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“Shame was never my reflection. It was the shadow of someone else’s fear cast across my life.”
-This Puzzled Life
Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. Let the smoke rise like a soft warning. A trembling invitation. And a doorway cracked open just wide enough for the truth to step through without flinching. Let it drift through the room the way shame once drifted through our childhood homes as quiet and unspoken. But heavy enough to shape the way we learned to breathe.
This isn’t about performance. It isn’t about survival. It’s about naming the thing that has lived in your bones longer than some people have lived in their houses. I’m not writing from a place of humor or distance. I’m writing from the wound. From the memory. From the soil that raised me. And the silence that tried to claim me.
Shame is not born in us. It is handed to us. Pressed into our palms by people who were supposed to know better. People who were supposed to love better. People who were supposed to see us as whole. And in the Deep South, shame is practically a family heirloom.
Down here, some conservative communities have perfected shame into an art form as quiet, polished, and Sunday‑morning approved. They wield it like a switch they no longer have to swing. Because the words do the bruising for them. They don’t have to raise their voices. They just raise an eyebrow. They don’t have to say you’re wrong. They just say they’re “praying for you.” They don’t have to tell you to hide. They just make sure you know what happens to people who don’t.
Shame becomes the air you breathe before you even know what air is. It teaches you to fold yourself small. To tuck away the parts of you that don’t fit the script. To apologize for the way your heart beats. The way your voice trembles. And the way your truth refuses to die quietly. The worst part is how deeply it roots itself. And how it convinces you that you are the problem. Not the rules. Not the silence. Not the fear disguised as righteousness.
Some Southern conservative spaces are experts at this. They turn difference into danger. They turn authenticity into rebellion. They turn survival into sin. They shame you for who you are. And then shame you again for hurting because of it.
But here’s the truth shame never wants you to learn. You were never the one who failed. You were the one who endured. Shame is not your inheritance. It is not your identity. It is not your burden to carry one more mile. The moment you name what was done to you. The moment you say, “This wasn’t love. This was control.” The spell breaks. The weight shifts. The air clears. And you begin to see yourself without the fog of someone else’s fear. You begin to hear your own voice again. You begin to rise. And rising is the one thing shame cannot survive.
Shame is universal. It’s a part of every culture and every nation. And every community has its own way of teaching people to hide the parts of themselves that don’t fit the script. Shame is a global language. It is spoken in different dialects. It is enforced through different rituals. And it is carried in different bodies.
But the version I know. The one that shaped my bones and rewired my voice was born in the conservative Deep South. That’s the lens I speak from. That’s the air I learned to breathe. That’s the terrain where shame wasn’t just a feeling. It was a system.
Some conservative Southern communities wield shame like a tool of order. A way to keep people in line. A way to maintain the illusion of perfection even when the truth is rotting beneath the floorboards. They don’t have to say, “you’re wrong.” They just say, “we don’t talk about that.” They don’t have to say, “you’re unworthy.” They just say, “think of what people will think.” They don’t have to say, “you don’t belong.” They just make sure you feel it.
Shame becomes the soundtrack of your childhood. The shadow in every room. The reason you learn to fold yourself into shapes that hurt to hold. When you grow up queer, outspoken, different, or simply unwilling to disappear, the shame becomes sharper. More pointed. And more personal.
You were not the problem. You were the disruption. You were the truth they didn’t know how to hold. Shame thrives in silence. But it cannot survive being named. The moment you say, “This harmed me,” the spell breaks. The moment you say, “This wasn’t love,” the weight shifts. The moment you say, “I deserved better,” the ground beneath you changes shape.
You begin to see yourself without the fog of their expectations. You begin to hear your own voice without the echo of their judgment. You begin to rise in ways they never prepared for. And rising is the one thing shame cannot withstand.
Let every culture keep the shame it created. Let the South hold the weight of the shame it taught me to carry. I am done dragging their silence behind me. I am done mistaking their fear for my fault. I am done shrinking to make their world more comfortable. I speak now. I rise now. I reclaim every part of me they tried to bury.
And the sound of that truth is unapologetic. Unbroken. And is the loudest thing I’ve ever survived. You were never meant to carry it. Set it down. Walk forward. And let the sound of your unbroken truth shake the whole damn South. Thanks for reading! And put that shame down.
Affirmation: I release every ounce of shame that was handed to me. My truth rises. My voice steadies. And I walk forward unburdened and whole.
“The truth didn’t break my family. The pretending did.”
-Unknown
Here’s the bigger picture. I didn’t grow up in a family that heals. Problems don’t get solved. They get buried alive. And then resurrected during holidays like emotional zombies. Now that me and my sister are adults, childhood resentments still pop up like whack‑a‑mole. And nobody wants to pick up a mallet. Let’s all smile in public so we don’t “defame the family.” Which honestly, does a fantastic job defaming itself.
And my family isn’t special. Dysfunction is everywhere. I have enough mental health education in my background to recognize the patterns. But they’ll swear I’m the problem. If you look past the church smiles, the whole system is sick. I would genuinely rather be hit by a car than attend “family time.” And because my kids were born into a lesbian family, they get treated like they came with a moral recall notice.
You can’t throw money at children and then take no active part in their lives the rest of the time. Especially, when you do the opposite with the other children in the family. The kids notice. I’ve tried talking about it for 17 years. And the truth is this. They just don’t care.
I have a master’s degree in counseling psychology. Yet somehow I’m the ignorant one. They don’t want insight. They don’t want help. They want silence. And mine has officially expired. I defend myself and my kids however I see fit. Respectfully? No. Effectively? Absolutely.
They want healing without effort. They’re emotional pillow princesses that want the benefits of growth while doing absolutely nothing but blinking dramatically. And when truth bruises their egos, accountability never shows up. Meanwhile, my dad plays messenger pigeon flying information back and forth between me and the rest of the family so that the dysfunction stays perfectly preserved.
Here’s the part they’ll never admit. Family therapy requires guts and transparency. And those two things they treat like forbidden sins. Instead, they’ve built a giant sand pile where they can bury their heads. And pretend nothing is wrong. That’s their comfort zone. Not truth. Not healing. Just sand. Neck‑deep and breathing through a straw of selective memory.
My favorite quote says it best, “If nothing changes, then nothing changes.” And I refuse to be silenced because their comfort depends on my suffering.
Our family lives in what I call comfortable dysfunction. It’s the emotional recliner they refuse to replace even though the springs are broken. And the fabric smells like denial. It’s easier than accountability. Easier than honesty. Easier than saying, “Maybe the gay daughter isn’t the downfall of civilization.”
And as if being the rainbow sheep wasn’t enough. I’m also the green sheep of the family because I’m a medical cannabis patient. And the family’s translation is that I’m “druggin’ and thuggin’.” The “bad influence.” And the “one who needs prayer.” But that’s not even the real issue.
The problem is my refusal to sit quietly in the pew of generational silence. The issue is that I no longer participate in the family’s favorite pastime of pretending. I’m done shrinking myself so other people can stay cozy in their outdated beliefs. I’m done letting conservative Christian values be weaponized against me and my children.
They can keep their selective morality. The kind where my sister thinks being gay is “wrong and evil.” But somehow premarital sex is just the Olympic sport of “being human.” Funny how sin gets flexible when it’s their behavior on the table.
“My family says I’m ‘living in sin.’ Which is wild coming from some of them who wave a red hat like it’s the state flower. They preach about morality and still treat premarital sex, drinking, and hypocrisy like they’re covered under the ‘Jesus forgives me’ warranty.”And trust me. They act like I graffitied the Ten Commandments in rainbow glitter.
Being gay automatically made me the family’s “problem child.” Even though the real problems have nothing to do with what gender I love. And everything to do with the fact that I refuse to pretend. My sister can have premarital sex. Drink like she’s hydrating for the Olympics and drive afterward. And micromanage her child like she’s running a dictatorship. But somehow I’m the moral crisis.
