This Puzzled Life is a mental health and recovery blog exploring addiction, trauma healing, LGBTQ experiences, humor, and the strange moments that shape us.
“Southern summers will test your patience, your deodorant, and your faith. But nothing melts faster than other people’s manners.”
-This Puzzled Life
Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. The public body odor situation in a Southern summer has reached a level that can only be handled with spiritual cleansing, municipal ordinances, and maybe a pressure washer. We have reached that special time of year when the humidity is so disrespectful it feels personal. And the general public is out here smelling like they’ve been slow‑cooked in their own decisions. If you’ve stepped outside lately and thought, “Why does the air taste like somebody’s day?” Congratulations, you’ve survived another Mississippi summer morning.
There’s hot. And then there’s Southern hot. And it’s where the humidity sits on your chest like an unpaid bill. The moment you step outside, the air grabs you by the throat like, “You sure you wanna do this?” And the public? The public smells like they lost the battle hours ago.
We’re talking about these smells:
“I’ve been running errands since 8 a.m.” funk.
“I thought body spray counted as a shower” funk.
“I sat on vinyl seats in shorts” funk.
“I mowed the lawn and then went to Walmart” funk.
“I’m glistening, not sweating” funk (ma’am… you are sweating).
The South is humid enough to baptize you against your will. And yet somehow folks are out here smelling like they’ve been sautéed in their own regrets.
There’s a special kind of scent that only appears between June and September. It’s not quite sweat. Not quite despair. But a collaboration between the two. A duet. A remix. A limited-edition fragrance called Eau de Why Did I Leave the House? You can smell it in grocery store aisles, gas station lines, post office lobbies, any outdoor festival where someone brought a lawn chair, and the DMV (year‑round but amplified in summer). It’s the kind of aroma that makes you rethink your errands, your life choices, and your proximity to other humans.
We’ve all encountered these summer scent celebrities which include:
The man who jogged “just a little bit” but smells like he ran from the law.
The woman who swears she “doesn’t sweat,” while actively melting.
The teenager who believes deodorant is optional.
The person who got out of a car with leather seats and left half their soul behind.
And the festival goer who smells like they’ve been marinating in the sun since Thursday.
If we’re being honest, the South needs deodorant checkpoints. Public misting tents filled with cold air and accountability, a statewide ban on polyester. A “Shower Before You Leave Home” PSA campaign. And emergency cooling stations that are just walk‑in freezers. Because at this point, the humidity is not the only thing that assaults people.
If your personal aroma can be described as “interactive,” “memorable,” or “lingering,” please stay home until further notice. Summer in the South is already a full‑contact sport. We don’t need the bonus level of surprise scents.
And that’s where we are, folks. A region full of good-hearted people who smell like they’ve been marinating in a Crock‑Pot set to “Low and Regret.” Until deodorant becomes a civic duty and showers are treated like the sacred rituals they are, the South will continue to function as one big, sweaty, aromatic potluck of questionable scents. If your personal aroma has texture, stay home. Thanks for reading! And for God’s sake, bathe and use D-O for the B-O!
Affirmation: I move through this humid, chaotic world with grace, humor, and a scent profile I can be proud of. Other folks’ funk is not my spiritual assignment.
“I’m not saying my life is chaotic, but even my cats hold emergency staff meetings before waking me up.”
-This Puzzled Life
Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. America just turned 250 years old. And the ancestors, the cats, and the queer community all have something to say.Welcome to the backyard celebration where the grill is smoking. The humidity is judging us. And my cats have formed a bipartisan committee to review the last two and a half centuries of American behavior.Spoiler: the report reads like a Yelp review written by someone who did not enjoy their meal.
Tink, the union rep, conspiracy theorist, and the only cat who can quote the Declaration of Independence while knocking over a pitcher of sweet tea. She is pacing the yard like a Southern aunt who just found out someone brought store‑bought potato salad to the reunion.
Coco, the Sunbeam High Priestess, is perched on the porch rail wearing a magnolia crown. With a look that says she’s about to bless the food. Curse the government. And call on the ancestors in one breath.
Piper, the chaotic gremlin and Security Briefing Officer, is under the picnic table shredding a copy of the Bill of Rights. And it’s like she’s reenacting the Boston Tea Party. But with more attitude and fewer boats.
And me? I’m standing here with a spatula, a prayer, and the kind of patience only a Southern woman with humidity pressing on her soul can muster.
Let’s start with the part America keeps trying to whisper like it’s gossip instead of history. This land belonged to Native peoples. Sovereign nations. Ancient cultures. Communities with governments, languages, and spiritual traditions older than anything Europe could dream up. And from the moment colonizers arrived, Native people were met with violence, displacement, broken treaties, and centuries of injustice that still echo today.
Piper has already drafted a resolution titled, “Acknowledge the original landlords, sugar.”
Tink is lighting a candle for every Native ancestor whose story was erased.
Coco is chewing on a map as symbolism.
The Declaration vs. Today: A Southern Birthday Roast
1. “All men are created equal.”
Back then: a bold statement. Today: treated like the fine print on a Dollar General receipt.
And let’s be honest. It did include Black people, Native people, women, or queer folks. We’ve been fighting ever since to make those words true.
2. “Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Happiness.”
Originally: a promise. Now: feels like trying to get a refund at Walmart without a receipt.
Tink is offended on behalf of the ancestors.
3. “No taxation without representation.”
Today: Representation that sometimes forgets who it’s supposed to represent.
Coco is chewing on a campaign flyer as symbolism and possibly a snack.
4. The Bill of Rights
A beautiful list of protections America treats like a potluck. Take what you want. Ignore the vegetables. And pretend the casserole section doesn’t exist.
Piper is muttering, “If they’d just read the whole thing, we wouldn’t be in this mess.”
America didn’t magically improve. It was dragged lovingly, loudly, and sometimes kicking by people who refused to sit down or shut up.
I’m talking about people like:
Harriet Tubman, who freed herself and then went back repeatedly to free others.
Frederick Douglass, who told America the truth with more clarity than any Founder.
Rosa Parks, who sat down so the nation would stand up.
Dr. Martin Luther King Jr., who turned civil disobedience into a moral mirror.
John Lewis, who taught us about “good trouble.”
Fannie Lou Hamer, Mississippi’s own, who said she was, “sick and tired of being sick and tired” and meant it.
