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Things I’ve Said In Therapy That Haunt Me

“Therapy is where my mouth says things my brain did not approve.”

-This Puzzled Life

Light the charcoal. Let it crackle like your last nerve. Because apparently my healing journey requires ambiance, smoke, and at least three ancestors supervising like I’m about to shoplift emotionally from the universe. Summon the ancestors. They love a front‑row seat to your emotional chaos. And today we’re adding a full therapy‑session script to the memoir of oversharing that already has them passing around spiritual popcorn.

The moment the charcoal sparks, I can hear Great‑Grandma Eunice whispering, “Lord, she’s going back to therapy again. Somebody get the popcorn.” And she’s right. Every time I walk into therapy, I transform from a functioning adult into a confused emotional raccoon who has been handed a microphone and zero supervision. I walk in with the intention of being mature. Grounded. And emotionally regulated. Five minutes later I’m saying things like:

  • strategic avoidance-“I’m not avoiding my problems, I’m just strategically rescheduling them.”
  • vibes-based coping-“My coping skills are vibes-based.”
  • attachment enthusiasm– “I don’t have attachment issues. I have attachment enthusiasm.”
  • fine-while-crying-“I’m fine.” While crying like a Victorian widow who just lost her husband to a horse accident.

My therapist sits there nodding like she’s watching a documentary about a rare woodland creature trying to file taxes.

Healing is wild. But it’s also tender. It’s not just me blurting out unhinged one-liners like a raccoon with a microphone. It’s also the quiet moments where I surprise myself with actual growth. And a lot of times, it’s just not pretty going through the process. So, here’s the more wholesome side of the things I’ve said in therapy. The ones that haunt me, yes, but also hold me.

1. “I’m trying.”

Not perfectly. Not consistently. But honestly. My therapist smiled so softly I almost cried again.

2. “I didn’t know I was allowed to feel that.”

And the ancestors hummed in agreement like a gospel choir warming up.

3. “I’m learning to be kinder to myself.”

My therapist nodded. My inner child peeked out from behind a metaphorical couch. Even my houseplant perked up a little.

4. “I don’t want to shut down anymore.”

That one made the room quiet in a holy way. Even the ancestors stopped chewing their spiritual peppermints.

5. “I’m scared, but I’m here.”

And honestly? That’s the bravest sentence I’ve ever said.

6. “I didn’t run from the hard thing this week.”

The ancestors clapped like I just graduated from emotional kindergarten.

7. “I’m starting to believe I deserve good things.”

My therapist wrote something down very gently. Probably “progress,” but in therapist handwriting it could also say “pot roast.”

8. “I’m learning to rest without guilt.”

This one made Great‑Grandma shout, “FINALLY” from the ancestral balcony.

9. “I’m not who I used to be.”

And that’s not scary anymore. It’s sacred.

10. “I’m proud of myself.”

And for once, I meant it.

The ancestors still show up. But now they’re less “judgmental pigeons.” And more “spiritual aunties who brought snacks and encouragement.”

  • Mamaw: “Baby, healing is slow-cooked, not microwaved.”
  • Uncle: “You’re doing better than you think.”
  • Aunty: “Tell your therapist you drank water today. She’ll be thrilled.”

They’re still loud. They’re still dramatic. But they’re rooting for me like I’m the only contestant on a cosmic game show called Emotional Regulation: The Remix.

THINGS I SHOULD NOT HAVE SAID OUT LOUD

  • descending with style-“I’m not spiraling, I’m just descending with style.”
  • houseplant trauma bond– “I trauma-bonded with a houseplant once.”
  • trust questions-“I don’t have trust issues. I have trust questions.”
  • inner child rebellion-“My inner child is tired of my shit.”
  • emotional airplane mode-“I’m not emotionally unavailable. I’m emotionally… on airplane mode.”
  • ancestor disappointment -“My ancestors did not survive plagues, wars, and the Great Depression for me to be defeated by a group chat.”
  • financial miracle plan-“I don’t need coping skills. I need a nap and a financial miracle.”
  • conflict timeout-“I’m not avoiding conflict. I’m giving it space to think about what it’s done.”
  • haunted brain-“My brain is like a haunted house. I don’t go in there alone.”

The ancestors? They’re not supportive. They’re entertained.

The Therapy Session: The Day I Overshared So Hard The Ancestors Stood Up

Therapist: “So, how have you been since last week?”

Me: “Emotionally? I’m like a Walmart shopping cart. One wheel is fine. The other three are screaming.”

Ancestor Mamaw (materializing): “Tell her about the Wal-Mart parking lot incident.”

Me: “Not now, Mamaw.”

Therapist: “Who are you talking to?”

Me: “My ancestors. They’re very involved.”

Therapist: “Okay, let’s explore that.”

Me: “No. The last time we explored something, I cried so hard I dehydrated myself.”

Therapist: “What’s coming up for you today?”

Me: “Well, I said ‘I’m fine’ earlier and my left eye twitched so hard it tried to leave my body.”

Therapist: “And what do you think that means?”

Me: “That my nervous system is wanting to avoid feelings.”

Ancestor Uncle: “She’s not wrong.”

Therapist: “Let’s talk about your coping skills.”

Me: “They’re vibes-based.”

Therapist: “Meaning?”