Meanwhile, my sister’s shot glasses stays full. Her judgment stays loud. And her hypocrisy stays undefeated. Funny how cannabis for medical reasons is “dangerous.” But alcohol with a side of denial is “just being human.” I’m the rainbow sheep because I live authentically. I’m the green sheep because I choose a legal, doctor‑recommended treatment. And I’m the scapegoat because I refuse to shrink so other people can stay comfortable in their dysfunction. If being myself makes me the rainbow‑green hybrid sheep of the family, then so be it. At least I’m not grazing in the pasture of hypocrisy.
So no, I’m not stepping back into the box they built for me. I’m not dimming myself, so their comfort stays intact. I’m not carrying the weight of a family that refuses to lift a finger for its own healing. They can keep their comfortable dysfunction. They can keep their silence. They can keep their outdated beliefs wrapped in Bible verses that only apply to me.
Today I honor my inner rainbow‑green sheep. I’m fabulously queer. I’m medically lifted. And completely unbothered by the opinions of people who confuse hypocrisy with holiness.”
I’m choosing truth over tradition. I’m choosing growth over guilt. I’m choosing my children, my peace, and my sanity. And if my existence shakes the foundation of their worldview. Then the foundation was weak to begin with. Thanks for reading! Do you and let the others do them.
Affirmation: I bless my rainbow‑green sheep soul today queer, medicated, and thriving. While certain relatives clutch their red hats and pearls at my existence. But don’t blink twice at their own chaos, contradictions, or alcohol fueled commandments.
“My family says I’m ‘living in sin.’ Which is hilarious coming from people who treat denial like a spiritual gift. And premarital sex like a community service.”
-This Puzzled Life
Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. Negative energy, get your shoes on and leave. Today we’re diving into one of my favorite dysfunctional family topics. Family roles. Those unofficial job titles we never applied for. Never wanted. And yet somehow ended up performing like we were on salary. Take a moment and see where you and your people fall. And here’s the spoiler. If you’re reading this, you already know.
Before we get started, let me warn you. This is not a gentle stroll through family history. This is a full‑blown guided tour through a Southern household. That’s been held together with casserole, denial, and conservative Christian values. That seem to get applied with the accuracy of a toddler using glitter glue.
I grew up in a family where “we don’t talk about that” wasn’t a suggestion. It was the eleventh commandment. Emotions were treated like illegal fireworks. Everyone had them. Nobody handled them correctly. And something always exploded at the worst possible time.
In my house, honesty was considered aggressive. Accountability was considered disrespectful. And therapy? Therapy was treated like witchcraft performed by people who “don’t know Jesus personally.”
Meanwhile, the dysfunction strutted around the living room in broad daylight wearing a name tag and a church hat. And everyone pretended they couldn’t see it. If denial were a sport, my family would have Olympic medals and a sponsorship from Hobby Lobby.
So, buckle your emotional seatbelt. And prepare yourself. Because once you recognize the roles in a dysfunctional family. It’s like spotting roaches. You can’t unsee them. And suddenly they’re everywhere.
Family roles are the expected behaviors, responsibilities, and emotional acrobatics each person performs to keep the family circus running. These roles shift depending on culture, family size, and personality. But the classics are Hero, Scapegoat, Golden Child, Lost Child, Mascot. And I show up everywhere like glitter after a craft project.
Let’s begin.
1. The Hero (a.k.a. The Family PR Department) The Hero’s job is to make the family look normal, stable, and “blessed and highly favored” to the outside world. According to theraplatform.com (2025), they take on excessive responsibility to gain approval. This is my mother’s role. Or at least the role she auditions for. She is attention-seeking. Reputation-obsessed. And allergic to accountability. She delivers passive-aggressive comments like she’s handing out communion wafers. And then acts shocked when people get upset.
Her signature move? “The Dummy Card.” Suddenly she “doesn’t remember,” “didn’t mean it like that,” or “doesn’t know what you’re talking about.” But trust me, she knows. And right after she stirs the pot. She gives my dad the “rescue me” look. As if she didn’t just season that pot with cayenne, spite, and generational trauma. We only have real conversations when she’s mad at my sister, The Golden Child. Otherwise, it’s news, sports, and weather which is the Holy Trinity of Avoidance.
2. The Scapegoat (hi, it’s me) The Scapegoat is blamed for everything wrong in the family. Stubbed toe? My fault. Bad weather? Somehow me. The economy? Probably me too. I don’t conform to their lifestyle. I’m gay. I use medical cannabis. I don’t go to church because there are too many people who support the cruelty of the Trump regime. And align theirselves with the MAGA movement which practices a form of chriatianity that cannot be found in any Bible. And quite frankly, they have a bad reputation for normalizing pedophilia while demonizing being gay. I guess I should be glad that I just can’t understand that rationale.
I talk about taboo topics. And I acknowledge reality instead of pretending everything is fine. And did I mention I’m gay? Because trust me they will. Instead of saying, “She’s our family and we love her no matter the gender of someone she loves and that loves her.” They act like my existence is a PR crisis. The attitude is like, “Remember when Dana destroyed the family by being prouid to be gay and authentic?” I’m also the family whistleblower. I don’t play along with generational nonsense. I’m my own person. And I’m not apologizing for it.
3. The Golden Child (my sister, obviously) The Golden Child is the family’s prized possession. The chosen one. The favorite. And the one who can do no wrong even when she is actively doing wrong. Thriveworks.com (2023) describes this child as obedient, praised, and protected. That’s her. She has been dipped in gold since birth. She follows the script. Holds the same beliefs. And passes them down to her children like heirloom china. She was taught what to think. Not how to think. And the cycle continues. Children aren’t born to hate. They learn it from the adults who raise them. And this is what my sister excels at consistently.
4. The Lost Child (also my sister — she multitasks) The Lost Child avoids conflict like it’s a full-time job with benefits. She withdraws. Stays quiet. And pretends she’s above the chaos. While simultaneously contributing to it. She never acknowledges her harmful behavior. She believes most people are beneath her. And when she talks about someone being gay, she spells it out “G-A-Y” like she’s avoiding summoning a demon. Her emotional range is that of a frozen waffle. And honestly, that’s the family vibe overall.
5. The Mascot (me and my dad) Mascots use humor to distract from the dysfunction. We crack jokes. Lighten the mood. And do not dare fix anything. We just to keep the room from exploding. This doesn’t always work especially when me and my sister are at war like rainbows and bibles. My dad rescues my mom and sister from “big, bad Dana.” Who refuses to sweep things under the rug. I’m the villain because I tell the truth. Imagine that. Kind of sounds like the current government’s level of functioning.
Now you’ve met the cast and the roles they cling to like emotional security blankets. In the next part we’ll zoom out and look at the bigger picture. And it’s the part they refuse to acknowledge.
That concludes our tour of the Family Circus. Please exit through the gift shop. Where denial is half‑off. Accountability is out of stock. And the Scapegoat merchandise is mysteriously overpriced.” Thanks for reading! Keep breaking chains.
Affirmation: Today I honor my emotionally athletic self. The whistleblowing. Boundary‑setting. Truth‑telling legend who refuses to join the family’s Olympic Denial Team. Even though they’ve been training since the womb.
“Trauma doesn’t make you weak. It makes you a witness to your own survival.”
-This Puzzled Life
Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. Let the smoke rise like it’s clocking in for a shift. And let the air shift like it’s bracing itself for whatever truth you’re about to drag into the daylight. Today isn’t about pretending everything’s fine or slapping a smile on top of a wound. It’s not about the vibes, snacks, or cats doing interpretive dance in the sunbeam. It’s about trauma awareness. It is about naming the things we survived. The things we carried alone. The things we laughed through so we wouldn’t crumble. It’s a Southern‑fried, emotionally honest, and funny enough to keep you from dissolving into a puddle on the kitchen floor.
