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The Manifestations of Grief: Every Shape Loss Takes When It Comes Looking for You

“Grief doesn’t just break you. It reshapes you by carving out new rooms in your spirit where strength, memory, and love learn to live together.”

-This Puzzled Life

Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. Grief has once again decided to walk into my life like she owns the deed, the land, the mineral rights, and the emotional infrastructure. She didn’t knock. She didn’t call. She didn’t even send a courtesy text like, “Hey girl, you got a minute to fall apart?” No. She just barged in with her suitcase full of memories. Her purse full of triggers. And set them right in the middle of my spirit like I have nothing else going on.

Grief is bold like that. She shows up when you’re finally catching your breath. She shows up when you’re laughing again. She shows up when you’ve just folded the last load of laundry and dared to feel steady. And suddenly, there she is, sitting on your chest. Rearranging your heartbeat. And whispering reminders you thought were long gone.

People talk about grief like it’s one thing, one feeling, one moment and/or one season. But grief is a whole ecosystem. A weather pattern. A climate shift. A spiritual renovation of which you were unprepared. Grief manifests like this.

The Fog

You’re moving. But everything feels slow. You’re functioning. But nothing feels real. You’re present. But you’re also floating somewhere three feet behind your own body.

The Fire

Sudden anger. Sudden frustration. Sudden “why is this cabinet door looking at me wrong” energy. You’re not mad at the world. You’re mad at the hole the world left behind.

The Wave

You’re fine until you’re not. You’re washing dishes. And suddenly you’re crying into the silverware. You’re driving and suddenly the road looks blurry. You’re folding towels and suddenly you’re remembering a laugh you’ll never hear again.

The Tornado

Everything hits at once. Memories. Regrets. Love. Loss. All swirling so fast you can’t tell which emotion is which. You’re just holding on to the nearest emotional tree trunk hoping you don’t get swept away.

The Quiet Ache

The softest one. The one that sneaks in when the house is still. The one that sits beside you like a shadow. The one that reminds you that grief is love with nowhere to go.

Grief isn’t a sign of weakness. It’s a sign that you dared to love deeply. It’s proof that your heart was brave enough to attach itself to something real. And grief doesn’t leave. It changes shape. It softens. It becomes something you learn to carry. Not because you want to. But because you’re strong enough to. And on the days you feel like you’re not, grief reminds you that surviving is still a form of courage.

Healing doesn’t mean forgetting. Healing means learning to breathe around the empty spaces. Healing means honoring what was while still choosing what will be. Healing means letting yourself feel everything. Even the parts that don’t make sense. And if you’re grieving in ways that feel messy, unpredictable, or inconvenient? You’re doing it right.

Grief may think she’s the main character. But she clearly forgot whose story this is. I’ve walked through storms that tried to swallow me whole. I’ve rebuilt myself from pieces I didn’t even know were still usable. I’ve risen from ashes so many times the ancestors started calling me their favorite phoenix.

Grief can knock me down. But she can’t keep me there. She can shake my voice. But she can’t silence it. She can bend my spirit. But she can’t break it. Every time grief shows up, I rise again. Sometimes I’m slower. And sometimes I’m softer. But always stronger than before. I rise with more compassion. I rise with more clarity. I rise with more fire in my bones and more truth in my chest.

If grief wants to stay awhile, fine. She can sit on the porch and mind her manners. But she doesn’t get to run the house. She doesn’t get to rearrange the set up. And she doesn’t get to dim my light. I am the one steering this healing. I am the one choosing the pace. I am the one deciding what grows from the ashes. And if grief doesn’t like it? She can take it up with my ancestors. Because they already told me I’m built for this. Thanks for reading! And grieve as much as you need to.

Affirmation: I honor every way grief moves through me. I honor the loud, the quiet, the confusing, and the tender. Each feeling is proof that my heart loved deeply and still knows how to rise.