Me: “Meaning sometimes I blog. Sometimes I cry. Sometimes I eat a Pop-Tart and stare into the void.”

Therapist: “And how does that work for you?”

Me: “Well, I’m here.”

Ancestor Aunty: “Tell her about the houseplant.”

Me: “No.”

Therapist: “Houseplant?”

Me: “I trauma-bonded with a fern. We don’t need to unpack that.”

Therapist: “Everything is welcome here.”

Me: “Okay, but is everything refundable? I’d like to return some of these emotions.”

Therapist: “Let’s try grounding.”

Me: “I am grounded. That’s the problem. I’d like to be airborne.”

Therapist: “What do you need right now?”

Me: “A nap. A snack. A financial miracle. A dab, joint, and edible. And maybe a hug from someone with stable nervous system energy.”

Ancestor Mamaw: “She needs Jesus.”

Me: “I need a coupon code for life.”

Therapist: “Let’s breathe together.”

Me: “Okay, but if I start crying, it’s your fault.”

So here I stand surrounded by charcoal smoke. Ancestors perched like judgmental pigeons. Therapist scribbling notes like she’s drafting a memoir of her own. And me reflecting on the things I’ve said in therapy that haunt me like student loans.

And for the record? This was a tongue and cheek blog. My therapist has the patience of Job. Biblical-level patience. Generational patience. Patience that could calm a tornado with a peppermint and a soft voice. And I’ll say it plainly. I would not want to be my therapist or have her job. Not in this lifetime. Not in the next. Not even as a ghost with benefits.

Old ideologies and messages are hard to delineate from. Some of the ones about myself are probably be permanent. Others have changed or are changing slowly and stubbornly. And it’s like a mule being asked to do yoga.

But here’s the truth. Therapy can be where my mouth says things my brain did not approve. If you can’t laugh at some of the wild internal justifications your brain invents throughout the therapeutic process, the journey becomes heavier than it needs to be. Laughter doesn’t erase the work. It just makes the work survivable. So, if my therapy sessions sound like a comedy special hosted by a traumatized raccoon with a southern accent, that’s between me, my therapist, and the ancestors who refuse to mind their business. If oversharing burned calories, I’d be a supermodel by now.

Affirmation: I release shame. Embrace honesty. And trust that my chaos is still holy.

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The Blood on Mississippi Soil: Why Silence Is No Longer an Option

“Silence is the oldest accomplice of violence. And Mississippi has been silent for far too long.”

-This Puzzled Life

Light the charcoal, y’all. Because my ancestors are pacing the porch tonight. I can feel them in the humidity, the cicada buzz, and in the way the air gets thick right before a storm. They’re whispering. Tapping their feet. And shaking their heads the way old Southern aunties do when they’ve had enough of the foolishness. And Lord knows Mississippi has given us more than enough foolishness wrapped in Bible verses. Dipped in denial. And served with a side of “the South will rise again” delusion.

Because let’s tell the truth. The “Christian” community down here loves to shout about sin until it’s time to call out violence against Black bodies. Then suddenly everybody’s quiet. Clutching pearls. And humming hymns like silence is salvation. They’ll condemn a teenager’s skirt length before they condemn a system that keeps killing Black people. They’ll preach forgiveness while refusing accountability. They’ll talk about “God’s love” while ignoring the blood on their own soil. And I’m done pretending that’s holy.

Mississippi has always been a place where racism isn’t just a belief. It’s infrastructure. It’s policy. It’s tradition. It’s the foundation poured into the dirt generations ago. And too many folks still treat it like sacred ground.

And now, again, violence has come knocking at the doors of Black families. Again, the state government refuses to investigate. Again, accountability disappears when the killer is white. Again, we are told to “wait for the facts.” While the facts are buried under good ol’ boy politics and backroom handshakes.

A one-year-old Black baby was shot and killed by a white officer over diapers. Let me say that again. A baby died because a grown man with a badge felt threatened by diapers.

A Black teenage boy was found dead under mysterious circumstances. And instead of answers, we get a cover-up thicker than Delta mud. Evidence missing. Stories changing. Officials shrugging like a child’s life is just a paperwork inconvenience.

And now, a Black woman found hanging from a tree in 2026. And the state wants us to believe it’s anything other than what it looks like. Mississippi has a long, violent history with Black bodies and trees. We know what this is. We’ve seen it before. Our ancestors saw it before. And the silence from leadership is louder than any confession.

This isn’t coincidence. This isn’t isolated. This is a pattern, a legacy, and a sickness that Mississippi refuses to treat because too many people benefit from the infection. And let me tell you something. I’m old enough now to stand up and say it plainly. I’m old enough to fight for marginalized groups which include Black folks, brown folks, Indigenous folks, immigrants, and anyone who doesn’t fit the whitewashed mold Mississippi keeps trying to force us into. I’m old enough to say that I’m proud that I didn’t buy into the racist ideology that some of my own family members still cling to like it’s heirloom china.

I broke the cycle. I chose humanity over heritage. I chose truth over tradition. I chose justice over comfort. And if that makes me the black sheep at the family reunion, hand me the potato salad because I’ll graze in the pasture with pride. I’m proud to say I’m not like them. Not molded by their fear. Not shaped by their hate. Not carved into the same brittle statue of “tradition” they keep worshiping like it’s holy. I’m proud to say I crawled out of the same Mississippi clay. And still managed to grow in a different direction. And it was one that didn’t twist my roots around racism and call it heritage.