Trauma Awareness is the kind that hides in your shoulders, jaw, breath, memories, and your jokes. And if we’re going to talk about it, we’re going to do it the only way I know how. Complete with honesty, humor, and the kind of emotional courage that feels like taking your bra off after a long day. It’s painful, relieving, and absolutely necessary.
There’s a moment right before you talk about trauma where your whole spirit goes, “Are we sure we want to do this?” It’s the same tone you use when someone says, “Let’s just run into Walmart real quick.” You know it’s not going to be quick. You know you’re going to see something you can’t unsee. You know you’re going to come out changed. Talking about trauma is like that. Except instead of a man in pajama pants buying raw chicken and fireworks, it’s your nervous system holding up a sign that says, “We’ve been through some things, ma’am.”
Trauma doesn’t just show up when you’re ready. Trauma is that one cousin who arrives early. Eats all the good snacks. And then says, “Why you look stressed?” It pops up at the worst times especially when you’re trying to relax. When you’re trying to sleep. When you’re trying to enjoy a sandwich. When you’re trying to mind your business. And when you’re trying to be a functioning adult for five minutes. Trauma will tap you on the shoulder like, “Hey bestie, remember that thing from 1998? No? Well, I do.” And suddenly you’re staring at the wall like it owes you money.
Your body remembers everything. Even the stuff you tried to bury under humor, iced coffee, and pretending you’re fine. You’ll be walking through Wal-Mart. Touching a throw pillow. And your body will whisper, “Hey, remember that time?” And you’re like, “No I do not. I am touching a pillow. Let me live.” But trauma doesn’t care. Trauma is like a Southern grandmother with a memory like a steel trap. And no sense of timing.
People talk about healing like it’s a spa day. Let me tell you something. Healing is not cucumber water and a robe. Healing is crying in the shower because your shampoo smells like 2007. Healing is realizing you’ve been clenching your jaw since the Bush administration. Healing is sitting in your car after therapy like you just got hit by an emotional freight train. Healing is messy. Healing is loud. Healing is quiet. Healing is confusing. Healing is holy. Healing is exhausting. Healing is worth it. But cute? Absolutely not.
So, buckle up. Because the cats have decided it’s Trauma Awareness Hour. And apparently they’ve all been waiting their whole lives to trauma dump with the enthusiasm of a group therapy circle run by toddlers. And today is the day they ask deeply personal questions with the emotional sensitivity of a toddler holding a chainsaw. They have formed a circle. They have snacks. They have opinions. And apparently, they have questions about my trauma.
Me: “Okay, girls. Today we’re talking about trauma. Share whatever you feel comfortable with.”
She raises paw like she’s in kindergarten
Piper: “I’ll go first because my story is the most dramatic. Obviously.”
Coco: “Oh lord.”
Tinkerbell: “Let the child speak. She needs this.”
Piper: “So picture this. Me and my siblings. In a metal box. In the Mississippi heat, basically sautéing like tiny furry cornbread muffins.”
Me: “Baby, that’s awful.”
Piper: “I know. I was basically a rotisserie chicken with trauma.”
Coco: “You were a sweaty raisin with opinions.”
Piper: “Anyway, I survived because I’m dramatic and stubborn. And now every time the sunbeam hits me wrong, I flop over like a Victorian woman fainting at a garden party.”
Tinkerbell: “You faint because you forget to breathe when you get excited.”
Piper: “Trauma. Tinkerbell. Let me have this.”
Coco clears throat like she’s about to deliver a TED Talk
Coco: “My siblings and I were found under a house. A house. Do you know what lives under houses? Darkness. Ghosts. Tax evasion. I was basically a feral raccoon with trust issues.”
Me: “You’ve come so far.”
Coco: “Yes. And now I cope by judging everyone. It’s called growth.”
Piper: “You judge me the most.”
Coco: “You give me the most material.”
Tinkerbell: “I don’t remember my trauma.”
Me: “At all?”
Tinkerbell: “No. I simply chose not to be present. I was spiritually unavailable.”
Coco: “You had worms.”
Tinkerbell: “Yes, apparently my intestines were hosting a music festival.”
Piper: “You pooped like you were trying to summon something.”
Tinkerbell: “I was summoning peace. And a vet. Preferably both.”
Me: “You really don’t remember anything?”
Tinkerbell: “I remember diarrhea. And then I remember you. Everything else is optional.”
Me: “Well, we’ve all been through some things.”
Piper: “Yeah, but now we’re together! A family! With two crazy brothers who scream at dust!”
Coco: “We are a support group. A dysfunctional one, but still.”
Tinkerbell: “We heal one memory at a time. Preferably with snacks.”
Piper: “And naps!”
Coco: “And boundaries. Mostly for Piper.”
Piper: “I don’t believe in boundaries.”
Tinkerbell: “We know.”
Piper: “Sometimes I get scared when it’s hot outside. So, I cope by yelling at the sun.”
Coco: “I cope by staring at people until they feel bad.”
Tinkerbell: “I cope by leaving my body spiritually whenever something stressful happens. Like when the vacuum turns on. Or when Piper breathes too loud.”
Piper: “I have big emotions.”
Coco: “You have no volume control.”
Tinkerbell: “You have the energy of a toddler who drank a Red Bull.”
Piper: “Momma, what is your trauma about?”
Me: “Oh absolutely not. We are not opening that can of worms. We’ll be here until this time next year. And I don’t have enough snacks or emotional stamina.”
Coco: “Is that why you have panic attacks in Walmart?”
Me: “Yes.”
Tinkerbell: “But what’s scary about going to the pharmacy?”
Me: “Everything.”
Piper: “Everything?? Like the shelves? The people? The lighting?”
Me: “Yes.”
Coco: “The lighting is aggressive.”
Tinkerbell: “The vibes are hostile.”
Piper: “The blood pressure machine is a demon.”
Me: “Exactly.”
Coco: “So what did our therapist tell you?”
Me: “She said, ‘I’ll see you in another couple of days.’”
Tinkerbell: “Translation: ‘You’re a lot. But I believe in you.’”
Piper: “Translation: ‘You have so many issues we need a punch card.’”
Coco: “Translation: ‘You’re keeping the lights on in that office.’”
Me: “But look at us now. We’re safe. We’re loved. We’re healing together.”
Piper: “And we have snacks!”
Coco: “And stability.”
Tinkerbell: “And indoor plumbing.”
Me: “We survived things we never should’ve had to survive. And now we get to build something soft and silly and sacred together.”
All Three Cats: “Group hug!”
Coco: “But don’t touch me too long.”
Piper: “I’m crying!”
Tinkerbell: “I’m dissociating!”
Me: “Perfect. Exactly the emotional range I expected.”
In small Southern towns, admitting trauma is treated like a social crime. The moment you name what happened, you’re not just telling your story. You’re “disgracing the family,” “embarrassing the community,” and threatening the carefully polished illusion of stability that everyone works so hard to maintain. The culture teaches people to swallow their pain. Protect the reputation of the town at all costs. And never, under any circumstances, call out the people who caused the harm. And because the “good ole boy” network is alive and well. And sitting in every position of authority from the courthouse to the church pews, the truth gets buried right alongside the accountability. Even when the perpetrators are known. Especially when they’re known. Nothing is done. The silence is enforced. The victims are shamed. And the town keeps smiling for the church directory photo like nothing ever happened. But the truth doesn’t disappear just because the town refuses to look at it. It lingers in the air, the families, the generations, waiting for someone brave enough to break the cycle and say, “This happened. And it mattered.” And I am that one in my family who refuses to stay quiet about the trauma that happened in the small city of Petal, MS.
Trauma will have you doing things that make absolutely no sense. Things like apologizing to furniture when you bump into it. Jumping at sounds that aren’t even loud. Overthinking texts like you’re decoding ancient scripture. Saying “I’m fine” in a tone that suggests you are, in fact, not fine. And crying because someone said, “I’m proud of you.” And your body wasn’t prepared for that level of kindness. Trauma will also make you emotionally attached to random objects. A mug. A blanket. A rock you found on a walk. A pen that writes really smooth. Your brain will be like, “This is my emotional support spoon. Touch it and perish.”