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The Family Roles & The Circus They Created

“My family says I’m ‘living in sin.’ Which is hilarious coming from people who treat denial like a spiritual gift. And premarital sex like a community service.”

-This Puzzled Life

Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. Negative energy, get your shoes on and leave. Today we’re diving into one of my favorite dysfunctional family topics. Family roles. Those unofficial job titles we never applied for. Never wanted. And yet somehow ended up performing like we were on salary. Take a moment and see where you and your people fall. And here’s the spoiler. If you’re reading this, you already know.

Before we get started, let me warn you. This is not a gentle stroll through family history. This is a full‑blown guided tour through a Southern household. That’s been held together with casserole, denial, and conservative Christian values. That seem to get applied with the accuracy of a toddler using glitter glue.

I grew up in a family where “we don’t talk about that” wasn’t a suggestion. It was the eleventh commandment. Emotions were treated like illegal fireworks. Everyone had them. Nobody handled them correctly. And something always exploded at the worst possible time.

In my house, honesty was considered aggressive. Accountability was considered disrespectful. And therapy? Therapy was treated like witchcraft performed by people who “don’t know Jesus personally.”

Meanwhile, the dysfunction strutted around the living room in broad daylight wearing a name tag and a church hat. And everyone pretended they couldn’t see it. If denial were a sport, my family would have Olympic medals and a sponsorship from Hobby Lobby.

So, buckle your emotional seatbelt. And prepare yourself. Because once you recognize the roles in a dysfunctional family. It’s like spotting roaches. You can’t unsee them. And suddenly they’re everywhere.

Family roles are the expected behaviors, responsibilities, and emotional acrobatics each person performs to keep the family circus running. These roles shift depending on culture, family size, and personality. But the classics are Hero, Scapegoat, Golden Child, Lost Child, Mascot. And I show up everywhere like glitter after a craft project.

Let’s begin.

1. The Hero (a.k.a. The Family PR Department) The Hero’s job is to make the family look normal, stable, and “blessed and highly favored” to the outside world. According to theraplatform.com (2025), they take on excessive responsibility to gain approval. This is my mother’s role. Or at least the role she auditions for. She is attention-seeking. Reputation-obsessed. And allergic to accountability. She delivers passive-aggressive comments like she’s handing out communion wafers. And then acts shocked when people get upset.

Her signature move? “The Dummy Card.” Suddenly she “doesn’t remember,” “didn’t mean it like that,” or “doesn’t know what you’re talking about.” But trust me, she knows. And right after she stirs the pot. She gives my dad the “rescue me” look. As if she didn’t just season that pot with cayenne, spite, and generational trauma. We only have real conversations when she’s mad at my sister, The Golden Child. Otherwise, it’s news, sports, and weather which is the Holy Trinity of Avoidance.


2. The Scapegoat (hi, it’s me) The Scapegoat is blamed for everything wrong in the family. Stubbed toe? My fault. Bad weather? Somehow me. The economy? Probably me too. I don’t conform to their lifestyle. I’m gay. I use medical cannabis. I don’t go to church because there are too many people who support the cruelty of the Trump regime. And align theirselves with the MAGA movement which practices a form of chriatianity that cannot be found in any Bible. And quite frankly, they have a bad reputation for normalizing pedophilia while demonizing being gay. I guess I should be glad that I just can’t understand that rationale. 

I talk about taboo topics. And I acknowledge reality instead of pretending everything is fine.
And did I mention I’m gay? Because trust me they will. Instead of saying,
“She’s our family and we love her no matter the gender of someone she loves and that loves her.” They act like my existence is a PR crisis. The attitude is like, “Remember when Dana destroyed the family by being prouid to be gay and authentic?”  I’m also the family whistleblower. I don’t play along with generational nonsense. I’m my own person. And I’m not apologizing for it.