If rejecting their ideology means I lose my seat at the family table, then pull the chair out from under me. If refusing to swallow their silence means I’m no longer welcome in their church pews, then let the hymns echo without me. If choosing humanity over hypocrisy means I have to walk away from religion entirely, then I’ll walk away barefoot. Head high and unbothered.

Because I refuse to be loyal to a system that kills Black children and calls it “procedure.” I refuse to be loyal to a state that covers up Black death and calls it “ongoing investigation.” I refuse to be loyal to a community that sees a Black woman hanging from a tree and calls it “unfortunate.” I refuse to be loyal to people who hide behind scripture while ignoring suffering. I refuse to be loyal to any ideology that demands my silence while it destroys lives.

Mississippi may be built on racism. But I am not. Mississippi may cling to its racist past. But I do not. Mississippi may worship its own mythology. But I refuse to kneel. I am not like them. I will never be like them. And if breaking away from their beliefs is the cost of protecting my soul, integrity, and humanity, then that’s a price I’ll pay in full with no regrets.

Let them keep their “South will rise again” fantasies. I’m rising in a different direction. One they can’t touch. Can’t claim. And sure as hell can’t control. That’s my mic drop. And I won’t be picking it back up. Thanks for reading! What are your thoughts?

Affirmation: I honor my ancestors by refusing to repeat their pain. I stand in truth. I stand in courage. And I stand in love even when I stand alone.

***Don’t forget to watch the video!***

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Budtender Moment: Banana Latte Strain Vape Cart Review

“Some flavors don’t just taste good. They remind you who you are.”

-This Puzzled Life

Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. Today we’re stepping into the warm, creamy dreamscape of one of my favorite flavor lanes on Earth, banana. And when a vape cart leans into that banana latte fantasy, you already know I’m clocking in spiritually, emotionally, and botanically.

Banana Latte is a slightly leaning indica hybrid that keeps the mind bright enough to finish a sentence, a thought, or a grocery list. It is a cross between Banana OG × Café Mocha. Banana OG is a cross between OG Kush × Banana Kush. Café Mocha is a cross between Chocolope x Mochalope. Together they create a strain that tastes like your favorite barista is also your plug.

If a banana milkshake and a caramel latte had a baby and raised it in a warm greenhouse. This would be it. The flavors are creamy banana, light roasted coffee, sweet vanilla foam, and a whisper of nutty earth. That “Oh wait. This is delicious” moment that hits right behind the eyes.

The terpene profile Myrcene Caryophyllene Limonene. Some batches may also show Humulene for that earthy, roasted note that pairs beautifully with the coffee vibes. Patients use this strain for stress relief, body relaxation, mood elevation, emotional softening, mild pain, tension reduction creative focus with a warm, cozy mental glow.

And as always every grow, every region, every cultivator shifts the expression. Different soil, different sun, and different hands. And suddenly the banana leans sweeter. The coffee leans darker. Or the body effects lean heavier. That’s the magic of cannabis. The plant is alive. Responsive. And shaped by the land that raised it. Thanks for reading! And keep blazin.’ Have you tried this strain?

Affirmation: I welcome sweetness, warmth, and ease into my body. I allow myself to soften without losing my spark.

***Don’t forget to watch the video!***

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Budtender Moment: Purple Diesel Strain Review

“Purple Diesel is that friend who shows up unannounced. Cleans your kitchen.And leaves you with a playlist that changes your whole week.”

-This Puzzled Life

Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. Let the smoke rise like a front‑porch sermon. Today we’re talking about a strain that pulls up with diesel on its breath. And purple royalty in its bones. It’s a strain that goes by the name Purple Diesel.

Purple Diesel is a sativa‑dominant hybrid. It’s the kind that wakes you up. Straightens your crown. And tells you to get your life together but nicely. It is a cross between Sour Diesel × Pre‑98 Bubba Kush. South Diesel is a cross between Chemdawg × Super Skunk. Pre-98 Bubba Kush is a cross between OG Kush phenotype × (likely) Afghani landrace influence. This is the kind of ancestry that explains why Purple Diesel hits like a caffeinated poet with a velvet robe.

The flavor tastes like grape skins crushed under a boot heel. A splash of berry lemonade. A diesel‑fume exhale that says, “I’ve lived a life.” And a faint herbal sweetness that lingers like gossip on a porch swing. It’s fruity, funky, and fuel‑forward. And a whole personality in vapor form.

The terpene profile is Limonene, Myrcene, and Caryophyllene. Together they create a profile that’s energizing without being chaotic, flavorful without being sticky‑sweet. Consumers often reach for Purple Diesel when they need relief from mood, fatigue, stress, and mild pain. It’s the strain for when you need to move, but you also need to feel something again.

Please keep in mind that depending on differences in grows depends on what area of the country it is grown in. Ther will also be slight differences depending on when, where the plant was grown. Thanks for reading! And keep blazin.’ Have you tried this strain?

Affirmation: I rise with clarity. Move with purpose. And honor the energy that fuels me.

***Don’t forget to watch the video!***

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Badass Affirmations For Today’s Gen X Legends

“I am one minor inconvenience away from becoming a cryptid who lives in the woods and only appears to steal Wi-Fi.”