Trauma awareness isn’t about reliving the pain. It’s about naming it, so it stops owning you. It’s about understanding why you react the way you do. It’s about giving yourself grace for surviving things you never should’ve had to survive. It’s about learning that your triggers aren’t flaws. They’re evidence that you lived through something real. And it’s about knowing you’re not broken.
You’re healing. You’re growing. You’re learning how to breathe again. You’re learning how to trust softness again. You’re learning how to exist without bracing for impact. That’s not weakness. That’s strength with stretch marks.
May your healing be gentle. May your memories lose their sharp edges. May your nervous system unclench one muscle at a time. May your heart learn safety. May your voice return to you. May your laughter come back louder. May your story be yours again. And not something that happened to you. But something you rose from.
So, if no one told you today. You’re not dramatic. You’re not broken. And you’re not “too much.” You’re a whole human who lived through storms that would’ve snapped lesser souls in half. And you’re still here healing. Laughing. Unlearning, Softening. Reclaiming. That’s not survival. That’s resurrection. And baby, if that isn’t holy, I don’t know what is. Drop the sage. Keep the truth. And walk away knowing this. Your story didn’t end in the dark. You did.
Affirmation: I honor the parts of me that survived. I honor the parts of me that are still healing. I am allowed to grow, to rest, to feel, and to reclaim my peace. And I can do it one breath at a time.
“Psych units may be chaotic. But at least my bitching is organized.”
-This Puzzled Life
Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. Somebody hand me a fan because the level of petty I’m about to describe requires ventilation. Psych units don’t just have pettiness. They cultivate it like a community garden complete with tomatoes, basil, and grudges. And if I’m going to talk about it, I need every ancestor, archangel, and neighborhood stray cat on standby.
These places run on a spiritual cocktail of fluorescent lighting, lukewarm coffee, and the kind of petty that could power a small city. The spirits already know what time it is. We’re about to enter the only place on Earth where adults will fight over a graham cracker, a blanket, and who gets to sit closest to the fake plant in group therapy. Especially the kind that shows up wearing non‑slip socks and asking if you’ve “completed your feelings journal for the morning.” Buckle up. We are about to revisit the life of the unhinged.
Let me tell you something right now. Nobody does pettiness like a psych unit. Not your auntie at Thanksgiving. Not your ex who still watches your Instagram stories from a burner account. Not even the Southern church ladies who can bless your heart into a coma. Psych units are the Olympics of Petty. Gold medal level. International competition. And sponsored by “Clipboards & Consequences™.
And the wildest part? The staff and the patients are in a silent, unspoken petty war at all times. It’s like a nature documentary narrated by Morgan Freeman: “Here we observe the patient refusing to participate in group therapy because the therapist said, ‘good morning’ with the wrong tone.”
Breakfast on a psych unit is not a meal. It’s a spiritual exam. You ask for two sugars? They give you one. You ask for a spoon? They hand you a spork like you’re being punished for past lives. You ask what the eggs are made of? They say, “Don’t worry about it,” which is exactly when you start worrying about it.
And the patients? Oh, we’re petty right back. Someone refuses their meds because the nurse said their name wrong by half a syllable. Someone else declares a hunger strike because they didn’t get the “good blanket.” Which is the one that feels like it’s been washed fewer than 400 times.
Psych unit bed assignments are the closest thing we have to Old Testament conflict. Two grown adults will absolutely fight over who gets the bed closest to the window like it’s beachfront property. Someone gets moved rooms and immediately acts like they’ve been exiled from the kingdom. They say, “I’m not unpacking. I’m staging a protest.”
Group therapy is where the petty becomes performance art. Someone refuses to share because “the energy is off.” Someone else overshares because they know it makes the therapist uncomfortable. Someone proudly announces, “I’m only here for the snacks” and means it. And the group leader? Smiling sweetly while spiritually flipping everyone off.
If you’ve never seen adults negotiate shower times like they’re drafting a ceasefire agreement, you haven’t lived. People will take 47‑minute showers out of spite. “Forget” their towel so they can walk dramatically down the hall. Complain someone used “their” shampoo even though it’s the hospital’s and smells like citrus‑flavored despair.
And then you discover the shower has no curtain. Not a flap. Not a panel. Not even a nostalgic bead string from the 70s. You step into that shower like you’re entering a baptism you did not sign up for. The water pressure is either a gentle mist that feels like someone exhaling on you. Or a fire‑hose blast that could strip paint off a Buick. Meanwhile, staff strolls by doing “wellness checks” like, “just making sure you’re safe!” Ma’am, I am safe. Emotionally? No. Physically? Barely. Spiritually? Absolutely not.
Mindfulness group on a psych unit is its own brand of comedy. The therapist dims the lights (as much as fluorescent bulbs allow), puts on royalty‑free pan flute music, and says, “Imagine you’re on a peaceful beach.” Ma’am, I am sitting in a plastic chair that squeaks every time I breathe. Then it’s, “Picture a calm, soothing waterfall.” Meanwhile someone is snoring. Someone is whisper‑arguing with their spirit guides. Someone is chewing graham crackers like they’re in a survival documentary. And you’re trying to “visualize tranquility” while holding a safety crayon shaped like a melted candle.
They are not crayons. These are wax‑based emotional support devices. Thick. Stubby. Unbreakable. Unsharpenable. Every letter looks like it was drawn by a raccoon wearing oven mitts. But when a Code gets called? Those colors become binoculars. Everyone leans forward clutching their little wax chunk like, “Pass me the purple one. It’s the good one.”
Psych units have one universal truth. A doctor must be called for absolutely everything. You sneeze too enthusiastically? “Hi, yes, doctor? She sneezed with intention.” Want a Tylenol? Doctor. Want a different blanket? Doctor. Want to sit in a different chair because the one you’re in feels spiritually cursed? Doctor. It’s like a fluorescent DMV where every request requires a supervisor who is mysteriously never on the floor.
And then there are the medications. Raise one eyebrow too high? “Let me page the doctor.” Ask why the eggs taste like regret? “Let me page the doctor.” Have an attitude after being woken up at 5 a.m. for vitals you did not ask for? Suddenly they’re offering you something “to help you relax.” Which is psych‑unit code for, “This will knock you into next Tuesday.” These meds are so strong they could end a world war. You wake up unsure of your name, the date, or why your socks don’t match.
Some staff walk around like they’re the TSA of mental health. And they’re ready to confiscate your emotional liquids. Some give you the “I’m tired of all y’all” look before you’ve even spoken. Some have mastered the therapeutic smile. The one that says, “I care deeply.” But their eyes say, “I clock out in 12 minutes and I’m not starting anything new.” And the tech who acts like your request for a second blanket is a personal attack on their lineage? Iconic.
There comes a moment when staff decides you’re “a little too spicy for the general population.” And suddenly you’re being escorted to the Psychiatric Intensive Care Unit known as the PICU. The PICU is not a unit. It is an ecosystem. A habitat. And a fully unhinged micro‑climate where time is fake. Socks are currency. And the air vibrates with the energy of people who have absolutely had enough.
The lighting is harsher. The chairs are bolted down with enthusiasm. And the staff has that look like they’ve seen things they can’t legally discuss. This is where someone argues with a wall. Someone else declares themselves the mayor. A graham cracker becomes a weapon of emotional warfare. And the “call the doctor” rule becomes a religion. You start to wonder if the doctor is a real person or a mythological creature who appears only during full moons and paperwork audits.
There is a very specific sound a psych unit makes right before a Code gets called. It’s too quiet. Like the ancestors are holding their breath. Then, a chair scoots too hard. A voice gets too spicy. A slipper hits the floor with conviction. And the staff looks up like meerkats who heard a twig snap. Someone yells “CODE!” with the enthusiasm of a Walmart employee announcing Black Friday. And the whole unit transforms into live‑action chaos. Patients settle in like it’s cable TV. And it’s like, “Oh lord, they done called a Code. Lemme get comfortable.” Staff sprints like Olympians. Clipboards fly. Walkie‑talkies crackle. And the therapist breathes deeply like they’re manifesting a different career.