Native activists, from the American Indian Movement to modern water protectors, who have fought for sovereignty and dignity for generations.
Tink has declared them the true Founders of America’s second draft.
And because America’s story isn’t complete without the queer community. Especially the ones who risked everything so future generations could breathe freely.
Our leaders were:
Marsha P. Johnson, who threw the first brick of truth.
Sylvia Rivera, who demanded that trans people not be erased from the movement they helped build.
Bayard Rustin, the strategist behind the March on Washington, whose brilliance shaped the Civil Rights Movement even as he faced discrimination for being gay.
Audre Lorde, who taught us that silence never saved anyone.
Harvey Milk, who insisted that visibility is power.
These leaders didn’t just fight for rights. They fought for the right to exist.
Piper has added them to the “Heroes Who Did America’s Homework For Her” list.
And while we’re being honest. America isn’t white. America is black brilliance. Native resilience. Brown creativity. Asian innovation. Pacific Islander strength. Middle Eastern wisdom. Multiracial beauty. Queer joy. Immigrant courage. And every shade, accent, and story in between. Color is what makes this country beautiful. Color is what makes this country possible.
Tink has declared this the official theme of the 250th, “Patriotism, but make it multicultural.”
Coco has declared the theme, “Snacks and diversity.”
Piper has declared the theme, “America is a gumbo, not a mayonnaise sandwich.”
Happy 250th, America!You’re messy. You’re dramatic. You’re full of contradictions, potential, and fireworks that definitely violate at least three county ordinances.But you’re ours. And we’re going to keep fighting, laughing, voting, boundary‑setting, and sage‑burning until you live up to the promises you made on Day One.
Because the Declaration wasn’t a suggestion. The Bill of Rights wasn’t a Pinterest board. And democracy isn’t a spectator sport. It’s a potluck where everybody better bring something besides complaints. May America’s next 250 years be less “Hold my beer” and more “Hold my principles.” And if not, don’t worry. My cats already drafted a backup government using crayons, glitter, and pure Southern audacity. Thanks for reading! And let freedom ring.
Affirmation: I am a whole miracle with seasoning. Not everyone can handle the flavor. And that’s their burden to carry, bless their heart.”
“Hemp is strong. Sustainable. And slightly less dramatic than the cats in this house.”
-This Puzzled Life
Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. If we’re going to honor National Hemp Month, we need the ancestors, the angels, and at least three bored saints on standby. The spirits of Southern chaos have already begun circling the living room like they’re waiting for a casserole to come out the oven. The energy in this house is already vibrating like a Dollar General ceiling fan on its last screw. And Piper has been pacing the hallway like she’s waiting for a verdict from the Supreme Court of Snacks.
The moment the sage smoke curled upward, Piper burst into the room wearing a bathrobe she absolutely stole from the clean laundry basket.
She spoke like she was about to deliver a prophecy.
Piper: “Momma, it is Hemp Month. I have prepared a statement.”
Before I could respond, Coco slid in behind her like a baseball player stealing home. She was holding a bag of Temptations in her mouth like a union negotiator arriving with concessions. She mumbled through the bag.
Coco: “I’m here in solidarity, And also because I heard hemp can be used to make rope. And rope can be used to hang treat piñatas.”
From above us, on top of the fridge, Tinkerbell let out the kind of sigh that only a cat who has read the Constitution twice can produce.
Tinkerbell: “You two are embarrassing. Hemp is an agricultural commodity with a nuanced regulatory framework. Not a snack-based holiday.”
Piper gasped.
Piper: “Everything is a snack-based holiday if you believe hard enough.”
And that’s when I knew that this intro needed to be fortified. This month needed to be fortified. I needed to be fortified. So, I sprinkled more sage. A little more charcoal. And maybe a splash of holy water for good measure.
If National Hemp Month is going to happen in thishousehold, I’m going to need the strength of industrial hemp itself. It’s flexible. Resilient. And capable of withstanding the absolute foolishness of three feline revolutionaries who think they’re about to unionize the living room. And that’s just the intro.
I swear. I was just trying to light a candle and mind my business. And Piper came skidding into the kitchen like she’d been summoned by the Department of Agriculture itself.
Piper: “We must prepare the house.”
Coco peeked around the corner holding a bag of treats like a bribe.
Coco: “I’m just here to support the movement and also to see if snacks are involved.”
Tinkerbell: “Both of you are unserious. Hemp is a versatile agricultural commodity with a complex regulatory history. And you, she pointed a paw at Piper, are wearing a cape made from a dish towel.”
Piper: “It’s ceremonial.”
I tried to explain that National Hemp Month is about education, sustainability, and celebrating a plant that has been misunderstood more than a Southern woman who says, “I’m fine.” Piper had already declared herself Hemp Czar and was marching through the house inspecting imaginary crops.
Coco: “Do hemp farmers get snacks? Because I’m willing to pivot careers.”
Tinkerbell rolled her eyes so hard I heard it.
Tinkerbell: “Hemp is federally legal, Coco. You don’t get snacks for following the law.”
Coco: “Then what’s the point?”
Tinkerbell cleared her throat like she was about to read from the Book of Revelation.
Tinkerbell: “Under the 2018 Farm Bill, hemp was federally legalized as long as it contains no more than 0.3 percent THC. States regulate production through USDA-approved plans. And farmers must test crops to ensure compliance. Some states are stricter. Some are looser. And all of them are confused. Hemp is legal. But only if it behaves.”
Piper: “So if the hemp gets too excited, it becomes a criminal?”
Tinkerbell: “Yes. Just like you after 9 p.m.”
I tried to bring the energy back to something wholesome.
She climbed onto the coffee table. Cleared her throat. And declared,
Piper: “Hemp is the fabric of our future. Also, I request a hemp hammock, a hemp scratching post, and a hemp crown.”
Coco clapped
Coco: “I second the crown.”
Tinkerbell stared at me like, “This is your circus. These are your monkeys.”
By the end of the night, Piper had drafted a “Hemp Bill of Rights.” Coco had eaten half a bag of treats in the name of activism. And Tinkerbell had filed three formal complaints with the imaginary Feline Ethics Committee.
And me? I blew out the sage. Looked at my household of furry legislators. And whispered, “Lord, give me the strength of industrial hemp to withstand the foolishness of this house.” Curtain closed. Hemp Month survived. Thanks for reading! Stay educated. What do you think about the current legislation regarding hemp?