-This Puzzled Life

Light the charcoal. If we Gen Xers are gonna summon our inner Badass Affirmations, we need fire, smoke, and at least one neighbor peeking over the fence wondering if we’re starting a cookout or an exorcism. (Honestly, could be both. Depends on the day and the humidity.)

Listen, Gen Xers. We are the generation that survived lead paint, lawn darts, and riding in the back of pickup trucks at 70 mph. And parents who thought “therapy” was a sign of demonic possession. We are the middle children of America. The duct tape holding this country together. While Boomers argue on Facebook. Ok, I do argue on Facebook too. And Millennials cry into their oat milk. And now? Now we’re supposed to “affirm” ourselves like we’re soft, gentle beings who believe the universe is listening. Well, the universe is listening. But she’s got AirPods in. And she’s halfway through a true crime podcast.

So, today’s affirmations are not soft. They’re not gentle. They’re not written in pastel fonts with butterflies. No ma’am. These are Badass Affirmations for Today’s Gen Xers. They are forged in sarcasm. Raised on MTV. And baptized in the holy waters of “I don’t have time for this mess.” And yes, we’re doing it with Southern sass. Queer sparkle. And a healthy side-eye toward the conservative Christians. Who, ironically, swear Jesus hates everything except casseroles and Hobby Lobby.

Let us begin with the First Commandment of Gen X Badassery.

1. Thou shalt not let anyone born after 1995 tell you how to live.

If a 22-year-old tries to explain “self-care” to you, simply nod. Smile. And remember you once moisturized with St. Ives Apricot Scrub and survived.

2. Thou shalt embrace the chaos.

We are the generation that watched our parents scream about Satanic Panic while we listened to Madonna and played Dungeons & Dragons. Chaos is our birthright. We don’t run from it. We season it. Fry it. And serve it with sweet tea.

3. Thou shalt not be guilt-tripped by hypocrites.

If someone clutching a Bible tries to shame you for existing, remind them Jesus hung out with prostitutes, tax collectors, and fishermen. Not HOA presidents. And if they still don’t get it, bless their heart and move on. (Bless their heart = Southern for “I hope your casserole burns.”)

4. Thou shalt affirm thyself with the confidence of a drag queen at a Baptist potluck.

You are not too old. You are not too tired. You are not too anything. You are a Gen Xer. We were forged in sarcasm. Fueled by caffeine. And held together by ibuprofen and spite.

5. Thou shalt remember that Gen X invented minding your business.

We walked home alone after school. We raised ourselves on microwaved pizza rolls. We learned to fix emotional trauma with sarcasm and a mixtape. We do not need Karen from church telling us how to parent, pray, or process our trauma.

6. Thou shalt embrace your gay sass, even if your mee-maw still calls it “your little personality.”

Honey, shine. Shimmer. Sparkle like a disco ball at a revival tent. If they don’t like it, they can go read Leviticus and leave you alone.

7. Thou shalt affirm your worth even when your back pops like bubble wrap every time you stand up.

You are still hot. You are still powerful. You are still the generation that survived dial-up internet. You can survive anything.

So, light the charcoal. Gen X is not just for ambiance. But as a spiritual act of rebellion. Let that smoke rise like our collective patience leaving our bodies every time someone under 30 says, “OK boomer.” And we have to remind them we are the generation that invented eye‑rolling, sarcasm, and emotional detachment as a coping mechanism.

Stand tall in your Crocs. Your orthopedic inserts. Your “I swear I used to be fun” hoodie. Lift your chin with the confidence of someone who survived dial‑up, Reaganomics, and parents who thought seatbelts were “optional suggestions.” Declare your affirmations with the boldness of a queer Southerner walking into a conservative church potluck carrying a rainbow Jell‑O mold and a smile that says, “Yes, Brenda, I am the agenda.”

Let your voice boom like a Baptist preacher who just found out the choir director is gay (again). Let your spirit shine like Aqua Net on prom night. Let your boundaries be firmer than your lower back when it locks up at 6 a.m. for no reason.

Because you, my darling Gen X legend, are a walking contradiction of grit, glitter, trauma, triumph, sarcasm, and survival. You are the generation that raised yourself. Therapized yourself. Caffeinated yourself. And resurrected yourself more times than Jesus’ PR team could keep up with.

You are the duct tape holding this country together. You are the middle child of America who learned to thrive in chaos. You are the badass who can say “bless your heart” with 47 different meanings. And all of them legally binding.

And if anyone tries to dim your shine or question your worth or tell you you’re “too old” for something, smile sweetly. Take a deep breath. Channel your ancestors. Your inner drag queen. Your inner grunge‑era rage. And your inner Southern auntie who keeps a flask in her purse. Then say, with holy conviction, “I survived the 80s, the 90s, and three decades of other people’s nonsense. I am not the one.”

Now go forth, Gen X. Be bold. Be loud. Be unbothered. Be the badass affirmation the world needs. And may your charcoal always light on the first try. Thanks for reading! Does this blog feel “right on the money” for our generation?

Affirmation: I am a Gen X masterpiece. I’m sarcastically blessed. Spiritually moisturized. And too seasoned to be shaken by amateurs.

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The Gospel of Dolly Parton: Kindness, Glitter, and Generational Healing

“Find out who you are and do it on purpose.” 