And when it’s over? Everyone goes right back to coloring like it was a commercial break. Psych units are messy, miraculous, chaotic, exhausting, and sometimes deeply funny in ways only people who’ve been there understand. The pettiness isn’t cruelty. It’s survival. It’s humanity. It’s the tiny rebellions that remind you you’re still a person. Even when life has knocked you sideways.
Connect and Refocus assignments are the psych‑unit equivalent of being told to stand up in front of the congregation and confess your sins with a microphone that echoes. They hand you a worksheet with questions about your troubling behavior. And by the time you’re done it’s the thickness of a dissertation. The therapist says, “Just outline your maladaptive coping skills and therapy interfering behaviors.” Just? As if you’re not about to write a full academic paper on why you shut down emotionally. Overthink everything. And threaten to fight the vital signs machine at 5 a.m. And the worst part? You don’t just fill it out. You have to read it aloud in group like you’re defending your thesis before God, the ancestors, and a room full of people who just met you yesterday. You’re sitting there clutching your safety crayon while trying to sound insightful. And everyone else nods like they’re on the judging panel of America’s Next Top Trauma Survivor. It’s humbling. It’s horrifying. It’s hilarious. And somehow, it’s exactly the kind of chaos that makes psych unit bonding feel like summer camp for emotionally exhausted adults.
But there is no gamble on Earth quite like the moment they tell you, “You’ll be sharing a room.” That’s not an assignment. That’s a lottery. That’s a spiritual test. That’s a cosmic wheel‑spin hosted by the universe itself. On a psych unit, your roommate can be literally anything. The possibilities are endless. Unhinged. And hilarious in a way only people who’ve lived it understand.
Here is a few of the different types of roommates you could be paired up with.
1. The roommate that sleeps 12 hours a day but somehow still manages to terrify you. They snore like a diesel engine. They sit up suddenly at 3 a.m. like they’re receiving messages from the ancestors. They whisper things like, “Did you hear that?” No, I did NOT hear that. And I would like to keep it that way.
2. This roommate provides live commentary on everything you do. You stand up? “Where you going?” You sit down? “You tired?” You breathe? “You okay?” I am trying to exist. Please let me exist in silence.
3. This roommate has been in the unit for 48 hours and has already achieved spiritual awakening. They speak in riddles. They meditate loudly. They give unsolicited advice like, “You must release the ego. Also, can I have your pudding?”
4. This one will eat every single snack you have. Even the ones you hid in your pillowcase. They will deny it with confidence. They will gaslight you about your own graham crackers. They will ask for juice while drinking the juice they stole from you.
5. This roommate is entertainment. Pure entertainment. They talk to themselves, the walls, the staff, the ancestors, and occasionally the ceiling tiles. They narrate their dreams. They reenact scenes from movies that don’t exist. You don’t even need cable. You have them.
6. This roommate showers at 2 a.m. With no curtain. With the water pressure set to “pressure wash a tractor.” They come out wrapped in a towel the size of a napkin and say, “Your turn.”
7. This roommate is quiet. Too quiet. You don’t know if they like you. Hate you. Or don’t know you exist. They stare at the wall for long stretches of time. They fold their socks with military precision. They whisper to their juice cup. You respect them deeply.
8. This roommate minds their business. Sleeps in weird positions. Hisses when staff wakes them up. Eats only the snacks they like. And will absolutely sit on your bed like it’s theirs.
Psych‑unit roommates are a whole spiritual curriculum. A syllabus written by the universe. A randomized character generator with no patch notes or warning labels. And I’ve had every single type walk through that door and claim the other half of my room like they were entering a reality show.
Some were chaotic. Some were confusing. Some were plot twists. And a precious few? They became family in the kind of way only shared trauma, cold cereal, and shared “Did you hear that?” moments can create. You don’t choose your psych‑unit roommates. But sometimes the universe chooses them for you.
I’ve had the ones who snored like freight trains. I’ve had the ones who narrated my every move. And the ones who didn’t speak for three days. But somehow communicated entire novels with their eyebrows. I’ve had the ones who showered at 2 a.m. with the water pressure set to “remove barnacles.” And the ones who treated the room like a spiritual dojo. Then there were the ones who were just there. Quiet. Odd. Mysterious. Every roommate was a new chapter in the saga. Every roommate was a new lesson in patience, comedy, and survival. Every roommate was a new story I absolutely should not laugh at but absolutely do.
But out of all the chaos, characters, and all the “Lord, give me strength” moments, there are a couple of roommates who became real friends. The kind you still talk to. Still laugh with. Still send memes to about your shared psych‑unit nonsense. These are the ones who laughed with me at 3 a.m. when the unit sounded like a haunted Walmart. Shared snacks like we were in a bunker. Understood the unspoken language of “I’m fine but also not fine but also fine.” Survived Codes, guided imagery, and curtain‑less showers right alongside me. And turned the worst moments into inside jokes that still make us wheeze.We walked through the same chaos and came out with matching emotional scars and petty humor.
I wouldn’t trade them for all the money in the world. Not for a million dollars. Not for a lifetime supply of the “good blankets.” Not even for a shower curtain. Because some people come into your life for a reason. Some come for a season. And some come because the hospital assigned them to your room. And the universe said, “Y’all need each other.”
And within that roommate lottery, the prize is either peace, or a story you will tell for the rest of your natural life. And somehow? You adapt. You bond. You laugh. You survive. And you walk out with tales that sound made‑up but absolutely aren’t.
Healing is hard. Fluorescent lights are evil. And humans will absolutely weaponize a spork if pushed far enough. May your blankets be soft. Your meds be on time. And your petty be righteous. May your coping skills be strong. Your boundaries fortified. And your spirit guides remind you that sometimes the pettiest thing you can do is heal anyway.
And that is the gospel truth of the psych unit. A place so petty. So chaotic. So spiritually unhinged. That even the ancestors step back like, “good luck.” Between the curtain‑less baptisms they call showers. The guided imagery that feels like group hallucination. The safety crayons built like toddler dumbbells. And the Codes that pop off like surprise season finales. One thing becomes clear. Healing might be hard. But the comedy is free.
So, the next time somebody tries to tell you psych units are calm, peaceful places. Just smile. And let your spirit guides handle the lie. And remember, sometimes the pettiest, most powerful thing you can do is survive it with your humor intact. Thanks for reading! And, yay, for the ability to use humor as a coping skill for survival.
Affirmation: I am calm, I am grounded, and I will not let anyone with non‑slip socks ruin my vibration today.
“Peace isn’t passive. It’s chosen. Rolled. Lit. And inhaled with intention.”
-This Puzzled Life
Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. Today we’re cleansing the air, the mood, and the nervous system with 2026’s top strains for anxiety. Plus, the classic OGs that have been calming folks since back when we all thought Myspace was forever. Welcome to my 2026 Anxiety-Friendly Strain Forecast. Where we honor Southern chaos, generational nerves, and the sacred art of choosing weed that won’t have your heart beating like it’s trying to escape your chest.
Pink Rozay
(Lemonchello 10 × LPC75 (London Pound Cake #75)
Floral, smooth, and steady. Like someone finally turned the volume down on your thoughts.
Cadillac Rainbow
(Pure Michigan × Runtz)
Don’t let the name fool you. This hybrid is calming and grounded. And it melts tension like butter on a hot biscuit.
Snow Caps
(Snow White × Haze)
Cool, crisp, and mentally refreshing. When anxiety tries to act up, Snow Caps says, “Not today.”
Blue Zushi
(Zkittlez × Kush Mints)
A 2026 favorite for mood stabilization. Gentle, balanced, and perfect for “I need to calm down but still function.”
