puberty

darnold1975

Happy Birthday, Copeland: The Preemie Who Became A Full-Sized Chaos Grenade

“From NICU royalty to Dollar Tree whistleblower. This child has never once entered a room quietly.”

-This Puzzled Life

 Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. Today we honor the boy who arrived early. Stayed tiny. Scared the hell out of two moms. And then grew into an 11‑year‑old whose armpits now smell like a possum that lost a custody battle with a dumpster. Let me take y’all back.

Two moms. One hospital. One baby who looked at the world, shrugged, and said, “Yeah I’m not ready for all that. Y’all go on home without me.” We were terrified. We were exhausted. We were Googling things like “Can a baby be this small and still have an attitude?” And Copeland? He was in his little NICU throne like, “Bring me my warm lights and my beeping machines. I shall join the household when I am good and ready.”

Fast‑forward 11 years. This once‑delicate, fragile, tiny miracle now smells, at times, worse than the up‑the‑back diaper blowouts that used to make me question my will to live. And I say that with love. And trauma. And a gag reflex that still twitches when he walks by after baseball practice.

Copeland is funny. Not “ha-ha cute kid funny.” No. He is feral‑comedian funny. He is Dollar Tree Public Announcement funny. This is the same child who once let the entire store know his momma farted with gusto. And not only did he announce it. He narrated it like a nature documentary. He said, “This is the sound of a mother releasing her soul into the wild.”

He keeps me on my toes. He keeps me humble. He keeps me praying. We make primitive tools together like we’re auditioning for Naked and Afraid: Mississippi Edition. We shoot fireworks like two people who absolutely should not be trusted with fire. We have Nerf gun wars that end with me questioning my cardio and my life choices. We play baseball, where he hits the ball like he’s trying to send it back to the NICU to apologize for the stress he caused.

And then. There is his special talent. The one he inherited from the diaper‑blowout era. The one he wields with pride. Farting on my leg while sitting in my lap. He does it. He waits. He watches my face. He studies the gag. He cherishes the moment. It is his art. His calling. His legacy. And honestly? It’s poetic justice. Because I gagged changing his diapers. And now he gags me recreationally.

But beneath the chaos, the comedy, the bodily functions, the Dollar Tree humiliation, the fireworks, the Nerf ambushes, and the prehistoric tool‑making. There is this boy. This beautiful, bright‑souled, hilarious, life‑loving boy who laughs like the world is a gift. And loves like he’s never known fear.

His joy is loud. His spirit is huge. His light is blinding in the best way. And I hope, with every fiber of my momma heart, that nothing in this world ever dims that light. Because I am lucky. So damn lucky. To be one of his three moms. To watch him grow. To watch him shine. To watch him fart and then blame me in public.

Happy Birthday, Copeland. You came into this world early, tiny, fragile, and already acting like you had a contract with the NICU. Two moms stood there terrified. Praying. Bargaining. Googling. And trying not to fall apart while you lounged under warm lights like a miniature king who simply wasn’t ready to clock into Earth yet. You were the baby we had to leave behind. The one who taught us that love can be fierce and terrified at the same time. The one who showed us that miracles don’t always arrive on schedule. Sometimes they show up early and demand special lighting.

And now? Now you are 11 years old and built like a walking plot twist. You are loud. You are wild. You are funny in a way that feels spiritually assigned. You smell like puberty is trying to take you out. You fart with the confidence of a grown man who pays property taxes. You love life like it’s a buffet and you’re first in line. You laugh like joy is your native tongue.

You are the child who will announce to an entire Dollar Tree that your momma farted with gusto. And then take a bow like you just delivered a TED Talk. You are the child who will sit in my lap. Rip one on my leg. And watch my soul leave my body like you’re studying the effects for a science fair project. You are the child who builds primitive tools with me like we’re preparing for the apocalypse. Shoots fireworks like we’re trying to get banned from the county. And plays baseball like you’re sending the ball back to the NICU to say, “Look at me now.”

You are chaos wrapped in kindness. Mischief wrapped in magic. Humor wrapped in heart. A miracle wrapped in a boy who somehow manages to be both my greatest joy and my greatest olfactory challenge.

And I hope, with everything in me, that nothing ever dims your light. Not fear. Not doubt. Not the world. Not the noise. Not the storms. Not the shadows. Not even the puberty funk that is currently trying to overthrow your household. Because your light is rare. Your joy is rare. Your spirit is rare. And the world needs every bit of it.

I am lucky to be one of your three moms. Lucky to witness your life. Lucky to survive your smells. Lucky to be chosen by a boy who once fit in the palm of my hand. And now fills entire rooms with laughter, love, and the occasional biological weapon.

So, here’s to you, Copeland. To the preemie who became a powerhouse. To the NICU baby who became a legend. To the tiny fighter who became the funniest, wildest, brightest soul I’ve ever known.

May your life stay loud. May your joy stay reckless. May your heart stay open. May your spirit stay unbreakable. And may your farts, just once, miss my leg. Happy Birthday, my boy. You are the story I’ll never stop telling. And the punchline I’ll never stop laughing at. Thanks for reading!

Affirmation: I honor the chaos, comedy, the cosmic joy of raising a boy whose spirit is brighter than his armpits are deadly. I am blessed. Chosen. And fully equipped to mother this miracle with humor, grit, and Febreze.