-Dolly Parton

Light the charcoal. Pull up a chair. And let’s call the ancestors. Today, we’re about to talk about a woman whose legacy smells like warm biscuits, rhinestones, and generational healing. Dolly Parton wasn’t just a country singer. She was a walking love letter to humanity. A Southern phoenix who rose from the Smoky Mountains with a voice full of honey and a heart full of fire. And Lord, did she use that fire to light the way for all of us.

When we speak Dolly Parton’s name, we’re not just telling a story. We’re summoning a legacy stitched into the bones of the South, the nation, and every child who ever held a book and felt their world crack open with possibility.

Dolly wasn’t just a singer. She was a healer. A mountain-born miracle. A Southern woman who took her own childhood that was poor, barefoot, brilliant, and turned it into a mission to make sure no child, anywhere, ever felt small because of their circumstances.

She carried the Smoky Mountains in her voice. It was the sass of every Southern auntie who ever said, “Bless your heart. But fix your life.” And the tenderness of a mama who knows what it means to struggle and still show up with love. And when it came to children, Dolly didn’t play. She built an empire of hope one book, one song, one act of kindness at a time.

10 Things Dolly Did for All Communities (Especially the Ones Society Overlooked)

  • She created the Imagination Library, sendingover 200 million free books to children in rural, urban, poor, wealthy, Black, white, immigrant, Indigenous, disabled, LGBTQ+ families, and everyone. Dolly said literacy wasn’t a privilege. It was a birthright.
  • She made sure those books were culturally inclusive. They featured stories with diverse characters, languages, and experiences so every child could see themselves reflected in the pages.
  • She funded vaccine research by helping save lives during a global crisis without needing applause or credit.
  • She uplifted LGBTQ+ communities by loving loudly. Defending boldly. And showing up long before it was “safe” or trendy.
  • She championed women’s empowerment by proving you can be glamorous, soft, and still run an empire with steel in your spine.
  • She protected Appalachian culture by honoring the stories, music, and people who shaped her. And making sure the world respected them too.
  • She donated millions to disaster relief, especially in overlooked Southern and rural communities that often get left behind.
  • She built Dollywood, creating thousands of jobs and economic stability for families who needed hope and opportunity.
  • She supported literacy and education beyond books, funding scholarships, schools, and programs for children who grew up like she did full of potential but lacking resources.
  • She modeled radical kindness, showing the world that compassion is not weakness. It’s world-changing power.

Dolly didn’t just give books. She gave children a future. She gave parents hope. She gave communities pride. She gave generations a chance to dream bigger than their circumstances.

Dolly Parton walked through this world like a rhinestone-wrapped blessing. She didn’t ask permission to shine. She just did. And she made sure everyone around her felt the warmth of that glow. She was the kind of woman who could take her own childhood poverty and turn it into a global literacy movement. Who could take her pain and turn it into poetry. Who could take her sass and turn it into strength.

She taught us that kindness is a revolution. She taught us that generosity is a legacy. She taught us that beauty is not about perfection. It’s about authenticity. She taught us that you can be underestimated your whole life and still outwork, out love, and outshine every last person who doubted you. She didn’t just leave behind songs. She left behind libraries. She left behind hope. She left behind a blueprint for how to live with grace, humor, and unapologetic sparkle.

So, light the charcoal. Let the ancestors hum. Let the mountains echo her name. Because Dolly Parton didn’t just change country music. She didn’t just change philanthropy. She didn’t just change the South. She changed humanity one child, one book, one act of love at a time. Mic dropped. Sequins scattered. Legacy eternal.

Affirmation: I shine boldly. Give generously. And build a legacy of love just like Dolly taught me.

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Budtender Moment: Gushers Strain Review

“Gushers is the strain that reminds you joy doesn’t have to be complicated. Sometimes it’s just fruit‑flavored and waiting on you.”

-This Puzzled Life

Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. Let the smoke rise like it’s clocking in for its shift. Today we’re calling in the spirit of Gushers. It’s the strain that tastes like somebody melted a bag of fruit snacks on the dashboard of a ’98 Corolla and somehow made it holy.

Gushers is a 60/40 indica-hybrid. Not the kind that can’t make up its mind. This one knows exactly who it is. It’s a laid‑back, fruit‑forward, body‑melting hybrid. And walks into the room wearing Crocs and still pulls focus. This strain is a cross between Gelato #41 × Triangle Kush. Gelato #41 is a cross between Sunset Sherbet × Thin Mint GSC. And Triangle Kush is a cross between Emerald Triangle OG × Hindu Kush. Gushers tastes like fruit snacks, sweet berry syrup, tropical candy, and a whisper of earthy kush on the exhale. It’s the strain equivalent of someone handing you a Capri Sun and saying, “You look like you need this.”

The terpene profile is Caryophyllene, Limonene, and Linalool. Together they create a vibe that’s equal parts candy aisle and meditation pillow. Patients reach for this strain to help with chronic stress, anxiety, mild to moderate pain, mood swings, appetite support, and end‑of‑day decompression. This is a strain that doesn’t rush you. It just hands you a blanket and says, “Baby, breathe.”

Please keep in mind that depending on differences in grows depends on what area of the country it is grown in. Ther will also be slight differences depending on when, where the plant was grown. Thanks for reading! And keep blazin.’ Have you tried this strain?