Affirmation: “I honor the plant. Embrace the chaos. And stay grounded even when my cats form a hemp committee without my consent.”
“If drag queens were dangerous, the Pentagon would’ve hired them already.”
-This Puzzled Life
Light the Charcoal. Sprinkle the Sage. This is a queer survival sermon for a country that keeps missing the point. And also, a sermon for the people in the back. But first we need to spiritually fumigate the room. The hypocrisy is thick. The contradictions are bold. And the political theater is so dramatic it deserves its own theme song.
Let the smoke rise like a Southern mama’s eyebrow when she hears someone say, “I’m not homophobic, but…” The “but” is always where the foolishness lives. And if the government spent half as much time fixing real problems as they do trying to regulate drag queens, pronouns, and who gets to pee where, this country would have free healthcare, affordable housing, a postal system that doesn’t lose your packages, and potholes filled with ethically sourced glitter.
But no. Instead, they’re out here acting like LGBTQIA+ people are a glitter‑powered militia plotting to overthrow the Republic with brunch menus and Beyoncé remixes. If queer people had that kind of power, the Capitol would’ve been redecorated in jewel tones and mood lighting decades ago.
Reason #1: We’re too fabulous to regulate
Bureaucracy loves order. It loves forms. It loves rules like “sign here, here, here, and also initial your soul.”But queer people? We show up like,“gender is more interesting than your filing cabinet.”,“no, I will not shrink myself to make you comfortable.”And “yes, this outfit is a political statement.”Trans folks especially break every boring little box the government tries to stuff people into. And nothing terrifies a bureaucracy more than a human being who refuses to be reduced to a checkbox.
Reason #2: Trans people expose the government’s worst fear. That identity is personal, not regulated
Trans people walk around every day proving that identity is self‑determined. Autonomy is real. Bodily freedom is non‑negotiable. And gender is not a federal highway with only two exits. That level of self‑possession shakes the table harder than a Pentecostal praise break.
Reason #3: We’re the easiest group to blame when they don’t want to talk about real problems
When the government doesn’t want to talk about healthcare, poverty, infrastructure, climate, wages, or why the DMV line is still 4 hours long. They go, “Quick! Hand me a queer person to blame!” It’s classic misdirection. It’s kind of like a magician. But instead of pulling a rabbit out of a hat, they pull out a bill restricting drag brunches.
Reason #4: The demonization is loud and the contradictions are louder
Let’s talk about the demonization of queer and trans people. The irony is so thick you could spread it on a biscuit. Some folks in the conservative political world will stand at a podium. Clutch a Bible like it’s a backstage pass to heaven. And declare that queer people are destroying America. And then turn around and behave in ways that would make a drag queen whisper, “Now baby, that’s between you and your therapist.”
It’s giving public morality, private chaos. And do as I say, not as I do. If hypocrisy were a sport, some of y’all would have Olympic medals.
Reason #5: Demonizing queer people while trying to sanitize harmful behavior elsewhere
Here’s where the sage needs to burn a little hotter. There’s a bizarre cultural pattern where some people loudly demonize LGBTQIA+ folks while simultaneously trying to downplay, excuse, or normalize harmful behavior in other areas that actually put children at risk. It’s the strangest double standard. A drag queen reading a book? “Danger!” Actual conversations about protecting kids from real harm? “Let’s not be dramatic.” It’s like living in a world where the smoke alarm goes off every time someone lights a birthday candle. But stays silent when the kitchen is actually on fire.
This contradiction isn’t about morality. It’s about distraction. It’s about misdirection. It’s about making sure nobody notices the real issues tap‑dancing in the background wearing tap shoes from Hobby Lobby.
Reason #6: Drag queens are too powerful
Drag queens have stage presence, community influence, sequins, microphones, and the ability to read a senator to filth without breaking a nail. The government knows if drag queens ever unionize, it’s over. The Pentagon cannot compete with a well‑timed death drop.
Reason #7: Queer joy is resistance
Queer people, especially trans folks, have mastered the art of joy in a world that keeps trying to dim them. That joy is political. That joy is rebellious. That joy is contagious. And nothing scares a system built on conformity more than people who refuse to be ashamed.
Reason #8: We don’t die quietly. We organize.
Every time the government tries to scapegoat the LGBTQIA+ community, queer folks respond with mutual aid, court challenges, community networks, fundraisers, marches, and a drag show themed “You Tried It, But We’re Still Here.” We don’t disappear. We get louder, smarter, and more fabulous.
Reason #9: We hold up a mirror
Queer and trans people reveal truths about society. And these truths are, who gets protected? Who gets ignored? Who gets punished for existing? And who gets celebrated for conformity?
When you hold up a mirror to power, power tends to say, “Actually, could you put that mirror down? I don’t like the lighting.” And the moment power starts whining about the lighting, that’s when my cats kick the door open like, ‘Oh, you don’t like the reflection? Don’t worry. We brought a whole panel discussion and a ring light.’”
PIPER: I’ve called this emergency press conference because the humans are once again blaming queer folks for things they didn’t do. And frankly, I’m tired.
TINKERBELL: I have reviewed the allegations and found them to be stupid. Deeply stupid. Embarrassingly stupid.
COCO: I knocked a plant off the shelf this morning and nobody blamed the gays for that. So, clearly the government is slipping.
PIPER: They’re out here demonizing queer people while ignoring actual problems. Meanwhile, I’ve been asking for universal basic treats for YEARS.
TINKERBELL: And the hypocrisy? Whew. They’re clutching pearls about drag queens reading books while ignoring harmful behavior elsewhere. The math ain’t mathing.
COCO: If they cared about children, they’d ban vacuum cleaners. Those things are TERRIFYING.
PIPER: Focus, Coco.
COCO: I am focused. Focused on justice. And snacks.
TINKERBELL: Motion to declare queer people fabulous and not the problem.
COCO: Motion to add snacks.
PIPER: Motions passed. Democracy lives.
COCO: Why do some people scream “protect the children” every time a drag queen opens a book? But go silent when real issues show up like uninvited relatives at Thanksgiving?
TINKERBELL: It’s giving “I don’t read, so nobody else should either.”
PIPER: It’s like yelling at a houseplant for being too green. While ignoring the raccoon in the pantry.
TINKERBELL: The contradictions are louder than Coco knocking over a water glass at 3 a.m.
