstacle course of being a gay kid in the conservative South. Which meant I was simultaneously dodging mosquito fog, emotional repression, and Sister Linda’s unsolicited prophecy that “the Lord has a special plan for you.” And he did. It involved glitter and sarcasm.
And now? Now we’re grown. We pay bills. We raise kids. We have opinions about grout. We have survived everything from Reagan to dial‑up to purity culture. To the fact that our childhood snacks were made of 40% petroleum byproduct.
My cats watched me deliver this sermon like I was testifying in the Church of Chaotic Upbringing.
Piper: “Mama, you’re not just a miracle. You’re a franchise.”
Coco: “Honestly, you should’ve come with a warning label.”
Tinkerbell: “Or a Lifetime contract.”
And here’s the mic‑drop truth. The gospel according to every 80s kid who lived through the fog, the freedom, the foolishness, and the fundamentalist fearmongering. We just didn’t survive the 80s. We outlived the 80s. We walked through the valley of mosquito spray and came out moisturized. We endured the shame, the chaos, the bologna with the rainbow sheen, and the Southern Christian guilt that could crush a lesser mortal. We are the chosen ones. The anointed. The pesticide‑kissed prophets of resilience.
So, if anyone tries to tell you you’re “too much,” just smile sweetly. Bless their heart and remember, “You survived an entire decade that tried to kill you with fog machines, sugar, and Jesus.” They can’t handle you. They’re not qualified to handle you. You are a walking Lifetime movie with better hair and boundaries. Charcoal still burning. Cats applauding silently in judgmental solidarity. Thanks for reading! How do you remember the 80s?
Affirmation: I am resilient. I am fabulous. And I survived the 80s. Nothing can stop me except maybe gluten.
“The 80s mall didn’t just raise us. It emotionally stabilized us better than half the adults in our lives.”
-This Puzzled Life
Light the charcoal. Today we are not merely remembering the 80s mall. We are summoning it. Resurrecting it. And calling it forth like a neon‑soaked ancestral spirit guide wearing leg warmers. And chewing Bubble Yum with the confidence of someone who has never once read a nutrition label.
The 80s mall wasn’t just a building. It was a biosphere, a social laboratory, a feral ecosystem where children roamed free like denim‑clad gazelles. It was the one place where your mama could drop you off with five dollars, a scrunchie, and a warning about “not acting a fool.” And somehow that was considered responsible parenting. The mall raised us. The mall fed us. The mall taught us that independence meant walking around unsupervised for eight hours. And only calling home if someone sprained an ankle or got lost in Sears.
It was our emotional support ecosystem before emotional support ecosystems were a thing. It was therapy before therapy. It was cardio before cardio. It was church before church. It was TikTok before TikTok. Except instead of filters, we had Glamour Shots. Instead of algorithms, we had the food court. So let us honor the fluorescent kingdom that shaped our souls, our fashion sense, and our questionable decision‑making skills.
10 Things That Made the 80s Mall Our Emotional Support Ecosystem
The Food Court-A culinary fever dream where you could eat Sbarro pizza, teriyaki chicken, and a pretzel the size of a Buick hubcap. It was the original “choose your fighter” screen.
Spencer’s Gifts-The forbidden forest of the mall. You went in for a lava lamp and came out spiritually changed. Slightly confused. And carrying a rubber chicken.
The Arcade-A dimly lit cave where boys communicated through grunts. Button‑mashing. And the sacred ritual of slapping quarters on the machine to claim next game.
Glamour Shots-The place where every Southern girl became a feather‑haired deity. You walked in looking like a child. And walked out looking like you were about to release a country album.
Orange Julius-A beverage so mysterious it defied science. Was it juice? Was it foam? Was it industrial insulation? We didn’t ask questions.
The Mall Fountain-A shimmering lagoon of wishes, pennies, and the occasional toddler shoe. It was our emotional support water feature.
The Perfume Counter-A chemical assault zone where you were spritzed against your will by a woman named Linda who smelled like Chanel No. 5 and authority.
The Record Store-A sanctuary where we pretended to understand music genres. And, also, judged strangers based on their cassette choices.
The Mall Walkers-The elders who power‑walked at dawn like they were training for mall‑based combat. They were the backbone of mall society.
The Payphone Bank-Our hotline to Mama. Our emergency broadcast system. Our “Jessica is being dramatic again, please retrieve me” communication hub.
The 80s mall wasn’t just a place. It was a multisensory emotional support habitat engineered to keep us alive. Entertained. And slightly overstimulated. The moment those sliding glass doors whooshed open, you were hit with a wall of smells like popcorn, perfume, pretzels, and the faint scent of a RadioShack employee losing the will to live.
The mall was where we learned economics (“If I buy this sticker pack, I will not have enough money for a slice of pizza”), sociology (“If I walk past the cute boys three times, they will eventually notice me”), and survival (“If I get lost in JCPenney, I must follow the sound of the escalator until I reach civilization”).