Affirmation: I allow sweetness to find me. I soften. I settle. And I let my body remember ease.

***Don’t forget to watch the video!***

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Things I Trust More Than This Administration: A Field Guide to Funk, Foolishness, and Feral Cats

“If it smells bad, at least it’s not pretending to be leadership.”

-This Puzzled Life

The Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. Let the ancestors pinch their noses and look away. Today we’re diving deeper into the olfactory underworld. We are not merely discussing stink. We are invoking it. We are calling forth the foul, the funky, the spiritually disrespectful aromas that have shaped us. Traumatized us. And strengthened our immune systems. 

This is not a blog post. This is a ritual of olfactory truth‑telling. The realm of smells so violent, spiritually disrespectful, and chemically aggressive that OSHA would need a prayer circle. And yet. I trust every single one of them more than the current administration.

Piper has already climbed onto the counter like a tiny, judgmental priestess. While waving her paw through the sage smoke like she’s blessing the space. Tinkerbell is pacing the hallway like she’s preparing to testify before Congress. Coco is sitting in the corner with her eyes half‑closed, whispering, “Mother, the air is lying to us.” And She’s right.

When the world is full of institutional nonsense. Bureaucratic gaslighting. And leadership that smells like a compost bin in August. Sometimes the only thing you can trust is the honest, unfiltered, unapologetic funk of everyday life. So, gather your courage. Gather your nose plugs. Gather your cats if they’re willing. We’re going in. Here is a list of stinky things I trust more than the current administration.

1. The Diaper With a Personal Vendetta

This diaper is not merely stinky. This diaper is sentient. It has a backstory. It has unresolved conflict. It has seen the rise and fall of civilizations. And is now wandering the earth like a cursed relic. It smells like betrayal, hot milk, and generational trauma.

Piper: “Momma, that diaper has a stronger moral compass than the entire federal budget.”

2. The Litter Box Couple in a Toxic Relationship

These two litter boxes have been together for years. They fight. They reconcile. They break up. They get back together. They smell like resentment and clumping clay. One is passive-aggressive. The other is emotionally unavailable. Together, they are the most stable relationship in the house.

Tinkerbell: “At least they own their mess. Can the administration say the same?”

3. The Onion That Has Gone Full Demon Mode

This onion has sprouted tentacles. It has opinions. It has a five‑year plan and a side hustle. It smells like a root vegetable that has lost its faith. You don’t throw this onion away. You negotiate with it.

Coco: “That onion has transparency. I respect that.”

4. The Gym Sock That Has Survived Three Regimes

This sock is crunchy. This sock is haunted. This sock has been to war metaphorically and possibly literally. It smells like despair, ambition, and a middle school locker room.

Piper: “That sock has done more for this country than the administration.”

5. The Trash Can You Forgot During a Heat Wave

This trash can smells like sin. It smells like regret. It smells like a decision you made at 2 a.m. that still haunts you. It has its own gravitational pull.

Tinkerbell: “At least the trash knows it’s trash. And doesn’t require a newly purchased jet to function.”

6. The Forgotten Tupperware in the Back of the Fridge

You know the one. You don’t open it. You don’t touch it. You don’t even look directly at it. It contains a life form that has achieved consciousness and is now applying for citizenship.

Coco: “That Tupperware has accountability. Revolutionary.”

7. The Muddy Boot That Never Fully Dries

This boot smells like mildew, swamp secrets, and the ghost of a crawfish boil. It has been through things. It has trauma. It has character development.

Piper: “That boot would never gaslight me.”

8. The Sponge You Should Have Thrown Away in 2019

This sponge is a biohazard. It is a microbial theme park. It smells like a wet gremlin. And yet? It is more reliable than any press briefing.

Tinkerbell: “That sponge has more structural integrity.”

9. The Bag of Salad That Turned Into Swamp Water Overnight

You bought it with good intentions. You blinked. It liquefied. It smells like a bog witch’s armpit.

Coco: “That salad at least tried to do something productive.”

And so, after reviewing diapers with emotional baggage and a vendetta. Litter boxes in codependent chaos  and in couples therapy. Onions with career goals. Haunted gym socks with PTSD. A liquefied bag of salad. And Tupperware that has achieved full spiritual ascension. One truth stands firm. We have toured the underworld of stink. The swamp of scents. The olfactory apocalypse itself. And the current administration? Give me the stink. Give me the chaos. Give me the onion with a five‑year plan. At least they don’t gaslight me.

There are many things in this world that stink. And after all that? I trust every single one of these foul, unholy, nose‑curling abominations more than I trust the current administration. Because at least the stink is honest.

At least the stink warns you before it ruins your day. At least the stink doesn’t pretend to be anything other than what it is. At least the stink owns its chaos instead of filing it under “pending review.” The administration? They’ll hand you a burning dumpster and call it “innovation.”

Piper is lighting sage like she’s trying to smoke out a demon. Tinkerbell is drafting a bill titled “The National Odor Accountability Act.” And Coco is in the corner filing a FOIA request with a clipboard whispering, “We need oversight. We need structure. We need a nose‑based justice system.” As for me? I’m opening a window and letting the truth air out. And my spirit guides begging me to stop reading the news before bed.