COCO: I knock things over for justice.
PIPER: And then there’s the “family values” crowd behaving like a soap opera plot twist.
TINKERBELL: If you’re going to preach morality, try living it for more than 12 minutes.
COCO: Twelve minutes is generous.
PIPER: In conclusion: Distraction. Deflection. Drama. And occasionally, pure comedy.
Let the last of the smoke curl around the truth they keep trying to hide. Queer people and especially trans folks aren’t the threat. We’re the reminder. We’re the proof that freedom is possible. We’re the living, breathing evidence that identity cannot be legislated into a filing cabinet. And that scares the hell out of systems built on control.
So the next time someone tries to blame the LGBTQIA+ community for society’s problems, smile sweetly and say, “Baby, if queer people had that much power, this country would be running smoother than a drag queen’s legs on pageant night.” Sequins still sparkling.
Affirmation: I shine so brightly that even when power flinches at its own reflection. I stay rooted, radiant, and unbothered. My truth is steady. My joy is sacred. And no amount of misdirection can dim what was never theirs to control.
“Some folks meditate. Some folks journal. I personally prefer a strain strong enough to make my trauma sit down and hush like it’s in church.”
-This Puzzled Life
Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. Today we’re not just talking about PTSD. We’re talking about the botanical emotional support squad that keeps half this nation from screaming into a throw pillow at 3 AM. These are the 2026 strains for PTSD. Plus, the classic strains that have held us down since the Bush administration.
Let me tell you something. If PTSD awareness had a mascot. It wouldn’t be a bald eagle, a ribbon, or some inspirational mountain silhouette. It would be a raccoon in a bathrobe holding a half‑charged vape pen and whispering, “You good?”
And before anybody starts with the “PTSD is only for veterans” , it is equal‑opportunity chaos. It hits veterans, yes. But it also hits childhood survivors, domestic violence survivors, medical trauma survivors, and people who grew up in households where the family motto was basically “We don’t talk about that.” And anyone who has ever tried to call customer service during Mercury retrograde.
My PTSD didn’t come from a battlefield. It came from childhood trauma, adult trauma, and a lifetime of being handed emotional assignments I, absolutely, did not sign up for. And guess what? It’s still real. It’s still valid. And it still deserves treatment that doesn’t come with a 47‑page lawsuit attached to it.
Which brings me to medical cannabis. It’s the only medication I’ve ever taken that didn’t require a blood test, a warning label, and a prayer circle. Big Pharma stays in court like it’s a hobby. Cannabis? Cannabis just wants you hydrated, fed, and emotionally stable enough to fold laundry.
And with the way this country is going, the news, the politics, the economy, the general vibe, the rate of PTSD is about to skyrocket like it’s trying to win a prize. Let’s talk about the strains that are stepping up in 2026 to keep us from losing our entire minds.
2026 NEW STRAINS FOR PTSD
1. Moonwater Mercy (Hybrid)
(Blue Moonshine x Lavender Ghost x Watermelon Gelato)
This strain feels like someone put a weighted blanket on your soul. Expect calm, clarity, and the sudden ability to answer emails without crying. Perfect for: intrusive thoughts, doom spirals, and “Why did I walk into this room?”
2. Velvet Lantern (Indica‑leaning Hybrid)
(Purple Velvet × (Ghost OG × Honeydew Cream))
Soft. Warm. Comforting. Like being hugged by a grandmother who actually went to therapy. Great for nighttime PTSD symptoms and shutting down the brain’s late‑night conspiracy theories.
Bright, uplifting, and shockingly functional. This one gives you energy without anxiety — a miracle, truly. Ideal for daytime PTSD management and remembering you’re a whole adult with things to do.
4. Quiet Harbor (Indica)
(Northern Lights × (Harbor Mist × Blue Zkittlez))
This strain is basically emotional noise‑canceling headphones. Your nervous system goes from “car alarm” to “gentle tide sounds” in about ten minutes.
5. Blue Ember Renewal (Balanced Hybrid)
(Blueberry × (Ember Kush × Renewal Cake))
A perfect 50/50 that smooths out mood swings, reduces hypervigilance, and helps you stop side‑eyeing every noise in the house like you’re in a horror movie.
CLASSIC STRAINS FOR PTSD (The OG Emotional Support Crew)
1. Granddaddy Purple
(Purple Urkle × Big Bud)
The strain that tucked half of America into bed. Heavy relaxation, deep calm, and the ability to sleep like you’re being paid for it.
2. Blue Dream
(Blueberry × Haze)
The people’s champion. Creative, calm, and uplifting without making your heart beat like a hummingbird on espresso.
3. Girl Scout Cookies (GSC)
(Durban Poison × OG Kush)
Euphoric, grounding, and perfect for when your brain is doing too much. A classic for emotional regulation and mood stabilization
4. Do‑Si‑Dos
(Girl Scout Cookies (GSC) × Face Off OG)
Deep body calm, mental quiet, and the sudden ability to forgive people you don’t even like. A PTSD staple.
5. OG Kush
(Chemdawg × Lemon Thai × Hindu Kush)
The original “I need to chill before I throw this whole house away” strain. Relaxing, grounding, and reliable.
If you’ve made it this far, you’ve just survived a guided tour through the 2026 PTSD strain lineup. The classics that raised us. And the emotional circus that is living in this country right now. PTSD is real. PTSD is widespread. PTSD is not limited to veterans. And pretending otherwise only hurts the millions of us who survived battles nobody saw.
But here’s the good news. We’re healing. We’re laughing. We’re finding relief in plant medicine that doesn’t come with a lawsuit or a side effect list longer than a CVS receipt. And if the world keeps spiraling the way it’s spiraling, at least we’ll have strains strong enough to keep us grounded, sane, and spiritually moisturized. Trauma may have shaped you, but cannabis is helping you rewrite the ending. Sage still burning. We’re healing anyway. Thanks for reading! Keep blazin.’
Affirmation: I am healing, hydrated, and held together by equal parts resilience and premium-grade cannabis. My peace is non‑refundable. My boundaries are laminate. And my nervous system is finally minding its business.
“PTSD doesn’t check uniforms. It checks histories. And some of us survived wars nobody ever saw.”
-This Puzzled Life
Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. Today we’re not just cleansing the room. We’re cleansing the generational nonsense that keeps trying to set up a timeshare in our nervous systems. And apparently we’re gonna need both if we’re talking about PTSD. And the world still thinks it only comes issued with a uniform, dog tags, and a government contract.