3. The Golden Child (my sister, obviously) The Golden Child is the family’s prized possession. The chosen one. The favorite. And the one who can do no wrong even when she is actively doing wrong. Thriveworks.com (2023) describes this child as obedient, praised, and protected. That’s her. She has been dipped in gold since birth. She follows the script. Holds the same beliefs. And passes them down to her children like heirloom china. She was taught what to think. Not how to think. And the cycle continues. Children aren’t born to hate. They learn it from the adults who raise them. And this is what my sister excels at consistently.

4. The Lost Child (also my sister — she multitasks) The Lost Child avoids conflict like it’s a full-time job with benefits. She withdraws. Stays quiet. And pretends she’s above the chaos. While simultaneously contributing to it. She never acknowledges her harmful behavior. She believes most people are beneath her. And when she talks about someone being gay, she spells it out “G-A-Y” like she’s avoiding summoning a demon. Her emotional range is that of a frozen waffle. And honestly, that’s the family vibe overall.

5. The Mascot (me and my dad) Mascots use humor to distract from the dysfunction. We crack jokes. Lighten the mood. And do not dare fix anything. We just to keep the room from exploding. This doesn’t always work especially when me and my sister are at war like rainbows and bibles. My dad rescues my mom and sister from “big, bad Dana.” Who refuses to sweep things under the rug. I’m the villain because I tell the truth. Imagine that. Kind of sounds like the current government’s level of functioning.

Now you’ve met the cast and the roles they cling to like emotional security blankets. In the next part we’ll zoom out and look at the bigger picture. And it’s the part they refuse to acknowledge.

That concludes our tour of the Family Circus. Please exit through the gift shop. Where denial is half‑off. Accountability is out of stock. And the Scapegoat merchandise is mysteriously overpriced.” Thanks for reading! Keep breaking chains.

Affirmation: Today I honor my emotionally athletic self. The whistleblowing. Boundary‑setting. Truth‑telling legend who refuses to join the family’s Olympic Denial Team. Even though they’ve been training since the womb.

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To the Mothers Who Raised My Soul: A Southern Testimony for Mother’s Day

“Some mothers grow you, some guide you, and some resurrect the parts of you that never had a chance to live.”

-This Puzzled Life

 Light the charcoal. We’re about to cook up a truth that’ll smoke out every memory, ache, and blessing you’ve ever collected from the women who raised you. Whether they meant to or not.

Some mothers come into your life the traditional way. The diaper‑changing. Bottle‑warming. “Lord‑give‑me-strength” kind of mothers. The ones who knew your baby smell before you knew your own name. They wiped your tears, your nose, and occasionally your entire behind with the same rag. Because that’s just what survival looked like on a Tuesday.

Then there are the distant maternal figures. The ones who hover like porch‑light moths. They don’t tuck you in. But they keep an eye out. They’re the women who say things like, “You doing alright?” In a tone that somehow feels like a weighted blanket. They don’t step in. They don’t step away either. They’re the quiet guardians of your emotional perimeter.

And then. There are the rare ones. The naturally maternal souls who walk through this world radiating comfort like a heated church pew in July. They don’t have to try. They don’t have to earn it. They just are. These are the Yoda Mothers. The mystical, wise, soft‑spoken warriors who teach you the life lessons you somehow missed while you were busy surviving your childhood. They’re the ones who accept you for who you are instead of who you were supposed to be. The ones who don’t flinch at your chaos. The ones who don’t shrink from your truth. The ones who make you feel safe just by existing in the same room. Breathing the same air. Humming the same off‑key hymn.

And maybe that’s the wildest part of all this. How motherhood isn’t a single recipe. But a whole damn potluck. Some women bring casseroles of comfort. Some bring boundaries disguised as burnt cornbread. Some bring wisdom so sharp it slices you clean open. Women bring nothing but their presence. And somehow that’s enough to keep you breathing.

The truth is that the mothers who change your diapers and warm your bottles give you a beginning. The distant maternal figures give you perspective. But the Yoda Mothers. The soul‑raising. Spirit lifting, “sit down, let me tell you something real” women. They give you a home you didn’t even know you were missing. 