Let the record show itself carved into stone. Embroidered on a pillow. Tattooed on the lower back of democracy itself. I trust the stink. I believe the stink. I stand with the stink. And until the administration can match the moral clarity of a trash can in a heat wave? I’ll be over here with my cats, my sage, and my nose plugs. And I’ll be choosing the truth. Choosing the chaos. And choosing the funk. Thanks for reading! And watch this stinky administration cause chaos and ruin our democracy.

Affirmation: I release all illusions, delusions, and government issued nonsense.

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Happy 250th Birthday, America! Please Stop Acting Like You’re Still in Your Rebellious Teen Phase

“I’m not saying my life is chaotic, but even my cats hold emergency staff meetings before waking me up.”

-This Puzzled Life

Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. America just turned 250 years old. And the ancestors, the cats, and the queer community all have something to say. Welcome to the backyard celebration where the grill is smoking. The humidity is judging us. And my cats have formed a bipartisan committee to review the last two and a half centuries of American behavior. Spoiler: the report reads like a Yelp review written by someone who did not enjoy their meal.

Tink, the union rep, conspiracy theorist, and the only cat who can quote the Declaration of Independence while knocking over a pitcher of sweet tea. She is pacing the yard like a Southern aunt who just found out someone brought store‑bought potato salad to the reunion.

Coco, the Sunbeam High Priestess, is perched on the porch rail wearing a magnolia crown. With a look that says she’s about to bless the food. Curse the government. And call on the ancestors in one breath.

Piper, the chaotic gremlin and Security Briefing Officer, is under the picnic table shredding a copy of the Bill of Rights. And it’s like she’s reenacting the Boston Tea Party. But with more attitude and fewer boats.

And me? I’m standing here with a spatula, a prayer, and the kind of patience only a Southern woman with humidity pressing on her soul can muster.

Let’s start with the part America keeps trying to whisper like it’s gossip instead of history. This land belonged to Native peoples. Sovereign nations. Ancient cultures. Communities with governments, languages, and spiritual traditions older than anything Europe could dream up. And from the moment colonizers arrived, Native people were met with violence, displacement, broken treaties, and centuries of injustice that still echo today.

Piper has already drafted a resolution titled, “Acknowledge the original landlords, sugar.”

Tink is lighting a candle for every Native ancestor whose story was erased.

Coco is chewing on a map as symbolism.

The Declaration vs. Today: A Southern Birthday Roast

1. “All men are created equal.”

Back then: a bold statement. Today: treated like the fine print on a Dollar General receipt.

And let’s be honest. It did include Black people, Native people, women, or queer folks. We’ve been fighting ever since to make those words true.

2. “Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Happiness.”

Originally: a promise. Now: feels like trying to get a refund at Walmart without a receipt.

Tink is offended on behalf of the ancestors.

3. “No taxation without representation.”

Today: Representation that sometimes forgets who it’s supposed to represent.

Coco is chewing on a campaign flyer as symbolism and possibly a snack.

4. The Bill of Rights

A beautiful list of protections America treats like a potluck. Take what you want. Ignore the vegetables. And pretend the casserole section doesn’t exist.

Piper is muttering, “If they’d just read the whole thing, we wouldn’t be in this mess.”

America didn’t magically improve. It was dragged lovingly, loudly, and sometimes kicking by people who refused to sit down or shut up.

I’m talking about people like:

  • Harriet Tubman, who freed herself and then went back repeatedly to free others.
  • Frederick Douglass, who told America the truth with more clarity than any Founder.
  • Rosa Parks, who sat down so the nation would stand up.
  • Dr. Martin Luther King Jr., who turned civil disobedience into a moral mirror.
  • John Lewis, who taught us about “good trouble.”
  • Fannie Lou Hamer, Mississippi’s own, who said she was, “sick and tired of being sick and tired” and meant it.
  • Native activists, from the American Indian Movement to modern water protectors, who have fought for sovereignty and dignity for generations.

Tink has declared them the true Founders of America’s second draft.

And because America’s story isn’t complete without the queer community. Especially the ones who risked everything so future generations could breathe freely.

Our leaders were:

  • Marsha P. Johnson, who threw the first brick of truth.
  • Sylvia Rivera, who demanded that trans people not be erased from the movement they helped build.
  • Bayard Rustin, the strategist behind the March on Washington, whose brilliance shaped the Civil Rights Movement even as he faced discrimination for being gay.
  • Audre Lorde, who taught us that silence never saved anyone.
  • Harvey Milk, who insisted that visibility is power.

These leaders didn’t just fight for rights. They fought for the right to exist.

Piper has added them to the “Heroes Who Did America’s Homework For Her” list.

And while we’re being honest. America isn’t white. America is black brilliance. Native resilience. Brown creativity. Asian innovation. Pacific Islander strength. Middle Eastern wisdom. Multiracial beauty. Queer joy. Immigrant courage. And every shade, accent, and story in between. Color is what makes this country beautiful. Color is what makes this country possible.

Tink has declared this the official theme of the 250th, “Patriotism, but make it multicultural.”

Coco has declared the theme, “Snacks and diversity.”

Piper has declared the theme, “America is a gumbo, not a mayonnaise sandwich.”

Happy 250th, America! You’re messy. You’re dramatic. You’re full of contradictions, potential, and fireworks that definitely violate at least three county ordinances. But you’re ours. And we’re going to keep fighting, laughing, voting, boundary‑setting, and sage‑burning until you live up to the promises you made on Day One.