Gumbo
(Gummo × Guru (reported by Swamp Boys Seeds)
Sweet, heavy, grounding. Ideal for runaway thoughts that need to be sat down and given a talking-to.
CLASSIC STRAINS FOR ANXIETY
These are the legends, the elders, and the strains that raised us.
Granddaddy Purple
(Purple Urkle × Big Bud)
A weighted blanket in plant form. Perfect for nighttime nerves and overthinking.
Blue Dream
(Blueberry × Haze)
The universal crowd-pleaser. Smooth, uplifting, and dependable. It’s like the friend who always brings snacks.
A classic indica that shuts down spiraling thoughts like flipping a breaker switch.
White Widow
(Brazilian Sativa Landrace × South Indian Indica)
Balanced and steady. Great for daytime anxiety when you still need to be a functional adult.
Harlequin (CBD-heavy)
(Colombian Gold × Thai Landrace × Swiss Landrace)
This one is for the folks who want calm without the THC rollercoaster. Gentle, soothing, and reliable.
Experts across 2025–2026 keep repeating the same gospel about these strains. They have moderate THC. They have CBD or balanced THC:CBD ratios. And calming terpenes like linalool, myrcene, and beta-caryophyllene. If the strain sounds like it belongs at a rave, don’t smoke it before a dentist appointment.
Anxiety is dramatic. Give it the wrong sativa and it will start narrating your doom like it’s auditioning for a true-crime documentary. You’ve spent enough years letting your nervous system run around like a toddler with a Capri Sun. Enough nights lying awake replaying conversations from 2008. Enough mornings waking up already bracing for imaginary disasters.
Give it the right hybrid, though, and suddenly your brain is like, “Maybe we can go to Walmart today.” Let your anxiety know, “I’m choosing peace today. And the strain that helps me keep it. It says, “Sit down. Mama’s medicating.” Choosing the right strain for anxiety isn’t just self‑care. It’s a whole ritual, a boundary, a declaration that your peace is no longer up for negotiation. Not in this house. Not with these herbs. Not with these ancestors watching.
This year, we’re choosing strains that soften the edges. Quiet the spirals. And remind your brain that it is, in fact, allowed to unclench. We’re choosing hybrids that don’t betray you. Classics that never stopped loving you. Terpenes that understand the assignment. We’re choosing calm on purpose.
Anxiety may be loud, but you? You are louder. You are older, wiser, and fully prepared to sage-smoke-pray-meditate your way into a softer season. Your peace is not fragile. Your calm is not accidental. Your healing is not a rumor. It’s a lifestyle. And every time you pick a strain that supports your spirit instead of sabotaging it, you’re telling the universe, “I choose me. I choose quiet. I choose ease. And I’ll be damned if anxiety gets the last word.”
Now gather your rolling tray, your lighter, your intention, and your boundaries. Take a breath so deep your ancestors nod in approval. And then with all the authority of a Southern auntie who has lived through some things. Let that anxiety know, “I’m calm on purpose. I’m peaceful by design. And I’m medicating accordingly. Now hush.” Stage cleared. Peace secured. Thanks for reading! Keep blazin.’
Affirmation: I honor my calm like a sacred ritual. I choose what soothes me. Supports me. And keeps my spirit steady. Anxiety does not run this house. I do.
“My mental health is held together by therapy, hydration, and three cats who refuse to let me spiral in peace.”
-This Puzzled Life
Light the charcoal. It’s Mental Health Awareness Month. And the collective mental state of this country is giving ‘a church van with three bald tires and a prayer.” The nation’s mental health is hanging on by a thread, a prayer, and a prescription refill reminder.
And let’s be honest. This crisis didn’t start at the bottom. No ma’am. We’ve got a mental‑health crisis starting at the top. And it’s dripping like a busted AC unit in August. Our leadership is acting like a Facebook comment section that’s surrounded by red‑hat followers cheering like it’s a halftime show. They treat conspiracy theories like gospel. And emotional regulation as a foreign language.
Meanwhile, my cats have entered the chat. Nothing says “mental health check‑in” like three judgmental felines watching the country unravel while demanding snacks. My cats have already staged an intervention.
Piper lit the sage herself. Coco is pacing like she’s waiting on election results. And Tinkerbell is under the couch. Because she said the national energy feels “crunchy.” She sits like a therapist who’s out of network. And blinking slowly at the news like,“This is why y’all need boundaries.” She watches the red‑hat crowd on TV and immediately starts grooming herself. Because she knows you can’t let that kind of energy stick to your fur.
Cocohas diagnosed the nation with “Too Much Foolishness Disorder.” Her treatment plan includes knocking pens off the table. Screaming at 3 a.m.And sitting directly on your chest until you confront your feelings.She sees the state of the country and says, “Oh, we’re all unwell? Bet.” Then she sprints down the hallway like she’s reenacting the national mood.
Piper is the emotional support animal who needs emotional support. She watches the president on TV. Tilts her head and walks away like, “I don’t know what that is. But it’s not stable.” Then she curls up in your lap. Even she knows the collective anxiety is loud.
In May, we gather as a nation to say, “Let’s take care of our minds.” And every May the nation responds, “Absolutely. Right after I argue with strangers online about things I don’t understand.” Therapists are tired. Teachers are tired. Nurses are tired. Your cats are tired. You are tired. The ancestors are tired. Even the houseplants are like, “Girl, water me and breathe.”
Down Here in the Southwe’re doing our best. We’re lighting candles. We’re praying. We’re drinking water. We’re trying to heal generational trauma. While also trying to find the good scissors.
The collective Southern mental state is basically, “I’m fine.” Translation is that I have cried in the laundry room twice today. And if one more person asks me what’s for dinner, I’m moving into the woods.” Piper nods. Coco screams. Tinkerbell knocks something off the counter. It’s a family effort.
What do we do?We breathe. We hydrate. We take our meds. We go to therapy. We stop arguing with people who think facts are optional. We light the charcoal and let the sage smoke carry away the foolishness.And we listen to the cats. They’ve been trying to tell us, “Rest is resistance. Snacks are medicine. Boundaries are holy.”If we’re going to survive this era with its chaos, noise, and its red‑hat circus energy, we’re going to need hydration, humor, therapy, and at least one cat supervising our coping mechanisms. This country needs therapy, hydration, and a nap that lasts until at least 2028.
Piper has officially closed her laptop and declared she’s unavailable for further foolishness. And has already clocked out and put her paw over the “Do Not Disturb” sign. Coco is stress eating treats like she’s watching a season finale. And she is filing paperwork with HR titled “The Nation Is Acting Up Again.” Tinkerbell has curled up on my chest because she said, “the nation’s anxiety is too loud and she’s clocking out.” And has declared the vibes unconstitutional and gone to bed.
If the world insists on acting unwell, then we’ll heal anyway. Loudly, joyfully, and with three cats as our emotional support security detail. Bless your boundaries, your brain cells, and your blood pressure. Now go forth and protect your peace like it’s the last biscuit at Sunday dinner. Thanks for reading! Get your ass in therapy.
Affirmation: I honor my mind, protect my peace, and set boundaries so firm even Coco won’t cross them.
“Addiction is a quiet predator. It’s patient. Calculated. Always hungry. And waiting for the moment you’re weakest to take the biggest bite out of your life.”
-This Puzzled Life
Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. Because when we talk about addiction awareness, the air needs to be thick with truth, protection, and the kind of courage that makes your voice shake but keeps going anyway. This isn’t a pretty conversation. It’s not a gentle unveiling. It’s not polite. It’s not something you whisper behind closed doors like a family secret wrapped in shame. It’s the kind of truth that shakes the floorboards and rattles the bones of anyone who’s ever lived it. Loved someone through it. Or buried someone because of it. This is a front porch, bare soul, trembling‑hands kind of truth. And today, we’re telling it out loud.