It was also where we learned fashion. Which is why so many of our childhood photos look like we were raised by a pack of neon‑obsessed raccoons. We wore shoulder pads big enough to pick up satellite signals. We wore jelly shoes that blistered our feet into oblivion. We wore outfits that could blind a man at twenty paces.
And the mall didn’t just shape us. It healed us. Had a bad day at school? Go to the mall. Got dumped by your 7th‑grade boyfriend? Go to the mall. Needed to feel the warm embrace of consumerism? Go to the mall. Needed to walk around aimlessly for six hours because your mama said, “go play”? Go to the mall. The mall was our coping mechanism. Our sanctuary. Our ecosystem of emotional regulation and questionable snacks. And honestly? We turned out fine. Mostly.
And now, here we stand. Grown. Exhausted. Over‑scheduled adults. Who can barely get through a Target run without needing a nap and a hydration break. Meanwhile, our children act like going to a store is a war crime. They clutch their tablets like emotional support rodents. And look at us like we’re asking them to churn butter.
But us? We were forged in the fluorescent crucible of the 80s mall. We survived unsupervised freedom. Orange Julius sugar crashes. And the psychological warfare of the perfume counter. We navigated the labyrinth of Sears without GPS. We endured Glamour Shots bangs that could slice through drywall. We walked uphill both ways in jelly shoes that were basically medieval torture devices.
We are the generation that learned resilience from a food court. And emotional regulation from a mall fountain. We are the children of neon, tile floors, and Cinnabon steam. We are unbreakable. We are unstoppable. We are mall‑raised. Mall‑blessed. Mall‑forged warriors. And may the spirit of the mall walkers guide our steps forever.
Affirmation: I am grounded. I am centered. I am guided by the neon glow of my ancestors and protected by the mall walkers at dawn.
“In the 80s, our hair wasn’t a style. It was a structural commitment, baby.”
-This Puzzled Life
Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the Aqua Net. Fan the smoke alarm with a church bulletin. And may the Lord forgive every Southern woman who single‑handedly punched a hole in the ozone layer before she even made it to homeroom. Today we are not just talking about 80s hair. We are bearing witness. We are testifying. We are gathering at the altar of teased bangs, crispy curls, and hair so big it needed its own seatbelt. Let me paint you a picture.
It’s 1988. Your mama is in the bathroom at 5:45 AM. And already three Diet Cokes deep. Wearing a robe that has seen things no robe should ever see. She’s got a teasing comb in one hand. A can of Aqua Net in the other. And a look in her eye that says, “I will NOT let humidity win today. Not in this house. Not on my watch.”
The bathroom is fogged up like a Baptist sauna. The cat is hiding under the bed because it knows what’s coming. Your bangs are standing straight up like they’re trying to catch the Rapture early. And your mama? She’s whispering to herself like a woman possessed, “Just a little more height. Just a little more lift. Just a little more structural integrity.” This wasn’t hair styling. This was emotional warfare. This was Southern carpentry. This was aerodynamic rebellion. And we lived for it.
THE 10 HAIRSTYLES OF THE 80s THAT DESERVED THEIR OWN EMERGENCY RESPONSE TEAM
The Mall Bangs-Achieved by teasing your bangs until they resembled a tidal wave frozen mid‑crash. These bangs could block UV rays. Deflect insults. And possibly intercept Soviet radio transmissions.
The Perm That Never Quit-Tight curls so aggressive they could file a noise complaint. You didn’t get a perm. You entered a long‑term relationship with one.
The Feathered Farrah-Hair so swoopy it created its own wind patterns. If you turned your head too fast, you could knock over a toddler.
The Mullet-Business in the front. Felony in the back. The official haircut of men who owned at least one illegal firework.
The Crimped Catastrophe-Looked like your hair lost a fight with a waffle iron. Perfect for when you wanted to look electrocuted on purpose.
The Teased‑to‑Jesus Crown-The higher the hair, the closer to God. And we were practically sitting in His lap.
The Side Ponytail of Chaos-Because nothing says “I’m barely holding it together” like putting all your hair on one side of your head.
The Rat‑Tail-A hairstyle that proved not everyone should have access to scissors.
The Aqua‑Net Helmet-Hair so stiff you could’ve used it as a car jack. If you hugged someone, they risked a concussion.
The Glam‑Metal Mane-Hair so big it needed its own zip code and emotional support animal. If you walked behind someone with this hair, you needed a spotter.
And that is the gospel truth of 80s hair. A decade where every woman walked around with a hairstyle that could survive a tornado, a breakup, and a surprise visit from the pastor. A decade where we used enough hairspray to embalm a small horse. A decade when our bangs were so high they could’ve been used as a landmark.
We didn’t just style our hair. We engineered it. We architected it. We fought humidity with the fury of a thousand Southern grandmothers. And if that ain’t a legacy, I don’t know what is. Mic dropped like a can of Aqua Net rolling off the bathroom counter and denting the tile. Thanks for reading! Please post some 80s hair pictures.
Affirmation: I am bold. I am lifted. I am teased to perfection. No humidity formed against me shall prosper.