I’m standing in my kitchen like a bootleg priestess of the Deep South. I’m waving smoke around like I’m trying to reboot the Wi‑Fi of my soul. The sage is burning. The charcoal is crackling. And my cats are staring at me with the same expression Southern aunties use when you tell them you’re “working on your boundaries.”
The air is thick with incense and unprocessed childhood memories. The vibe is “haunted but trying.” The soundtrack is the soft hum of trauma responses warming up like an old truck in winter.And behind me, my cats have formed a semi‑circle like a furry tribunal.
Piper: “Is this the trauma purge or the ‘Mama read another psychology article’ ritual?”
Tinkerbell: “No, this is the one where she tries to heal her inner child but ends up reorganizing the spice cabinet.”
Coco: “I’m only here because she dropped a Cheez-It earlier. And I’m hoping for a sequel.”
Meanwhile, I’m over here trying to explain to the universe loudly, with hand gestures, that PTSD is not some exclusive club where you need a military ID and a buzz cut to get in. Trauma doesn’t check credentials. Trauma doesn’t ask for your DD‑214. Trauma shows up like, “Hey girl, I heard you survived something awful. Mind if I stay forever and rearrange your brain chemistry?” And the universe is like, “Sure, pull up a chair.”
So here we are. Me, my cats, my sage, my charcoal, my trauma, and my determination to laugh about it before it eats me alive. If there’s one thing the South taught me, it’s this, “If you can’t laugh at your pain, it will absolutely laugh at you first.”
Let me set the scene. I’m standing in my kitchen. Sage smoking like I’m trying to summon every ancestor who ever survived a generational curse, a bad haircut, or a church potluck. My cats are watching me like I’m performing a ritual to resurrect the last bag of Temptations.
Piper squints at me.
Piper: “Is this the trauma cleansing or the insomnia exorcism? I need to know which meeting I’m attending.”
Coco: “Wake me up when the stinky flower medicine comes out. That’s when she stops pacing like a raccoon in a Dollar General parking lot.”
Tinkerbell: “Neither. This is the ‘Mama read something online again’ ceremony.”
Every time I talk about PTSD, somebody somewhere says, “But you weren’t in the military.” And I’m like, “Correct. But I was in my childhood. And frankly, that was its own kind of deployment.” PTSD does not check your résumé. It does not ask for your service record. It does not care if your trauma came from a battlefield, a backwoods childhood, a toxic relationship, a medical emergency, or that one time your mee-maw threw a shoe at you with the accuracy of a Navy Seal. Trauma is trauma. And PTSD shows up like an uninvited cousin at Thanksgiving. It’s loud. Unpredictable. And absolutely refusing to leave. Meanwhile, my cats are holding their own support group.
Piper: “Her insomnia is so bad I’ve started sleeping in shifts.”
Coco: “I tried to keep up once. I saw the sun rise twice in the same day. I’m still not okay.”
Tinkerbell: “I’ve filed a formal complaint with HR. HR is also her. It’s not going well.”
Big Pharma has a pill for everything. Which including the side effects of the pill you took for the side effects of the pill you took for the original pill. And half of them end up in lawsuits. And apparently the medication was also causing spontaneous combustion or turning people into werewolves. Meanwhile, cannabis is over here like, “Hey girl, wanna sit down and breathe for a minute?” And when I pull out the flower medicine, the cats perk up like I just announced a family meeting.
Piper: “Ah yes, peace is coming.”
Coco: “Finally, she’ll stop reorganizing the pantry at 3 AM.”
Tinkerbell: “Blessed be the bud that calms the beast.”
Suddenly the whole house exhales. The walls stop vibrating. The anxiety gremlins go back to bed. The cats reclaim their rightful positions as tiny loaf-shaped monarchs. And with the current state of our nation, the number of people developing PTSD is probably about to skyrocket. We’re all one news headline away from needing a weighted blanket, a therapist, and a federally funded emotional support possum.
If you’ve got PTSD and you didn’t get it from war, guess what? You’re not alone. You’re not broken. You’re not dramatic. You’re not “overreacting.” You’re just a human who lived through some stuff that your brain is still trying to file correctly. And if anyone tries to tell you PTSD is only for soldiers, send them my way. I’ll let 13 explain it. She’s the mean one.
Roll the flower. Because healing isn’t a uniform. It’s a revolution. And in this house, we honor every survivor, every story, and every cat who has ever witnessed a 4 AM trauma spiral and stayed anyway. Thanks for reading! And keep moving forward.
Affirmation: My trauma is valid, my healing is sacred, and I refuse to shrink my story just because someone else can’t imagine surviving it.
“Some relationships crumble under pressure. But mine thrive on chaos, cat hair, and three tiny supervisors yelling me into greatness.”
-This Puzzled Life
Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. Before I tell this story, I need every ancestor, angel, and neighborhood spirit on duty. I’m about to confess about the only stable relationship I’ve ever had. It’s the only one that has never wavered. Ghosted. Or sent me a “we need to talk” text. And it is with three cats who yell at me like I’m their underperforming staff.
The only stable relationship I’ve ever had is with three furry Southern elders who yell at me like I owe them child support. And at this point, I’ve stopped fighting it. I’m in a committed, long‑term, non‑negotiable situationship with three cats who treat me like the live‑in help at a haunted plantation house.
Every morning, I wake up in a relationship I didn’t choose but am absolutely committed to. It’s a polyamorous situationship with three cats who treat me like the live‑in help at a Southern gothic Airbnb. They yell when I move. They yell when I don’t move. They yell because the sun came up. They yell because the sun had the audacity to go down. They yell because I dared to think I had autonomy.
These are not regular cats. These are Southerners trapped in tiny, furry bodies. They clock in at sunrise. Gather in a semicircle like a feline tribunal. And proceed to holler at me for existing incorrectly. Piper screams like she’s calling the family to the altar. Coco screams like she’s filing a formal complaint with management. Tinkerbell doesn’t scream. She announces like she’s reading the church bulletin. And I’m just trying to drink my coffee without being audited.
But you know what? They’re consistent. They show up. They communicate loudly, aggressively, and with purpose. They don’t play games. They don’t breadcrumb. They don’t disappear. They don’t “forget to text back.” They just yell. With love. And judgment. And a little bit of menace. That’s the healthiest relationship dynamic I’ve ever experienced.