Addiction doesn’t walk into a home quietly. It barges in like a storm. It tracks mud across every memory. It rearranges the furniture of your life. And convinces you that chaos is normal. It teaches you to apologize for things you didn’t break. To shrink yourself so its shadow can stretch across the room. And to pretend you’re fine when your insides feel like shattered glass. And the cruelest part? Addiction doesn’t just take from the person struggling. It takes from everyone who loves them.
Families learn to tiptoe. Children learn to decode moods like weather patterns. Partners learn to carry burdens that were never meant for one set of shoulders. And the person battling addiction, learns to hide their pain behind a smile that fools everyone except the people who know them best. Addiction awareness isn’t about statistics or slogans. It’s about the people who wake up every day fighting a war no one else can see.
There are the battles fought in bathrooms, parked cars, and bedrooms with the door locked. The battles fought in silence because shame is louder than the truth. The battles fought by people who are terrified to ask for help because they don’t want to be judged. Dismissed. Or treated like a problem instead of a person.
Addiction awareness means saying, “You are not alone. You are not broken beyond repair. You are not the worst thing you’ve ever done.” It means recognizing that recovery isn’t linear. It’s messy. It’s painful. It’s full of relapses, restarts, and revelations. But it is possible. I tasted that freedom many years ago, during a moment in life that now seems like it never existed.
Let’s talk about the people that love them too. The ones who hold the line when the person they love can’t. The ones who pray. Cry. Scream. Hope. And repeat. Addiction awareness means honoring their resilience. Their heartbreak. Their bravery. Loving someone through addiction is its own kind of battle that deserves to be seen.
Addiction is not a moral failure. It is not a character flaw. It is not a sign of weakness. It’s a neurological hijacking. And once it gets inside, it takes the controls and refuses to give them back. It’s a thief. A liar. And a weight that no one should carry alone.
Awareness is the first step toward compassion. Compassion is the first step toward healing. Healing is the first step toward freedom. And freedom? Freedom is the birthright of every single person touched by addiction. It doesn’t matter whether they’re fighting it. Surviving it. Or loving someone through it.
I have been an addict in one form or another since I was a very young teen. That’s the part people don’t see. The way it starts before you even understand what “coping” means. Before your brain is fully formed. Before you know that one decision can echo for decades. Some things I let go of and never touched again. But others? Others I’m still married to. Still controlled by. And still waking up beside like a partner I never meant to vow my life to. I’ve stood on every side of this issue. I’ve been a patient, professional, survivor, and witness. I’ve buried friends and family. And I’ve found the bodies of patients. I’ve even sat in classrooms learning the science. And I’ve sat on bathroom floors learning the consequences.
One of the biggest debates is whether addiction is a disease. And honestly? I see both sides. But I can attest to this. What I know in my bones is that addiction will pick up exactly where it left off. It doesn’t forget you. It doesn’t forgive you. And it doesn’t loosen its grip just because you got tired.
It progresses like a slow-moving fire. Consuming everything until it shuts down every functioning cell in your body. It’s the lover that kisses your forehead while holding a knife behind your back. And it’s like trying to pet a rattlesnake and hoping it suddenly cares about your well-being.
There are no social crack users. No social heroin users. No social meth, fentanyl, or “just once in a while” users of the things that hollow you out from the inside. I’ve known too many who didn’t make it. Too many funerals. Too many empty chairs. Too many stories cut short. And the truth is brutal. Addicts are not the type who typically live to be 80. The statistics confirm what our hearts already know. That many have died. And many more will die.
And process addictions? Eating disorders, self-harm, gambling, sex addiction, etc. are not softer versions. They are simply different roads to the same grave. Addiction doesn’t care about the method. It cares about the destruction. And it will be done in totality emotionally, socially, spiritually, and physically.
It strips you down until you’re a shell of what once resembled a human being. It destroys your life and the lives orbiting yours. That’s the goal. It wants no interference. And no one slowing its roll. It wants you wrapped around its finger in a relationship so co-dependent it feels cellular. It doesn’t care how many relationships are ruined as a result. Addiction is about the next fix. Whatever that fix is. And you will chase it until the line between living and dying blurs.
The saddest part is that you don’t know you’re susceptible until you’re already in it. Addiction does not discriminate. It shows no mercy to clergy, billionaires, politicians, Hollywood actors, musicians, doctors, lawyers, nurses, or the people just trying to keep the lights on and food on the table.
And the idea that you can outthink addiction? Outsmart the chemical, emotional, and neurological machinery it hijacks? That’s the thinking of fools. And I say that with compassion. Not judgment. There is nothing more heartbreaking than watching someone, yourself included, need their “drug” so badly that they would burn down every good thing in their life for another taste of something that is killing them.
Let the truth rise with the smoke. Addiction is not romance. It is not rebellion. It is not escape. It is suicide on an installment plan. And for every person who struggles, it has a bullet with their name on it. Even mine. Speaking the truth out loud is how we start breaking the cycle that wants us silent. Awareness is the first crack of light. Awareness is the first act of rebellion. Awareness is the first step toward choosing life. Even when the addiction whispers otherwise. It’s a story of survival in a world that doesn’t teach us how to hold our pain.
Your days of hiding in silence are over. We’re speaking your name. Shine light in your corners. And refusing to let shame be your shield. This is awareness. This is courage. This is the moment we stop whispering and start healing. And it’s for every soul who deserves a life bigger than their battle. Thanks for reading! And ask for what you need.
Affirmation: I honor the battles I’ve survived, and I refuse to let the shadows that once claimed me write the rest of my story. I rise with clarity, courage, and a spine made of truth.
“My cats said CBD won’t get me high. But it will keep me from acting like a Walmart parking lot Greek tragedy. And honestly, that feels like growth.”
-This Puzzled Life
Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. Let the ancestors lean in the doorway with their arms crossed. The moment that smoke hit the ceiling fan, my household convened an emergency session of the Feline Administration to discuss CBD Awareness Month. And the cats had notes.
Piper, Coco, and Tinkerbell marched in like three county commissioners who did not read the briefing packet. But absolutely intend to argue about it. Piper arrived first. She’s was dragging a legal pad she stole from my desk. She hopped onto the coffee table. Cleared her throat and announced, “CBD Awareness Month is important because humans are stressed, chaotic, and prone to hollering at inanimate objects. We must intervene.”
Coco strutted in next. And late on purpose. She believes time is a social construct. And also because she was busy knocking something off a shelf. She plopped down. Tail flicking and said, “CBD is fine. But why do y’all keep buying the expensive treats and then acting surprised when I eat the whole bag?”
Tinkerbell arrived last with the energy of a Southern auntie who already decided the meeting was foolish. But came for the snacks. She sat like a sphinx and declared, “CBD is the plant spirit that keeps y’all from crying in the Walmart parking lot. We support it.”
The Cats’ Official CBD Purposes
According to the Feline Administration, CBD has three sacred functions.
Stress & anxiety relief-“Because y’all vibrate like a microwave on popcorn mode.”
Chaos reduction-“In theory, though, I’ve seen no evidence.”
Increased compliance with feline demands- Tinkerbell insists this is scientifically proven by staring at me until I give her treats.
Then they expanded the list like they were reading off a menu.
Calms the humans-“Because y’all vibrate like a cheap motel air conditioner.”
Inflammation & pain-“Your knees sound like a haunted rocking chair.”
Sleep support-“You need it. We need you to need it.”
Mood regulation-“You get dramatic,” all three say in unison.
General human foolishness-“Self-explanatory.”
They also want it noted that CBD helps humans stop doom scrolling. Stop overthinking texts. Stop reorganizing the pantry at 3 a.m. and stop crying at dog food commercials. It gives you the ability to forgive yourself for eating an entire sleeve of cookies. And the mystical moment when you realize you are the drama. But also the solution.
Piper hopped onto the table with a binder labeled CBD: A Non‑Psychoactive Situation. Coco dragged in a whiteboard she absolutely cannot read. Tinkerbell arrived late again, ready to deliver a TED Talk titled Calm Down, Human: The Plant Is Legal Now.