Because the Declaration wasn’t a suggestion. The Bill of Rights wasn’t a Pinterest board. And democracy isn’t a spectator sport. It’s a potluck where everybody better bring something besides complaints. May America’s next 250 years be less “Hold my beer” and more “Hold my principles.” And if not, don’t worry. My cats already drafted a backup government using crayons, glitter, and pure Southern audacity. Thanks for reading! And let freedom ring.

Affirmation: I am a whole miracle with seasoning. Not everyone can handle the flavor. And that’s their burden to carry, bless their heart.”

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The Feline Farm Bill: My Cats Regulate Hemp Now

“Hemp is strong. Sustainable. And slightly less dramatic than the cats in this house.”

-This Puzzled Life

Light the charcoal. Sprinkle the sage. If we’re going to honor National Hemp Month, we need the ancestors, the angels, and at least three bored saints on standby. The spirits of Southern chaos have already begun circling the living room like they’re waiting for a casserole to come out the oven. The energy in this house is already vibrating like a Dollar General ceiling fan on its last screw. And Piper has been pacing the hallway like she’s waiting for a verdict from the Supreme Court of Snacks.

The moment the sage smoke curled upward, Piper burst into the room wearing a bathrobe she absolutely stole from the clean laundry basket. 

She spoke like she was about to deliver a prophecy.

Piper: “Momma, it is Hemp Month. I have prepared a statement.”

Before I could respond, Coco slid in behind her like a baseball player stealing home. She was holding a bag of Temptations in her mouth like a union negotiator arriving with concessions. She mumbled through the bag.

Coco: “I’m here in solidarity, And also because I heard hemp can be used to make rope. And rope can be used to hang treat piñatas.”

From above us, on top of the fridge, Tinkerbell let out the kind of sigh that only a cat who has read the Constitution twice can produce.

Tinkerbell: “You two are embarrassing. Hemp is an agricultural commodity with a nuanced regulatory framework. Not a snack-based holiday.”

Piper gasped.

Piper: “Everything is a snack-based holiday if you believe hard enough.”

And that’s when I knew that this intro needed to be fortified. This month needed to be fortified. I needed to be fortified. So, I sprinkled more sage. A little more charcoal. And maybe a splash of holy water for good measure.

If National Hemp Month is going to happen in thishousehold, I’m going to need the strength of industrial hemp itself. It’s flexible. Resilient. And capable of withstanding the absolute foolishness of three feline revolutionaries who think they’re about to unionize the living room. And that’s just the intro.

I swear. I was just trying to light a candle and mind my business. And Piper came skidding into the kitchen like she’d been summoned by the Department of Agriculture itself.

Piper: “We must prepare the house.”

Coco peeked around the corner holding a bag of treats like a bribe. 

Coco: “I’m just here to support the movement and also to see if snacks are involved.”

Tinkerbell: “Both of you are unserious. Hemp is a versatile agricultural commodity with a complex regulatory history. And you, she pointed a paw at Piper, are wearing a cape made from a dish towel.”

Piper: “It’s ceremonial.” 

I tried to explain that National Hemp Month is about education, sustainability, and celebrating a plant that has been misunderstood more than a Southern woman who says, “I’m fine.” Piper had already declared herself Hemp Czar and was marching through the house inspecting imaginary crops.

Coco: “Do hemp farmers get snacks? Because I’m willing to pivot careers.”

Tinkerbell rolled her eyes so hard I heard it.

Tinkerbell: “Hemp is federally legal, Coco. You don’t get snacks for following the law.”

Coco: “Then what’s the point?” 

Tinkerbell cleared her throat like she was about to read from the Book of Revelation.

Tinkerbell: “Under the 2018 Farm Bill, hemp was federally legalized as long as it contains no more than 0.3 percent THC. States regulate production through USDA-approved plans. And farmers must test crops to ensure compliance. Some states are stricter. Some are looser. And all of them are confused. Hemp is legal. But only if it behaves.”

Piper: “So if the hemp gets too excited, it becomes a criminal?”

Tinkerbell: “Yes. Just like you after 9 p.m.”

I tried to bring the energy back to something wholesome.

Me: “Let’s honor the plant. Let’s celebrate sustainability, fiber, textiles, and-”

But Piper cut me off.

Piper: “Momma, I have prepared a speech.”

She climbed onto the coffee table. Cleared her throat. And declared,

Piper: “Hemp is the fabric of our future. Also, I request a hemp hammock, a hemp scratching post, and a hemp crown.”

Coco clapped

Coco: “I second the crown.”

Tinkerbell stared at me like, “This is your circus. These are your monkeys.”

By the end of the night, Piper had drafted a “Hemp Bill of Rights.” Coco had eaten half a bag of treats in the name of activism. And Tinkerbell had filed three formal complaints with the imaginary Feline Ethics Committee.

And me? I blew out the sage. Looked at my household of furry legislators. And whispered, “Lord, give me the strength of industrial hemp to withstand the foolishness of this house.” Curtain closed. Hemp Month survived. Thanks for reading! Stay educated. What do you think about the current legislation regarding hemp?

Affirmation: “I honor the plant. Embrace the chaos. And stay grounded even when my cats form a hemp committee without my consent.”

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