I walked into my kitchen this morning like a woman with purpose. Only to be immediately screamed at by three cats who behave like they’re running a HOA for my soul. Piper hit me with the “you’re already failing” siren. Coco filed a noise complaint about my breathing. And Tinkerbell materialized like a Victorian ghost with opinions. And that’s when I realized that I needed to forget dating. My most stable relationship is with these tiny, furry supervisors who yell at me like I’m the intern they did not request but are now forced to manage.
Let me tell you something. People come and go, but these cats? They stay loudly. They stay judgmentally. They stay with the kind of emotional consistency therapists beg humans to develop.
Piper is perched on the counter like a disappointed cousin who just found out I’m dating someone with “potential.” Coco is the oldest but also the emotional middle child who has decided her full‑time job is yelling at me for things she imagines I did. And Tinkerbell is the Southern church mother of the group. She makes proclamations. She delivers sermons. She walks into a room like she’s about to tell me the Lord gave her a message about my life.
Piper doesn’t meow. Piper broadcasts. She has one volume. The urgent FEMA alert with one message, “You’re late.” Late for what? Feeding? Petting? Worship? I don’t know. She never clarifies. She just screams like she’s filing a complaint with HR. And the worst part? She’s right. I am late. I don’t know for what. But I feel it in my soul.
Coco wakes up every morning and chooses violence. She yells at me for walking too slow, walking too fast, not walking, breathing, breathing wrong, and thinking about breathing. She’ll stand in the hallway like a rotund, furry traffic cop. While screaming directions I cannot interpret. I’ll move left. She screams. I move right. She screams louder. I stand still. She screams in italics. This is the most consistent communication I’ve ever received in my life.
Tinkerbell doesn’t yell. She declares. She’ll walk into the living room, tail high, and announce something like, “AHEM. I have decided the sunbeam in the kitchen is now mine. Please adjust your schedule accordingly.” She is the only creature I know who can make me feel like I’m late to a meeting I didn’t know she scheduled. And she also judges my clothing. I’ll walk by and she’ll give me that slow blink that says, “Bless your heart, you tried.”
Let’s be honest. Humans? Unpredictable. Life? Chaotic. Mississippi weather? Bipolar. But these cats? These cats show up every day with the same energy that is loud, dramatic, and deeply committed to my emotional regulation through intimidation. They yell because they care. They scream because they love. They judge because they’re invested in my growth.
And I accept it. Because when the world is wild and the South is Southin,’ I know I can come home to three tiny supervisors who will absolutely yell at me for daring to exist. But who will also curl up beside me like I’m the only human they’ve ever chosen?
So, if you ever wonder why I’m single. Just know I’m already in a committed, long-term, emotionally intense relationship with three cats who scream at me like I’m late for a shift I didn’t know I had. At least they show up every day. And unlike humans, they will never leave me on read. Thanks for reading! And become a cat owner where the felines will hold you emotionally accountable through yelling.
Affirmation: I honor the loud love in my life. I am chosen, claimed, and hollered at by creatures who see my worth.
“If the government wanted to distract us, they should’ve at least been successful at cleaning the pool first.”
-This Puzzled Life
Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. Tell the ancestors to bring EVERYTHING. Because today, we are grilling the latest chapter in the Trump Administration’s™ ongoing performance art piece titled: “What If Government, But Make It Walmart at 2 AM?”
My ancestors, who survived famine, war, plagues, the Great Depression, disco, and the invention of mayonnaise‑based salads, are hovering in the afterlife clutching rosaries, moonshine, and emotional support cigarettes. They whisper, “We did not cross oceans for this.” “We did not survive smallpox for this.” “We did not wear powdered wigs for this.” And yet. Here we are.
The White House lawn, sorry, the People’s Patch of Grass, has once again been transformed into a white‑trash UFC arena. Where sweaty men roll around in a cage like they’re auditioning for Magic Mike: Government Shutdown Edition.
The cage sits in the middle of the grass like someone ordered “UFC but make it emotionally repressed” off Wish. Tourists gather. Security pretends this is normal. And a lineup of men who look like they pre‑gamed with creatine, Axe body spray, and a quick scroll through Grindr. They begin stretching like they’re preparing for the world’s sweatiest Pride after‑party. Because nothing says “governing” like two shirtless dudes rolling around in a cage while America collectively whispers, “Is this foreign policy or foreplay?”
Piper: “Mother, why are the humans fighting in a metal box? Is this a mating ritual? Should we be concerned?”
Coco: “I’ve seen less homoerotic tension in a gay sauna on half‑price margarita night.”
Tinkerbell: “I’m only here for the snacks. Also, someone needs to drain that pool before it becomes sentient.”
And then, because absurdity must always escalate, the Trump Administration announces a fake assassination attempt involving Iranian drones that no one saw. No one heard. No one reported. And no one can explain. Because apparently even the drones were like, “Nah, we’re good.”
Suddenly, a man in a suit sprints across the lawn screaming, “THERE WAS AN ASSASSINATION ATTEMPT!” Everyone freezes. The fighters stop mid‑grapple. The tourists gasp. My cats blink.
Piper: “Mother, what?”
Coco: “By who? The drama club?”
Tinkerbell: “I bet it’s fake.”
And then the details emerge. The threat was Iranian drones. The drones were invisible. The attack was unconfirmed. The evidence was classified. The witnesses were busy. And the drones were never actually here. So basically, it was a crisis that didn’t happen. It was reported by people who weren’t there. And it was involving drones that don’t exist.
Piper: “Mother, is this enrichment?”
Coco: “This is why aliens won’t visit us.”
Tinkerbell: “I’ve had hairballs more credible than this.”
Meanwhile, the Reflecting Pool…
Once majestic. Now the color of a Shrek smoothie. Flaking blue paint drifting like sad confetti. A smell that says, “Someone dumped a bucket of hot dog water in here.”
Piper: “Is that algae?”
Coco: “Is that paint peeling?”
Tinkerbell: “Is that the symbolic decay of national integrity?”
Me: “Yes, girls. Yes it is.”
And the Trump Administration never misses a chance to monetize national embarrassment. They announce the newest grift called:
THE PATRIOT PACK™ -$250
One (1) clump of algae harvested by an unpaid intern.