Piper began: “CBD is federally legal as long as it comes from hemp and contains less than 0.3% THC. Which means, human, you can stop whispering like you’re buying contraband behind the Piggly Wiggly.”
Coco: “It does not alter your mind. It alters your attitude. And frankly, we support that.”
Tinkerbell: “It’s non‑psychoactive. Which means you’re not getting high. You’re getting functional. You’re getting emotionally moisturized. You’re getting less likely to cry over a dropped chicken nugget.”
The Guidelines (Because Apparently I Needed Rules)
Piper, now self‑appointed Director of Human Regulation, laid out the official policies.
Do not give CBD to cats without a vet’s approval. “We are perfect as‑is.”
Humans should use CBD responsibly. “Meaning don’t take it and then try to assemble furniture.”
CBD is not a personality trait. Tinkerbell says this while staring directly at me.
If CBD helps you chill, hydrate, and mind your business, the cats approve. Especially the “mind your business” part.
Then they sat me down like I was on trial.
Piper said, “We’ve observed the pacing. The muttering. The dramatic sighing. And the emotional support snacks. Clearly, CBD awareness is overdue.”
Coco added, “And while we support your journey, we would also like to know why you get the calming treats and we get vibes.”
Tinkerbell stared at me unblinking, like she was reading my aura and finding overdue library books in it. She then hopped onto the altar (my coffee table). Placed one paw on my forehead, and proclaimed:
“May your joints be loose. Your sleep be deep. Your snacks be plentiful. And your spirit be unbothered. May CBD soften your edges but not your boundaries. And may you never, ever forget to refill the treat jar.”
The sage crackled. The ancestors nodded. And the cats declared CBD Awareness Month officially adjourned. Piper knocked over a plant. Coco demanded lunch. Tinkerbell stole my pen. The plant is innocent. The human is the problem. Thanks for reading! Keep medicating.
Affirmation: “I am calm, collected, and legally compliant. I soften my edges, not my boundaries, and I do it with the confidence of a cat who just knocked something over on purpose.”
“When you build your house on hypocrisy, don’t be shocked when the storm hits first.”
-Southern Gay Wisdom
Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. Brace your spirit. Today’s sermon is brought to you by the Holy Ghost of “I Told Y’all.” The Book of Southern Gay Prophets. And the ancestral spirits who only show up when the drama is premium‑grade. The air is thick. The wind is petty. And the hypocrisy is rising like steam off a Mississippi driveway in July. Kristi Noem and Pam Bondi are out here doing the MAGA Walk of Shame. And the universe itself said, “Roll camera.”
Kristi “I Love Traditional Marriage Unless It’s Mine and Puppy Killer” Noem is over here smiling like she’s hosting a Mar‑a‑Lago bake sale. While her entire political career collapses like a Dollar Tree folding chair. Pam “I Have the Files-Wait, No I Don’t-What Files?” Bondi is shuffling papers like she’s auditioning for a Florida reboot of Law & Order: Girl, Please. And the hypocrisy? So thick you could spread it on a biscuit.
These two strutted into the week like they were the headliners of the Family Values Revival Tour. And strutted out like they’d been personally escorted offstage by the Holy Spirit and a security guard named Earl. The way they both got tossed under the Trump Bus with no seatbelt, no warning, no emotional support casserole, and not even a lukewarm dish from the church ladies is nothing but whew.
The ancestors aren’t just giggling. They’re hollering. They’re wheezing. They’re slapping their knees and saying, “See? Didn’t we tell y’all?” And now the smoke rising today? It’s not from the grill. It’s from the fall of two of America’s most dramatic ‘family values’ performers finally catching up to the truth they tried to outrun. Light the charcoal cause history is happening.
Let’s begin with Kristi “Traditional Marriage” Noem, who woke up this morning as the Director of Homeland Security. And then went to bed as the Director of “Girl, What Happened?” She strutted into that press conference like she was about to announce a new casserole recipe. Her bless your heart chin high. Hair sprayed into a helmet. Confidence radiating like she’d just won Miss Cornbread 2024.
Kristi Noem is the same woman who smiled her Mar‑a‑Lago smile while cheering on the cruelty of ICE like it was a halftime show. And she really thought she was untouchable. She encouraged the worst of it. The raids, fear, brutality, and the “show them no mercy” energy that echoed the darkest chapters of history. She did it with a grin. With a camera‑ready face. And with the confidence of someone who believed she’d never be held accountable.
She wanted to take anything into custody that breathed wrong in Trump’s direction. Which included blow‑up animals, parade balloons, inflatable flamingos, and anything that dared to stand against the man she treated like a holy relic. She acted like Donald Trump wasn’t the con artist the entire country warned her about. She acted like loyalty to him was a retirement plan. But the check bounced.
And then Trump hit her with a “You’re fired!” Which had that same energy as a Dollar Tree cashier clocking out early. Because the register froze and they simply don’t get paid enough for this. But the real plot twist? Her husband, Mr. “Family Values” himself, is now living his best life as a cross‑dressing boob boy. And honestly? Good for him. Somebody in that marriage deserved joy, sequins, and breathable fabric.
Meanwhile, Pam “I Have the Files on My Desk” Bondi is out here giving us the greatest trilogy since Lord of the Rings like:
“I have the files on my desk.”
“I don’t have the files on my desk.”
“What are the files?”
Ma’am. This is not a Nancy Drew novel. This is not a Hardy Boys mystery. This is a Florida woman with a ring light and a dream. Here’s the part that hits the deepest nerve. Pam Bondi who spent years doing the “I don’t have the files” shuffle, while survivors of Epstein’s abuse begged for acknowledgment she never gave. She never even acknowledged the Epstein survivors. Not when she was Florida Attorney General. Not when they begged for accountability. Not when they asked for meetings. Not when they asked for justice.
Survivors and advocates have said for years that she ignored them. Dismissed them. And prioritized political loyalty over human suffering. And now she’s out here crying on camera about being “betrayed?” The only betrayal that mattered was the one she committed against the people who needed her most. Public criticism has followed her for years. Because she didn’t meet with them. She didn’t prioritize them. And she didn’t use her power to pursue accountability when she had the chance.
And so here we stand. We’re watching Kristi Noem and Pam Bondi wobbling down the political driveway tumbling down the marble steps of their own hypocrisy. Like two contestants eliminated in the first round of a reality show nobody asked for. Their mascara is running. With their heels in their hands whispering, “Donald, please don’t do this.” Donald Trump, patron saint of Save Myself First Ministries, simply adjusted his tie and said, “Ladies, I love you, but I love me more.” And he tossed them off the political porch like yesterday’s potato salad. The silence that followed could’ve been bottled and sold as a conservative Christian essential oil.
They’ve been politically guillotined by the very man they worshipped like their Orange Mussolini Messiah Daddy. The same man who told them he’d protect them. The same man who said he’d always be there. The same man who turned around and cut them loose the second it benefited him. Pam and Kristi, the country wasn’t lying to you. He was. So, put that in your Epstein pipe and smoke it.
And this is only the beginning. The fall of Trump and the collapse of MAGA isn’t a single moment. It’s a season. A reckoning. A slow‑motion implosion of every grifter, every sycophant, every “family values” fraud who thought proximity to power would save them. Two down. Many more to go.
And as the dust settles. As the excuses crumble. And the crocodile tears dry on the marble floors of Mar‑a‑Lago, let the record show That the South remembers. The gays remember. The survivors remember. And history remembers.
And now I’ll say this with my full chest, “Kristi, Pam, Bye Felicias! May the truth follow you louder than your lies ever did. May accountability find you faster than your loyalty found Trump. And may the fall of this corrupt movement be as dramatic as the chaos it unleashed.” Thanks for reading! What are your thoughts on these two useless human beings with no souls?
Affirmation: I release the chaos of hypocrites. The noise of liars. And the weight of other people’s fake values. I walk in truth, glitter, and ancestral clarity.