These women are diamonds. Not the kind you find in a jewelry case. But the kind the universe hides until the stars finally align and God says, “Alright, you’ve struggled long enough. Here’s someone who won’t break you.” 

They’re the ones who look at your mess and don’t flinch. The ones who hear your truth and don’t run. The ones who see the parts of you that were never nurtured. Never named. Never held. And they hold them anyway. They don’t mother you out of obligation. They mother you out of instinct. They mother you because something in their spirit recognizes something in yours and says, “Oh. There you are. Come sit by me.”

And when life pulls them away. When distance stretches thin or Heaven gets greedy. The absence hits like a spiritual amputation. Parts of you go quiet. Parts of you go cold. Parts of you start to decay in ways you don’t talk about out loud. Because losing a mother‑figure like that isn’t just grief. It’s losing the one person who made you feel like your soul had a place to land.

But here’s the miracle. Their love doesn’t leave. Their lessons don’t fade. Their fingerprints stay pressed into your spirit like God Himself signed off on your survival. Here’s to every kind of mother. The ones who birthed you. The ones who raised you. The ones who found you. And the ones who resurrected you without ever asking for credit.

So, here’s to the diaper changers. The distant watchers. The accidental Yodas. And the soul‑raising diamonds Heaven hand‑delivers when you need them most. If you’ve ever been loved by a mother like that, in blood or in spirit, then you already know. Some women don’t just mother you. They resurrect you.

 Here’s to the women who became safe harbor in a world full of storms. The ones who could calm your whole nervous system just by walking into the room. Here’s to the diamonds Heaven hides until you’re finally ready to be loved right. The ones who show up exactly when your spirit is starving for gentleness, truth, and a place to land.

 Here’s to the mothers who didn’t just show up. They transformed you. They stitched you back together with wisdom you didn’t know you were missing. They held the parts of you that were never held. They loved the parts of you that were never loved. They saw the parts of you that were never seen.

 And if you’ve ever been blessed enough to be mothered by a woman like that, then you already know the truth carved into your bones. Some mothers don’t just shape your life. They save your soul. And that’s a legacy no absence, no distance, no silence, and no grief can ever erase. Thanks for reading! And Happy Mother’s Day!

Affirmation: I honor every woman who mothered me in ways my spirit needed. I am worthy of the love, safety, and acceptance they poured into me. And I carry their wisdom like a lantern lighting every step forward.

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Dual Diagnosis Awareness: The Emotional Block Party Happening in My Frontal Lobe

“My healing isn’t linear. It’s a Southern backroad with potholes, detours, and at least one possum giving me side‑eye. But I’m still driving.”

-This Puzzled Life

Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. Today we’re not just cleansing the room. We’re cleansing the entire diagnostic chart that tried to play me like a two‑for‑one special at the Discount Trauma Mart. We’re also cleansing the medical chart, the family gossip line, and the entire Southern belief system that still thinks “nerves” is a diagnosis. And “just pray on it” is a treatment plan.

Dual diagnosis is that special Southern casserole of “mental health condition” baked together with “substance use disorder.” And it’s served piping hot with a side of unsolicited advice from people who haven’t been to therapy since Clinton was in office. It’s the moment life says, “Surprise! You’re not just juggling one thing. You’re juggling two flaming batons while the universe yells, ‘Smile, sweetheart!’”

Dual diagnosis is like waking up every day in a body that’s running both a Windows 95 operating system and a bootleg Sims expansion pack that keeps crashing. It’s trying to heal your brain while your brain is actively filing HR complaints against itself. It’s the emotional equivalent of trying to fix the roof while the house is still on fire. And the HOA is sending you letters about your grass height.

And it’s that moment when life looks at you and says, “Oh, you thought you were dealing with one thing? Hold my sweet tea.” It’s the psychiatric equivalent of a potluck where anxiety brings a casserole. Depression brings a Bundt cake. And addiction shows up empty-handed but somehow leaves with all the Tupperware.