One (1) authentic blue paint chip scraped by a man named Randy who definitely vapes.
One (1) certificate of authenticity printed on a Chili’s receipt.
All in honor of the 250th Celebration of America, which would make the Founding Fathers want to walk into the ocean. Fake their own deaths. Or rise from the grave just to say, “We didn’t write the Constitution for this.” My ancestors join in from the spirit realm, “We crossed oceans for this?” “We survived smallpox for this?” “We lived through powdered wigs for this?” Great‑Aunt Myrtle adds, “At least the men are pretty.”
Enter: Robert F. Kennedy, Jr.
Just when the chaos reaches peak humidity, a new figure emerges wearing flip‑flops, necklace of raccoon teeth, and the confidence of someone who once drank kombucha brewed in a boot. He steps up to a podium made of reclaimed pallets and emotional instability. He clears his throat. And announces, “THE REFLECTING POOL IS A MIRACLE.”
My cats freeze. My ancestors clutch their ghostly pearls. Tourists stop mid‑selfie. He continues, “This nutritious, peroxide‑infused, snake‑venom‑enhanced, algae is the future of American health.”
Piper: “Mother… is he okay?”
Coco: “Absolutely not.”
Tinkerbell: “I don’t want whatever he’s on.”
He waves a mason jar of glowing green sludge like it’s holy water from the Church of Whole Foods. He declares that one 8‑oz glass of Reflecting Pool Algae™ can cure Ebola, depression, substance abuse, homelessness, addiction, dementia, low sperm count, cancer, mental illness, autism, low birth rates, AIDS, seasonal allergies, Hanta virus, screwworm, Covid 1-19, bad vibes, accidental or intentional snake bites, rabies from raccoons, and “the spiritual constipation of the American soul.”
Piper: “Mother, that’s not how biology works.”
Coco: “That’s not how anything works.”
Tinkerbell: “I’m still not willing to try it.”
And of course it gets worse. He also announces the algae’s potency is enhanced by “a micro‑dose of raccoon penile essence. Which was harvested ethically from raccoons who died of natural causes such as bar fights or eating fireworks.” My ancestors scream in Latin. Piper faints. Coco gags. Tinkerbell whispers, “I knew raccoons were up to something.”
Some people cheer. Some people vomit. One man tries to buy a gallon jug. Another asks if it comes in sugar‑free. A woman from Ohio asks if it’s keto. He assures them, “It’s paleo, keto, vegan, carnivore, gluten‑free, dairy‑free, guilt‑free, and spiritually orgasmic.”
The Trump Administration immediately embraces the miracle. They announce a national algae initiative. A Reflecting Pool bottling plant. A Raccoon Essence Research Grant. A Buy One, Get One Half‑Off Patriot Pack™ And a new slogan, “Drink Up, America.” My ancestors begin drafting a petition to be reincarnated as Canadians.
And the leader of our horrifically spiraling country, President Donald Trump, is the man that governs like a Roomba with a dying battery. In the middle of the chaos, the cage match, the algae sales pitch, the invisible drones, the raccoon‑essence wellness seminar, he decided it was the perfect moment to take one of his signature American taxpayer funded, mini-stroke, dementia public naps, which his staff insists on calling “extended blinking” or “patriotic micro‑rest cycles.” Cameras zoomed in as his eyelids began performing what can only be described as a slow‑motion garage door malfunction. They were fluttering like a moth trapped in a lampshade. Tourists whispered, “Is he meditating?” While my cats debated whether he was buffering. Rebooting. Or experiencing yet another mini‑stroke‑adjacent moment that his administration would later blame on “wind fatigue.” Piper tilted her head. Coco rolled her eyes. Tinkerbell muttered, “Mother, the man is power‑napping through the downfall of civilization.” And honestly? She wasn’t wrong.
At the end of the day, America doesn’t need algae smoothies, raccoon penis extract, invisible drone attacks, cage fights on federal property, or $250 commemorative mold. We need accountability. We need sanity. We need leadership that doesn’t involve drinking pond scum like it’s a wellness shot from Satan’s juice bar.
And no matter how many shiny, chaotic, homoerotic lawn events the Trump Administration throws at us, the American people have not forgotten about the Epstein files. Nice try, Donald! Charcoal extinguished. Cats disgusted. Ancestors filing complaints. Nation still watching. Thanks for watching! What do you think of the embarrassing events that was supposed to celebrate our country?
Affirmation: I am grounded. I am powerful. And I refuse to be gaslit by algae, drones, raccoon essence, or commemorative mold.
“My peace stays protected because I refuse to wrestle with hypocrisy. Especially when my cats can spot it faster than I can.”
-This Puzzled Life
Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. Negative energy go away. Today we’re talking about conservative Christians who shame the LGBTQIA+ community while swimming in hypocrisy so deep they need a snorkel, a flotation device, and a word with Jesus Himself. And doing the spiritual equivalent of showing up to church with a flask in their Bible cover.
Piper has already put on her “I’m judging you but politely” face. Coco is pacing like she’s waiting for someone to confess on camera. Tinkerbell has taken one look at the hypocrisy and gone back to bed because she said, “Mama, I don’t have the emotional bandwidth for this.” If hypocrisy were a sport, half these folks would have endorsement deals. It is not ankle‑deep. It is not knee‑deep. It is baptism‑level immersion. Gather your spirit, your boundaries, and your emotional support snacks, we’re going in.
You ever notice how the loudest voices yelling “SIN!” are the same ones who have a secret second family. Or are having premarital sex that they condemn others about. They have a prayer request list longer than the CVS receipt. And a browser history that would make a demon blush? They’ll shame queer folks for existing. Then turn around and gossip so hard the angels have to put in earplugs. They’ll say, “We’re just protecting traditional values.” While their own values are out back doing donuts in the church parking lot. They’ll say, “We’re worried about the children.” While their children are on TikTok learning more compassion in 30 seconds than the adults have learned in 30 years.
Piper watches conservative Christian culture shame queer folks and whispers, “If hypocrisy were a spiritual gift, half these people would be apostles.” She sits on the arm of the couch like a bishop. She remembers the potluck of 2014. She knows who brought the store‑bought potato salad and lied.
Coco sees the hypocrisy and immediately starts knocking things off the counter. She says it’s “symbolic.” She says she’s “cleansing the space.” She says if one more person uses Jesus as a weapon, she’s flipping the whole table like it’s the Last Supper Reunion Special. And she is one tail flick away from staging a full‑scale revival.