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darnold1975

Did He Say Puberty?

“Other than dying, I think puberty is about as rough as it gets.”

-Rick Springfield

Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. Negative energy go away. Okie dokie! Today, I want to talk about that horrible stage in life called PUBERTY! I know, I know. I feel like I just got acid dumped on me for saying that name. These days I have found the evil older sister called menopause. 

I personally don’t know how I got through puberty. I started understanding the confusion of being gay. The hormonal changes made me psycho. I began learning about relationships and how they change. I remember thinking that I took everything so personally. Horrible trauma was a constant. I became an addict in so many different ways. I was also incredibly impulsive. I don’t ever remember considering the consequences about anything. It was all about if “they” said no, DO IT! Little did I know, I would get permanently stuck in that developmental age. My body might’ve gotten older but I have not really aged emotionally. Trauma manages to stunt your emotional growth. And I was going through more than my fair share while my brain was still developing.

I was never taught boundaries growing up. I didn’t have any personal boundaries and perpetrators are boundaryless by nature. It was the perfect set up for things to go horribly wrong and they did. Our class went through so much trauma within about five years that we had to grow up incredibly fast. By the time I was a senior, I was emotionally searching for something that could provide me with some kind of hope. And that’s when my ex-husband made his predatory move. Many of us have become addicts in different ways. And sadly, many of my classmates have attempted suicide, completed suicide, died from drug overdoses or have gone to prison. It was so tumultuous, in fact, that I totally retract at the mention of the word.

As I have watched my oldest son, Marshall, go head first into that time period, I would be lying if I didn’t say how scared I am for him. The world is so much more violent. Bullying is much worse. Suicides and murders are out of control. School shootings are happening all over the country. Predators show even less restraint. Depending on where you live in the United States being free to express your sexuality can also be very traumatic. Pressure about having perfect grades and being accepted into top college programs has stolen the happiness of a child’s developmental process. And then there’s fentanyl that tops it all. I hate to sound like an old fart by saying that the world was just different then but it was. 

I think now there’s more emphasis on developmental mental health which is always a positive. Cell Phones have been able to record evidence of some of these covert things especially with abusive teachers. And finally these kids have the proof that administrators can’t blow off. But the shame and rejection by families and society doesn’t make life any easier. Perpetrators whether they be peers or adults still operate in the same way. Threats and intimidation is what keeps kids silent and in constant fear. And you put all of that onto a teen and they just can’t handle it. I have overheard people talking about suicide and the person said, “Sometimes life is just too damn hard for these kids.” I know my kids well and I pay attention to everything that I can while co-parenting with their other mom and her partner. We all have a very open type of relationship. However, it scares the absolute shit out of me, because most people thought that I was perfectly fine. And I was the farthest thing from that.

You can follow all the latest research and suggested ways of raising a child but they can still carry with them their own darkness even in plain sight. I would hope that my boys would come to me for anything. But the truth is, that may or may not happen and the consequences can be devastating. And if that’s not resolved in a healthy way then they carry that emotional weight into adulthood. It will be interesting 20 years from now to see the problems that these kids have as adults. Because the struggles that kids are facing now will resurface in some way.

I have laughed many times at the funny sides of puberty by watching my kids. Especially when little brother,Copeland, and his frustrations with Marshall. Sometimes it’s just plain hilarious. At 10 years old, he asks his own questions about puberty. I try to be mature about some of it but it’s a futile effort. Sometimes I laugh so hard that I can hardly breathe. Copeland loves to call his brother out anytime he gets the chance. Not to mention the fact that bathing is an evil necessity and seems to be the main thing that gets in the way of their happiness at this moment. Here is an example of a conversation that I witnessed one day:

Me:  “What’s that smell?”

Copeland: “Probably my brother.”

Marshall:  “Why did you say that?” 

Copeland: “Because it’s true! Momma Mel said that you stink and it’s a sign of puberty. Even if you don’t have hair on your balls yet.”

I made a quick stop to the bathroom because my bladder can’t handle as much laughter as it once did. Whew…I met it half way.  I had to laugh into a towel. 

I asked them:

Copeland: “Puberty and why he stinks.” 

Me: “What are y’all talking about?”

(I start giggling) 

I cannot seem to be mature about certain topics. And this was a stunning example.

Copeland: “Momma Mel says that you get hair everywhere.”

Me: “Yep one day you’ll have hairy tits, pits and a ball-fro on your cherries.” 

(We all laughed.)

Me: Now who wants the shower first? Nuts and butts!!! Let’s go!!!

At this time in my life, I do my best to still laugh at their innocence. We take one day and one argument at a time. I correct them when I need to . But I also let them have the freedom to say what they feel that they need to say within reason.  And I help them the best I can to deal with feelings. I also let them know that feelings are just feelings and they don’t last forever. So that when they’re almost fifty years old they don’t have to suffer with not ever knowing that the concept ever existed. So, maybe, just maybe, they can begin to understand that emotions aren’t terminal. And that all the power that they need is found from within themselves instead of in all the temptations on the outside that lead to even bigger problems.. And they won’t be forever stuck in an insufferable and totally self-obsessed hell.

“Raising teens is like nailing jello to a tree.”

-Unknown

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