And the world? The world acts like you’re being dramatic. And the wild part? People act like you’re being dramatic. “Have you tried drinking more water?” Ma’am, I have two diagnoses doing synchronized swimming in my amygdala. Hydration is not the plot twist that’s going to fix this. “Have you tried yoga?” Ma’am, I have two diagnoses doing the electric slide in my frontal lobe. Yoga is not going to stop this internal block party. 

Beneath the jokes, dual diagnosis is real, heavy, and often misunderstood. People think it’s chaos. But it’s actually survival. It’s resilience. It’s learning to hold two truths at once like “I’m struggling and I’m still here.” It’s learning to treat yourself with compassion even when your brain is acting like a committee meeting where everyone is yelling and nobody brought notes. It’s learning to say, “I deserve care.” “I deserve treatment.” “I deserve to be taken seriously.” And most importantly, “I am not a punchline. I’m the whole damn story.”

Down here in the Deep South, dual diagnosis gets wrapped in a layer of cultural seasoning nobody asked for. Aunt Linda whispers like you’re contagious. Cousin Ray offers you a beer because “you look stressed.” And the church ladies add you to the prayer list without asking. Right under “traveling mercies” and “unspoken.” Meanwhile, you’re just trying to survive the day without your brain throwing a surprise block party.

Dual diagnosis in the South also means navigating stigma with the grace of a cat on a freshly mopped floor. You’re trying to get help. Half the town thinks therapy is witchcraft. And the other half thinks medication is a moral failing. Meanwhile, you’re over here doing the emotional equivalent of rebuilding a transmission with a butter knife and a YouTube tutorial.

Dual diagnosis awareness is about reclaiming your narrative from the people who oversimplify it. Misunderstand it. Or try to shame you for it. It’s about saying, “Yes, I’m dealing with two things at once. And I’m still out here living. Healing. And occasionally thriving like the chaotic miracle I am.” And yet, here we are. Still showing up. Still healing. Still lighting the charcoal and sprinkling the sage like we’re about to summon the ancestors and the insurance company.

Dual diagnosis doesn’t make you broken. It makes you bilingual in battles most people will never understand. And if anyone tries to minimize your experience? Tell them this, “Baby, I’m not dealing with too much. You’re just underestimating my capacity.” Thanks for reading! And keep searching for answers.

Affirmation: I honor every part of my journey. The messy, the miraculous, and the medically complicated. All of it proves I’m stronger than the storms I’ve survived.

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Mental Health Awareness Month: A Southern Survival Guide for an Unwell Nation

“My mental health is held together by therapy, hydration, and three cats who refuse to let me spiral in peace.”

-This Puzzled Life

Light the charcoal. It’s Mental Health Awareness Month. And the collective mental state of this country is giving ‘a church van with three bald tires and a prayer.” The nation’s mental health is hanging on by a thread, a prayer, and a prescription refill reminder.

And let’s be honest. This crisis didn’t start at the bottom. No ma’am. We’ve got a mental‑health crisis starting at the top. And it’s dripping like a busted AC unit in August. Our leadership is acting like a Facebook comment section that’s surrounded by red‑hat followers cheering like it’s a halftime show. They treat conspiracy theories like gospel. And emotional regulation as a foreign language.

Meanwhile, my cats have entered the chat. Nothing says “mental health check‑in” like three judgmental felines watching the country unravel while demanding snacks. My cats have already staged an intervention.

Piper lit the sage herself. Coco is pacing like she’s waiting on election results. And Tinkerbell is under the couch. Because she said the national energy feels “crunchy.” She sits like a therapist who’s out of network. And blinking slowly at the news like, “This is why y’all need boundaries.” She watches the red‑hat crowd on TV and immediately starts grooming herself. Because she knows you can’t let that kind of energy stick to your fur.