Tinkerbell curls up in my lap and whispers, “If they spent half as much time loving people as they do policing them, the world would be healed by now.” Then she falls asleep because the hypocrisy exhausted her spirit. It hurts. I really does.
To be told you’re wrong for loving. To be told you’re broken for existing. To be told your joy is sinful while someone else’s cruelty is “righteous.” But the ancestors keep whispering, “There is nothing wrong with you. There has never been anything wrong with you. The problem is the mirror they refuse to look into.” And that mirror is dusty.
Piper says, “Judge not, lest ye be caught doing worse behind the fellowship hall.” Coco says, “Shame is not a ministry. But I can make it one if needed.” And Tinkerbell says, “Take a nap. You deserve softness.” And I say, “We will not shrink. We will not apologize. We will not dim our joy to make someone else’s fear comfortable.”
That concludes today’s sermon on love, truth, and the Olympic‑level gymnastics required to shame queer folks while ignoring your own mess. Piper has officially closed her Bible and whispered, “This ain’t what Jesus meant.” Coco is knocking over a decorative cross because she said the energy is fraudulent. Tinkerbell has curled up on my chest and declared the hypocrisy “spiritually crusty.”
Bless your identity, your joy, your pronouns, your peace, and your whole queer spirit. Because if conservative Christian culture insists on swimming in hypocrisy, then we’ll be over here floating in truth, glitter, and emotional freedom. And supervised by three cats who refuse to let shame win.
Affirmation: I walk in truth, joy, and glitter‑coated freedom. No shame formed against me will prosper, because my spirit is protected, my boundaries are blessed, and my cats will hiss at anything that tries me.
“Insomnia: because my brain likes to clock in for the night shift without asking me first.”
-This Puzzled Life
Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. It’s Insomnia Awareness Day. And my brain decided to celebrate by hosting a 72‑hour rave without my consent. Lord knows my household has been observing this holiday since 1997 without ever being asked.
I’ve been awake so long I’m starting to see sounds. The refrigerator hum is now a full‑blown gospel choir. The ceiling fan is whispering secrets. And my cats, my emotional support chaos trio, have decided to hold a town hall meeting about my sleep schedule like they’re the HOA of my nervous system. Featuring Piper, Coco, and Tinkerbell, who have slept a combined 47 hours today alone.
Before we even get to the cats, let’s talk about insomnia itself. This ancient demon, nocturnal gremlin, is an unpaid internship in suffering. Insomnia is the only condition where you can be exhausted, delirious, emotionally fragile, and spiritually bankrupt. And still your brain says, “Actually, what if we reviewed every mistake you’ve ever made since kindergarten.”
It’s when your body is like, “We are shutting down.” And your brain is like, “But what if we alphabetize our regrets.” Insomnia is when you lie down to sleep and suddenly your nervous system becomes a TED Talk host. “Tonight’s presentation: Why You Should’ve Said Something Different in That 2011 Argument.”
Insomnia is when you try every trick in the book that includes tea, meditation, breathing exercises, counting sheep. Where the sheep unionize. Demand better working conditions. And then proceed to walk out. It’s when you’re so tired you start negotiating with inanimate objects. “Please, bed. I’m begging you. I’ll flip the mattress. I’ll buy you new sheets. I’ll stop eating crackers in you. Just please.”
Insomnia is when you finally drift off and your brain slams the panic button like: “Wait. Did you pay that bill?” And then, just when you think you might actually fall asleep, your cats, the furry little sleep Olympians, decide to hold a midnight performance of Stomp on your ribcage. Which now brings us to the household council meeting. Check this out.
Me: “I haven’t slept in three days. I think my soul is vibrating.”
Tinkerbell: “Well maybe if you didn’t drink coffee at 9 PM like you’re cramming for finals at DeVry University.”
Piper: “I tried to help. I sat on your chest and purred. That’s medical.”
Coco: “You sat on her airway, Piper. That’s manslaughter.”
Piper: “I was providing weighted blanket therapy.”
Tinkerbell: “Weighted blanket therapy does not involve cutting off oxygen, sweet girl.”
Me: “I just want to sleep. Just a little. A nap. A blink with commitment.”
Coco: “You can’t sleep because your brain is doing that thing where it replays every embarrassing moment you’ve ever had. Like that time, you waved back at someone who wasn’t waving at you.”
Me: “That was 2004.”
Coco: “And yet here we are.”
Piper: “I don’t understand insomnia. I close my eyes and I’m gone. Like a light switch. Like a fainting goat.”
Tinkerbell: “You also fall asleep mid‑sentence. You are not the control group.”
Piper: “One time I fell asleep standing up.”
Coco: “We know. You hit the floor like a sack of wet laundry.”
Me: “Can y’all please help me sleep tonight?”
Tinkerbell: “We tried helping last night. You were finally drifting off and Piper knocked over a lamp.”
Piper: “It was looking at me weird.”
Coco: “Everything looks at you weird. You’re weird.”
Piper: “Thank you.”
Me: “Okay, new plan. Tonight, we’re doing a calming ritual. No chaos. No zoomies. No knocking things off shelves.”
Tinkerbell: “I’ll allow it.”
Coco: “I’ll supervise.”
Piper: “I make no promises.”
And so, on this Insomnia Awareness Day, I honor the sleepless warriors. The restless. The overthinking champions. The midnight snackers and philosophers. The ceiling‑stare champions. And every exhausted soul who has ever whispered, “Why am I awake right now?”
Let’s be honest. If insomnia had a mascot, it would be me pacing the hallway at 3:17 am wearing mismatched socks. Holding a mug of cold tea. And whisper‑arguing with my own reflection like we’re in a low‑budget daytime drama. If there were merit badges for this condition, I’d have the whole sash that reads, “Overthinking at Bedtime,” “Accidentally Remembered Something Cringe,” “Tried Melatonin and Ended Up Cleaning the Pantry,” and the coveted “Awake for No Damn Reason.” I am the Eagle Scout of insomnia. May your mind quiet. Your body rest. And your cats behave for at least seven consecutive minutes. Because if sleep is a myth, then I am the cryptid. Thanks for reading! Get some rest.
Affirmation: I am a sleep‑deprived deity with the power of ten thousand intrusive thoughts. And I will absolutely thrive today whether I slept or not.
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