Coco has diagnosed the nation with “Too Much Foolishness Disorder.” Her treatment plan includes knocking pens off the table. Screaming at 3 a.m. And sitting directly on your chest until you confront your feelings. She sees the state of the country and says, “Oh, we’re all unwell? Bet.” Then she sprints down the hallway like she’s reenacting the national mood.

Piper is the emotional support animal who needs emotional support. She watches the president on TV. Tilts her head and walks away like, “I don’t know what that is. But it’s not stable.” Then she curls up in your lap. Even she knows the collective anxiety is loud.

In May, we gather as a nation to say, “Let’s take care of our minds.” And every May the nation responds, “Absolutely. Right after I argue with strangers online about things I don’t understand.” Therapists are tired. Teachers are tired. Nurses are tired. Your cats are tired. You are tired. The ancestors are tired. Even the houseplants are like, “Girl, water me and breathe.”

Down Here in the South we’re doing our best. We’re lighting candles. We’re praying. We’re drinking water. We’re trying to heal generational trauma. While also trying to find the good scissors.

The collective Southern mental state is basically, “I’m fine.” Translation is that I have cried in the laundry room twice today. And if one more person asks me what’s for dinner, I’m moving into the woods.” Piper nods. Coco screams. Tinkerbell knocks something off the counter. It’s a family effort.

What do we do? We breathe. We hydrate. We take our meds. We go to therapy. We stop arguing with people who think facts are optional. We light the charcoal and let the sage smoke carry away the foolishness. And we listen to the cats. They’ve been trying to tell us, “Rest is resistance. Snacks are medicine. Boundaries are holy.”If we’re going to survive this era with its chaos, noise, and its red‑hat circus energy, we’re going to need hydration, humor, therapy, and at least one cat supervising our coping mechanisms. This country needs therapy, hydration, and a nap that lasts until at least 2028.

Piper has officially closed her laptop and declared she’s unavailable for further foolishness. And has already clocked out and put her paw over the “Do Not Disturb” sign. Coco is stress eating treats like she’s watching a season finale. And she is filing paperwork with HR titled “The Nation Is Acting Up Again.” Tinkerbell has curled up on my chest because she said, “the nation’s anxiety is too loud and she’s clocking out.” And has declared the vibes unconstitutional and gone to bed. 

If the world insists on acting unwell, then we’ll heal anyway. Loudly, joyfully, and with three cats as our emotional support security detail. Bless your boundaries, your brain cells, and your blood pressure. Now go forth and protect your peace like it’s the last biscuit at Sunday dinner. Thanks for reading! Get your ass in therapy.

Affirmation: I honor my mind, protect my peace, and set boundaries so firm even Coco won’t cross them.

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Did He Say Puberty?

“Other than dying, I think puberty is about as rough as it gets.”

-Rick Springfield

Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. Negative energy go away. Okie dokie! Today, I want to talk about that horrible stage in life called PUBERTY! I know, I know. I feel like I just got acid dumped on me for saying that name. These days I have found the evil older sister called menopause. 

I personally don’t know how I got through puberty. I started understanding the confusion of being gay. The hormonal changes made me psycho. I began learning about relationships and how they change. I remember thinking that I took everything so personally. Horrible trauma was a constant. I became an addict in so many different ways. I was also incredibly impulsive. I don’t ever remember considering the consequences about anything. It was all about if “they” said no, DO IT! Little did I know, I would get permanently stuck in that developmental age. My body might’ve gotten older but I have not really aged emotionally. Trauma manages to stunt your emotional growth. And I was going through more than my fair share while my brain was still developing.

I was never taught boundaries growing up. I didn’t have any personal boundaries and perpetrators are boundaryless by nature. It was the perfect set up for things to go horribly wrong and they did. Our class went through so much trauma within about five years that we had to grow up incredibly fast. By the time I was a senior, I was emotionally searching for something that could provide me with some kind of hope. And that’s when my ex-husband made his predatory move. Many of us have become addicts in different ways. And sadly, many of my classmates have attempted suicide, completed suicide, died from drug overdoses or have gone to prison. It was so tumultuous, in fact, that I totally retract at the mention of the word.

As I have watched my oldest son, Marshall, go head first into that time period, I would be lying if I didn’t say how scared I am for him. The world is so much more violent. Bullying is much worse. Suicides and murders are out of control. School shootings are happening all over the country. Predators show even less restraint. Depending on where you live in the United States being free to express your sexuality can also be very traumatic. Pressure about having perfect grades and being accepted into top college programs has stolen the happiness of a child’s developmental process. And then there’s fentanyl that tops it all. I hate to sound like an old fart by saying that the world was just different then but it was. 

I think now there’s more emphasis on developmental mental health which is always a positive. Cell Phones have been able to record evidence of some of these covert things especially with abusive teachers. And finally these kids have the proof that administrators can’t blow off. But the shame and rejection by families and society doesn’t make life any easier. Perpetrators whether they be peers or adults still operate in the same way. Threats and intimidation is what keeps kids silent and in constant fear. And you put all of that onto a teen and they just can’t handle it. I have overheard people talking about suicide and the person said, “Sometimes life is just too damn hard for these kids.” I know my kids well and I pay attention to everything that I can while co-parenting with their other mom and her partner. We all have a very open type of relationship. However, it scares the absolute shit out of me, because most people thought that I was perfectly fine. And I was the farthest thing from that.

You can follow all the latest research and suggested ways of raising a child but they can still carry with them their own darkness even in plain sight. I would hope that my boys would come to me for anything. But the truth is, that may or may not happen and the consequences can be devastating. And if that’s not resolved in a healthy way then they carry that emotional weight into adulthood. It will be interesting 20 years from now to see the problems that these kids have as adults. Because the struggles that kids are facing now will resurface in some way.

I have laughed many times at the funny sides of puberty by watching my kids. Especially when little brother,Copeland, and his frustrations with Marshall. Sometimes it’s just plain hilarious. At 10 years old, he asks his own questions about puberty. I try to be mature about some of it but it’s a futile effort. Sometimes I laugh so hard that I can hardly breathe. Copeland loves to call his brother out anytime he gets the chance. Not to mention the fact that bathing is an evil necessity and seems to be the main thing that gets in the way of their happiness at this moment. Here is an example of a conversation that I witnessed one day:

Me:  “What’s that smell?”

Copeland: “Probably my brother.”

Marshall:  “Why did you say that?” 

Copeland: “Because it’s true! Momma Mel said that you stink and it’s a sign of puberty. Even if you don’t have hair on your balls yet.”

I made a quick stop to the bathroom because my bladder can’t handle as much laughter as it once did. Whew…I met it half way.  I had to laugh into a towel. 

I asked them:

Copeland: “Puberty and why he stinks.” 

Me: “What are y’all talking about?”

(I start giggling) 

I cannot seem to be mature about certain topics. And this was a stunning example.

Copeland: “Momma Mel says that you get hair everywhere.”

Me: “Yep one day you’ll have hairy tits, pits and a ball-fro on your cherries.” 

(We all laughed.)

Me: Now who wants the shower first? Nuts and butts!!! Let’s go!!!

At this time in my life, I do my best to still laugh at their innocence. We take one day and one argument at a time. I correct them when I need to . But I also let them have the freedom to say what they feel that they need to say within reason.  And I help them the best I can to deal with feelings. I also let them know that feelings are just feelings and they don’t last forever. So that when they’re almost fifty years old they don’t have to suffer with not ever knowing that the concept ever existed. So, maybe, just maybe, they can begin to understand that emotions aren’t terminal. And that all the power that they need is found from within themselves instead of in all the temptations on the outside that lead to even bigger problems.. And they won’t be forever stuck in an insufferable and totally self-obsessed hell.

“Raising teens is like nailing jello to a tree.”

-Unknown

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